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I swallowed the red pill and had to wake up.


Two years ago I had a choice. As Orpheus offered in the matrix I had a choice to take the blue pill and wake up in my bed as though nothing ever happened or take the red pill and discover a new me.
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I swallowed the red pill and had to wake up.

Posted 09-06-2014 at 01:31 PM by doureallycare2
Updated 01-04-2015 at 06:43 PM by doureallycare2

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    This relationship sounds abusive to me.

    I have recently come out of a relationship with an emotionally abusive man. I believe it would have turned physical had I gone back to him. I was only with him 3 months but much damage was done just in that time.

    Sadly, I still love him and have never loved another man more. When he was good, he was fantastic, nobody else could hold a candle to him.

    People say an abuser doesn't really love their victim. I don't agree. I know this man loved me very much but he was too twisted to show love in a caring and appropriate way. I am screwed up too because I love a man that was cruel to me and wilfully hurt me.

    After leaving him my drinking got real bad. The both of us are also alcoholics. Seven weeks later I've decided to get sober.

    I work with him and see him around and it's agonising.

    I'm trying to look ahead and focus on sobriety but it's hard for me to not think about this man and wonder if in a different universe we could have been together always.

    I can very much relate to what you wrote in your post.
    Posted 09-07-2014 at 12:09 AM by sickofthiscrap sickofthiscrap is offline
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    Im so sorry you are going through that!! Its amazing how fast we can get hooked on to these types of men isn't it? But at least like me you recognized how unhealthy the relationship is and you got out...

    I really don't think most people know how excruciatingly painful it can be to end that kind of a connection. they look at it as well its only 3 months or only 6 months. My ending it with him felt just as difficult (if not more so) then ending my 36 year marriage... Its how they hook you... there are so many barbs on the hook that you had to swallow it and when you try to pull it out it rips you to shreds...

    Good luck hun...
    Posted 09-08-2014 at 05:43 AM by doureallycare2 doureallycare2 is offline

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