Class of February 2016 Support Thread Part 7
Member
Join Date: Apr 2014
Location: New York
Posts: 3,241
Dee so sorry for your loss. And truly thank you for all you do here!
JL - I think you're doing what you need to do, though - feeling the feels so to speak. We've all muted our feelings with alcohol in the past. Now they're rushing through. Be kind to yourself. Take deep breaths. Besides only discussing the feelings though - think back to things you two enjoyed doing together perhaps. Babysitters, date night or afternoon - what do you like to do? I know this may sound simpler than it will be but you can get there. Long walk and talk maybe. Acknowledge things, but recognize the past is the past and you can promise you're working on a better YOU for the future, maybe she can agree to work on a better HER, and together work on a better couple.
JL - I think you're doing what you need to do, though - feeling the feels so to speak. We've all muted our feelings with alcohol in the past. Now they're rushing through. Be kind to yourself. Take deep breaths. Besides only discussing the feelings though - think back to things you two enjoyed doing together perhaps. Babysitters, date night or afternoon - what do you like to do? I know this may sound simpler than it will be but you can get there. Long walk and talk maybe. Acknowledge things, but recognize the past is the past and you can promise you're working on a better YOU for the future, maybe she can agree to work on a better HER, and together work on a better couple.
Nature Lover & Plantoholic
Join Date: Feb 2016
Location: The Golden State
Posts: 284
Originally Posted by Caramel 
Condolences on your bereavement, Dee, and thank you for all you do here 
If I ever make it back to Oz [and ideally to NZ, as I've stated], I'd like to meet y'all in person!
Tasmania also looks interesting.
I should probably go back on the ADHD meds, huh?
Member
Join Date: Jun 2013
Posts: 509
Just checking in. I'm ending another day sober. It's Day 30!!! Woo hoo!! It has actually flown by. My mind & body feel so much better. I still have struggling times but its getting easier. I haven't been on here in a few days so I'm way behind on reading all the posts. I hope everyone is doing well & staying sober!!
Member
Join Date: Feb 2011
Location: Texas
Posts: 665
Originally Posted by Outonthetiles
Yes, Dee, thank you. I am certain you've saved more lives than chemotherapy. I think of Dee like those guys in the final scene in Titanic right before the ship breaks up, who are in the electrical room desperately pushing in breakers to keep the lights on, even when the ship is at about a 45 degree angle! Whenever the Feb group has about three simultaneous meltdowns, I think to myself, "Dee's gonna have to shove in a bunch of breakers to keep the lights on again!"
Anyway, I'm sorry to hear about what's going on with you, Dee. I personally owe you a lot. I haven't really posted about how low I got, but it's not an exaggeration to say I was headed for death. Dee, you prevented that. Thank you.
Anyway, I'm sorry to hear about what's going on with you, Dee. I personally owe you a lot. I haven't really posted about how low I got, but it's not an exaggeration to say I was headed for death. Dee, you prevented that. Thank you.
Member
Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: New England
Posts: 1,067
Today has been really tough. I worked a double at my job, which I've been burnt out on for a long time. I've never had a problem of relating to ppl, sober or drunk, in my life. I relate to no one in this place. It's fast paced and tiring which is ok but poorly managed. I'm planning to leave it soon when I move in April, white knuckling through it until then.
I left about an hour ago, all amped up mentally, but physically exhausted. There's plenty of liquor stops on the way home, I pondered each. It was apathy pushing me, Why the f*ck not? Driving by each store I thought about how miserable I would be tommorow... and the next day... and the next day. It worked... barely. I got some food, ate it, feel a little better as far as cravings go but coming home to a cold empty house (bro and his gf on a ski trip) is pretty depressing. There's also a ton of very fine booze here. Ive posted before that I'm moving in April but that doesn't help me tonight.
All the people here just pissed me off, sober or drunk. I recently moved to this new area because I have some family here... never should have left where I was. The grass truly looked greener, it's not. Apathy setting in... desperation... funny, I was two months sober before I moved here..
I'm not going to drink tonight. I'm going to suck it up and feel ******... I guess it's how I am supposed to feel at the moment... it will pass...
I'm in my bed now, safe for tonight... tonight has been the hardest night since the first. I'm going to go back to facing this AV hour by hour... minute by minute... thanks for listening. I hope everyone is safe tonight.
I left about an hour ago, all amped up mentally, but physically exhausted. There's plenty of liquor stops on the way home, I pondered each. It was apathy pushing me, Why the f*ck not? Driving by each store I thought about how miserable I would be tommorow... and the next day... and the next day. It worked... barely. I got some food, ate it, feel a little better as far as cravings go but coming home to a cold empty house (bro and his gf on a ski trip) is pretty depressing. There's also a ton of very fine booze here. Ive posted before that I'm moving in April but that doesn't help me tonight.
All the people here just pissed me off, sober or drunk. I recently moved to this new area because I have some family here... never should have left where I was. The grass truly looked greener, it's not. Apathy setting in... desperation... funny, I was two months sober before I moved here..
I'm not going to drink tonight. I'm going to suck it up and feel ******... I guess it's how I am supposed to feel at the moment... it will pass...
I'm in my bed now, safe for tonight... tonight has been the hardest night since the first. I'm going to go back to facing this AV hour by hour... minute by minute... thanks for listening. I hope everyone is safe tonight.
Member
Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: New England
Posts: 1,067
Originally Posted by Outonthetiles
Good job jobei. Hang in there until you can move. You HAVE to get out of that toxic environment.
