Today was my 200th day sober. Wow. Never thought I would get this far. I am working my 6th and 7th steps. Yes, I am kind of doing them together.

Things have not been going so well lately. I have felt like a drink quite a few times recently. Then I remember how its never just ONE drink and that is ultimately my problem.

My character defects are really getting in the way at the moment. I am kind of getting in the way.

Heres working on giving...

Well, I just picked an avatar. I picked it because I do take myself ridiculously seriuosly and it is something I really need to work on in my recovery. I need to lighten up! This is difficult to do when you are used to being serious all the time....there I go again! bing serious about not being serious....

bah!

So, I survived yesterday. I honestly didn't think I would at a couple of moments, but I did.

I didn't get the news I was hoping to get today. Someone who calls herself my friend went and threw a couple of very gossipy spanners in the works and now the process has been retarded due to this, so I will not be going home, as I had hoped.

I am telling myself that this is my Higher Power's will and I will go wherever He sends me and try and make the most of it. I am...

Ok, here I am on day 9. Today is exceedingly difficult for me. I do not have to work today, the sun is shining and I want a drink. There is a possiblity of receiving some very good news tomorrow, but I have to wait until then to find out. I am completely distracted. Cannot sit still and concentrate on anything. The addict in me keeps telling me how much a drink would help and quieten me down. It has been 9 days, maybe I am over it?

But no, I am an alcoholic and a recovered...

Well, here I am. Have made it to day 7. I am busy working through the steps, never thought I would, but somehow reading on this site has brought me to it, or it seems my HP has brought me to it. I am on step 4. I have also been up since 4. I have been reading and reading and thinking. I haven't actually begun writing the step down yet, but have put a lot of thought into it and have come up with some startling revelations. I am in two minds whether to actually do it today. Part of me is very...