Still a little under the weather but ready for the day. Need to get focused and back to getting into the closer position as fast as I can. That is where the real money is and it is within reach. Probably a month out. If it is longer, that is fine too. I just need to be happy, make everyone around me happy, and focus on the positives in my life. Negativity is the enemy. Remember that. See ya later.

Ok, so I have a new job that is uber stressful but I really like it and can make huge money doing it. The kind of money that I need for retirement. Only drinking sporadically and no where near what it used to be. Have lost roughly 40lbs, ran a marathon and a couple of half marathons, and have started working out again. All is going really well, but I had to come here today because I had some weird feelings and emotions going on. It was lie my brain wasn't happy that I was happy. Too much negativity...

So insomnia and some really weird stuff going through my head kicked in. Only slept for about 3.5 hours. I also had to be up for my son's 1AM feeding. So I stayed up till about 2AM. Kinda sucked, but it is better then being hung over. At work, but will be on later.

Chris

So tonight I didnt even think of alcohol. I just sat on SR, took care of my brand new son while the wife got some rest, got the ok to play golf on Sat morning from the wife, pounded back water, listened to some music, and just chillaxed. I think I can get used to this sobriety thing. Good night all.

Chris

So....the wife has thrown down the ultimatum, "either man up and quit drinking or I lose my family." Here come all the emotions. Anger. Sadness. Fear.....Happiness. Excitment. Pride. I am going to beat this disease. I have a beautiful and amazingly strong wife. I have 3 wonderful children, the newest being only 13 days old. I have a good job and the ability to financially support my family even in this economy. I need to stop drowing out everything that happens in my life in alcohol. I...