Member
Join Date: Feb 2016
Location: middle of nowhere
Posts: 2,849
Hey guys! Big hugs to you all 
missed you guys! Dee I am sorry for your loss
You guys all rock. I thought about you guys lots while I was away from electronic devices. Trying to unplug a bit and plug back into real life, spend some time at the farm with my daughter and step daughter. It was a beautiful day. I miss my older two kids terribly. I started in on the step 4 work today... shew. Went to one of my fave meetings tonight which I really needed, and it bolstered my spirit tremendously.
SO glad I went.... I shed some tears today after talking to my son on the phone. Then I left the girls at the farm for the meeting and I'm back at home with the roommate(s) and I damn near got slapped in the face with a very attractive bottle of wine in the fridge!
frack. If I hadn't put my time in today I know where my head would be sleeping tonight. In that fridge.
I hope you are all doing well. I tried to read all the posts but I know as soon as I start naming names I will forget someone. BUT I think you are all awesome and this is an awesome class, and each of you are important to me. I am so grateful for everyone's input, insights, and stories of your lives. I know I couldn't have gotten this far without you all. So thank you for my sobriety. And I wish you all a very amazing sunday full of love and another 24 sober.
missed you guys! Dee I am sorry for your loss You guys all rock. I thought about you guys lots while I was away from electronic devices. Trying to unplug a bit and plug back into real life, spend some time at the farm with my daughter and step daughter. It was a beautiful day. I miss my older two kids terribly. I started in on the step 4 work today... shew. Went to one of my fave meetings tonight which I really needed, and it bolstered my spirit tremendously.
SO glad I went.... I shed some tears today after talking to my son on the phone. Then I left the girls at the farm for the meeting and I'm back at home with the roommate(s) and I damn near got slapped in the face with a very attractive bottle of wine in the fridge!
frack. If I hadn't put my time in today I know where my head would be sleeping tonight. In that fridge. I hope you are all doing well. I tried to read all the posts but I know as soon as I start naming names I will forget someone. BUT I think you are all awesome and this is an awesome class, and each of you are important to me. I am so grateful for everyone's input, insights, and stories of your lives. I know I couldn't have gotten this far without you all. So thank you for my sobriety.
And I wish you all a very amazing sunday full of love and another 24 sober.
Member
Join Date: Feb 2016
Location: Where the Honey is
Posts: 728
Originally Posted by Delizadee
Hey guys! Big hugs to you all missed you guys! Dee I am sorry for your loss
You guys all rock. I thought about you guys lots while I was away from electronic devices. Trying to unplug a bit and plug back into real life, spend some time at the farm with my daughter and step daughter. It was a beautiful day. I miss my older two kids terribly. I started in on the step 4 work today... shew. Went to one of my fave meetings tonight which I really needed, and it bolstered my spirit tremendously.
SO glad I went.... I shed some tears today after talking to my son on the phone. Then I left the girls at the farm for the meeting and I'm back at home with the roommate(s) and I damn near got slapped in the face with a very attractive bottle of wine in the fridge! frack. If I hadn't put my time in today I know where my head would be sleeping tonight. In that fridge.
I hope you are all doing well. I tried to read all the posts but I know as soon as I start naming names I will forget someone. BUT I think you are all awesome and this is an awesome class, and each of you are important to me. I am so grateful for everyone's input, insights, and stories of your lives. I know I couldn't have gotten this far without you all. So thank you for my sobriety. And I wish you all a very amazing sunday full of love and another 24 sober.
missed you guys! Dee I am sorry for your loss You guys all rock. I thought about you guys lots while I was away from electronic devices. Trying to unplug a bit and plug back into real life, spend some time at the farm with my daughter and step daughter. It was a beautiful day. I miss my older two kids terribly. I started in on the step 4 work today... shew. Went to one of my fave meetings tonight which I really needed, and it bolstered my spirit tremendously.
SO glad I went.... I shed some tears today after talking to my son on the phone. Then I left the girls at the farm for the meeting and I'm back at home with the roommate(s) and I damn near got slapped in the face with a very attractive bottle of wine in the fridge!
frack. If I hadn't put my time in today I know where my head would be sleeping tonight. In that fridge. I hope you are all doing well. I tried to read all the posts but I know as soon as I start naming names I will forget someone. BUT I think you are all awesome and this is an awesome class, and each of you are important to me. I am so grateful for everyone's input, insights, and stories of your lives. I know I couldn't have gotten this far without you all. So thank you for my sobriety.
And I wish you all a very amazing sunday full of love and another 24 sober.
Senior Member
Join Date: Feb 2016
Posts: 778
I hadn't noticed your absence. I now know you volunteer with SR. I thought you might have but I wasn't sure. I have never expected instant replies from you or anybody. I was just hurt when you were online and around when I was, and did post to others here and not me. It just seems you post in reply to the same small group of people all the time (eg... OOTT being 1 example). Could just be me thinking that. Now I'm sounding jealous. ....it's not that....it's about 1 member posting a struggle and another posting something like they are going to do some gardening.....and the person struggling being completely overlooked yet the person thinking about gardening gets a big reply. I just don't get that I'm sorry.
Administrator
Thread Starter
Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,445
To be honest, I feel like you haven't really read anything I've posted today either, especially about what my role is here.
but...the last thing I want to do is get into an argument tonight.
I'll try and do better by you, Cococo....when I get back.
Back in a couple of days, guys
D
but...the last thing I want to do is get into an argument tonight.
I'll try and do better by you, Cococo....when I get back.
Back in a couple of days, guys
D
Senior Member
Join Date: Feb 2016
Posts: 778
Im not trying to engage you in an argument. Im very much a peacekeeper type actually. I thank you for being a volunteer Dee. It says a lot about you. You are wanting to help people. I am pointing out how I feel and see things. I could be completely wrong. I hope you get a good sleep. And all the best for the next couple of days. I really mean that. C x
Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
