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In Native American culture the Raven was called upon in ritual so that visions could be clarified. Native holy men understood that what the physical eye sees, is not necessarily the truth, and he would call upon the Raven for clarity in these matters. The Raven is also the keeper of secrets.

Due to the fascinating transitions the Frog goes through in its life, it is a symbol of metamorphosis. Furthermore, the Frog’s dual time spent on land and water represents duality of the soul.

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The fox is thought by many ancient cultures to be a messenger between our world and spirit world.
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Words cant describe

Posted 04-11-2009 at 01:12 AM by adore79

I often do or say things on impulse and then regret them because I realize they can be taken different ways by those around me. Is this a lack of impulse control or do I just second guess myself too much? I've been pondering this question a lot lately.

I dont have much experience with friends, Ive never really had any since high school, and even back then it was only one girl, my best friend whom I followed around like a puppy and worshipped. I would get extremely jealous when she hung out with someone else, which was often since she was extremely sociable and likable and trancended high school cliques.

Since then I havent had friends not because Im incapable of making them but because I didnt want any. So it should not come as a shock to me now that I am not to good with interpersonal relationships that arent completely based on business and work.

I recently hurt a friend's feelings but didnt know how badly they were hurt until today and I am completely lost. I have to own up to my behavior though, although I said things on impulse and I wasnt in a very healthy mindset at the time there was still a part of me that knew what I was doing was wrong. Responsiblility, owning up to my actions, accountibility; these are fundamental in recovery. I have to practice them or I will drink again and eventually die early.

I can only do what my friend asked of me: to bare with him. I will, for no matter how long it takes.
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    ANGELINA243's Avatar
    I understand how you feel. I am learning about owning my "stuff" and being responsible....and yes, if we don't learn how to do that--we are putting ourselves in a position to drink again..(speaking of myself of course). It hasn't been easy, but I haven't given up on myself or my sobriety. I am learning how to be sociable again to--without having the mask of alcohol to hide behind. Tonight I will be going to a rock concert with some female AA members and their friends--a few I know, others I don't. I am excited and nervous about it at the same time--what to say?, how to act? type thing. I wasn't sure about going at first, but something deep inside me said--yes, please go and have a good time. I have to be willing to at least "try" something new from time to time...or else I will be forever stuck--in my own head--which isn't always a good place for me to be.

    Hang in there! You have many friends here I hope you feel better soon.
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    Aysha's Avatar
    I get like that too fel. I am sure you have seen me post the same thing in the past. I am very impulsive. And at the same time. I ahve a hard time knowing if I should keep my mouth shut or not. I always speak my mind. But sometimes. Silence is golden. ya know?
    I need to always own up for my wrongs or whatever.
    It takes alot of guilt and stress and just alot of negativity off my mind.
    Regret will eat at my conscious like crazy.
    and eventually I will slide down further and further.
    So like they say. Just keep your side of the street clean and all will be ok.
    Do what you need to do on your part fel to make it right. At least make an attempt. Not everything will go easy. But at least you did your part. And thats all you need to worry about.
    Love ya sweets!
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    Posted 04-11-2009 at 09:20 PM by Aysha Aysha is offline
 


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