Class of May 2015 (Part 3)
The Golden Rule is a good one. I don't always abide by it perfectly, but it's a lot easier to do when my mind isn't foggy because of alcohol.
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Drank last night. Not good. Once that thought got in my head to have a drink, it was like I was on automatic pilot. I did not try to stop myself, the thought of trying to stop myself didn't even come. I'm struggling at that point, I don't know how to snap myself out of it, once the thought has entered. I don't know if you can understand what I am trying to say here, but very open to suggestions.
The big suggestion is fight that feeling more Chanty - come here and post and let us talk you through it.
Once I realised that 'auto pilot' didn't have to end in a drink, things got a lot easier for me.
It's not fun, and your inner addict will throw a tantrum, but you really can get through it and not drink
Do you have support apart from SR?
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Once I realised that 'auto pilot' didn't have to end in a drink, things got a lot easier for me.
It's not fun, and your inner addict will throw a tantrum, but you really can get through it and not drink
Do you have support apart from SR?
D
What Dee said! Chanty, next time those urges hit fight for those controls and force that automatic pilot to detour into these forums or to an AA meeting or to the phone if you've got someone you can call. In other words, ask for help. It's what I've been doing for the last 18 days and it's working for me. I know you've got kids and a life to live, etc, so I'm not saying you've got to go post-crazy like I have over the last week (had a lot of time on my hands since I'm not working) but I do truly believe that these forums have kept me sober and mostly sane this go around. One alcoholic helping another. It's a cool concept. Give us a chance to help you next time!
By the way, I am so glad to see you!
By the way, I am so glad to see you!
Chants, it took me a few tries to get past those feelings. If I ended up drinking, I added more to my plan. I post on SR, try the HALT stuff, and I've been going to AA and reaching out o those people as well.
Took me a while to get to the point I needed all of those things, but I added more every time and now it seems to be working.
Maybe pick up some extra recovery literature and read that when you want a drink? Posting here before helps too. If you can think back, is there anything that seems to happen before you drink? Certain feelings or emotions?
Took me a while to get to the point I needed all of those things, but I added more every time and now it seems to be working.
Maybe pick up some extra recovery literature and read that when you want a drink? Posting here before helps too. If you can think back, is there anything that seems to happen before you drink? Certain feelings or emotions?
So, the z, x, and y talk is great. I.e. what am I going to do different next time.
I'm going to a counselor this week to discuss. I'm going to go to a marriage counselor, and I'm going to freaking post here before I drink. all of this could have been avoided.
I'm going to a counselor this week to discuss. I'm going to go to a marriage counselor, and I'm going to freaking post here before I drink. all of this could have been avoided.
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I will try that Site, I do need add more to my plan. Reading, I think is a great idea, will definitely try that, and coming here. Its just realizing that I need to Halt is what I'm having trouble with. The thought comes to drink and I just go with it, with out even trying to stop myself. Hopefully I will be more aware of that next time.
I will try that Site, I do need add more to my plan. Reading, I think is a great idea, will definitely try that, and coming here. Its just realizing that I need to Halt is what I'm having trouble with. The thought comes to drink and I just go with it, with out even trying to stop myself. Hopefully I will be more aware of that next time.
Is there another area in your life that you find you do the same thing, where once the thought enters your mind, you're as good as done? It might help to give you some insight if you can see what else mirrors this in your life.
May God give you the strength to pull back from the thought to drink, to recognize that it's not you but your AV, and that you can see that you have all the power to make the right choice, as well as the wrong one. (((Hugs)))
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