Class of March 2016 part 32
All we did before we got married and as newlyweds was party & drink. We were drinking buddies. Now we have nothing in common.
Honestly, if it wasn't for alcohol, I don't think I would have married him. Did I just say that?
Hi everyone, just checking in on Day 3. Haven't made it past day 3 in awhile so need to stay strong today and keep busy. I want sobriety so much more than I want to drink ... have to keep remembering ALL the bad that follows after that first drink.
Kiki - hugs!!! I think you are right to just focus on you right now .... everything else will fall into place.
Kiki - hugs!!! I think you are right to just focus on you right now .... everything else will fall into place.
LB2-many around me relapse because they want instant gratification, to escape feelings of shame or guilt (that works really well) to numb the pain-rarely so they want to feel better. Some say 'stuff it, I do not care- I'll show the world- I'll drink, then we'll see what happens!' What happens? Usually nothing good. Relapses are notorious for becoming worse at each turn. Stick in there. In here and now. Do anything safe- eat tim-tams. Draw a silly cartoon of someone you loathe. Think how duck dodgers would handle the situation. Do anything safe- but pick up the first drink. P
Unfortunately, Phoenix, we in the US are deprived of tim-tams. Also, what in the world is a duck dodger?
LB - Hang in there. Breathe through the moment. You can do this.
Kiki - Makes sense in a way. Sorry about the realization. Maybe you guys kind of have to start over. Get to know each other in a new way. Hugs to you.
Samantha - ditto Phoenix - "you go girl"!
Applekat - Just finished Smashed. Ready for another memoir. What's next?
Good morning everyone. Sorry I'm late. Where are all of our guys? (no offense, Phoenix)
LB - Hang in there. Breathe through the moment. You can do this.
Kiki - Makes sense in a way. Sorry about the realization. Maybe you guys kind of have to start over. Get to know each other in a new way. Hugs to you.
Samantha - ditto Phoenix - "you go girl"!
Applekat - Just finished Smashed. Ready for another memoir. What's next?
Good morning everyone. Sorry I'm late. Where are all of our guys? (no offense, Phoenix)
Thanks, Phoenix and Bobbie. I feel so much better about myself and everything else in my life when I am sober so why would I want to deliberately put myself back in that awful place? It should be a no brainer, right?
I am making a promise to all of you right now that I won't drink today .... if I do I know I will disappear again
I am making a promise to all of you right now that I won't drink today .... if I do I know I will disappear again
Thanks, Phoenix and Bobbie. I feel so much better about myself and everything else in my life when I am sober so why would I want to deliberately put myself back in that awful place? It should be a no brainer, right?
I am making a promise to all of you right now that I won't drink today .... if I do I know I will disappear again
I am making a promise to all of you right now that I won't drink today .... if I do I know I will disappear again
You really can do this. I know you don't always have time to go to meetings, but the steps help. Or maybe just write out a plan. Plans are phenomenal. And you feel as if you are being proactive.
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Hi fellow Marchers,
I was going to post in-depth about yesterday but thought better of it. Briefly, I show up for the endoscopy in withdrawal. They cancel and send me to the ER. ER doc says they should just do it, Profolol will sedate me just fine. I agree, good stuff. He gives me Ativan instead, sends me home.
And all I wanted was a glass of orange juice and to go home in the first place.
But such wonderful people in the health profession!! I have NO RIGHT to waste their time and talents with this. They are saints, and we should all bust our butts to make sure we don't make any more undo work for them.
So, maybe my presence here is not much use till I get solidly sober. Hell, I took the pre-endoscopy prescription of "clear liquids" a little liberally, that's for sure.
Not giving up. Keep up the good work one and all. I believe in you.
I was going to post in-depth about yesterday but thought better of it. Briefly, I show up for the endoscopy in withdrawal. They cancel and send me to the ER. ER doc says they should just do it, Profolol will sedate me just fine. I agree, good stuff. He gives me Ativan instead, sends me home.
And all I wanted was a glass of orange juice and to go home in the first place.
But such wonderful people in the health profession!! I have NO RIGHT to waste their time and talents with this. They are saints, and we should all bust our butts to make sure we don't make any more undo work for them.
So, maybe my presence here is not much use till I get solidly sober. Hell, I took the pre-endoscopy prescription of "clear liquids" a little liberally, that's for sure.
Not giving up. Keep up the good work one and all. I believe in you.
BB- Daffy Duck (aka 'Duck Dodgers in the 25th and 1/2 century!) I am offended. Matter of fact I am so upset I can't remember my name and I almost forgot to breathe. When it comes to recovery, I take humour very seriously. Duck Dodgers could be a drunk person solving life- the usual loony tunes violence, ridicule of the stereotypes of society.
LB2- no brainer? NO BRAINER? HA! If that were true- why does alcoholism exist? Got nothing to do with brains. Do not say you will go again. That is not the point. The point is you, now- what you do this moment. Let tomorrow take care of itself.
Timtams- no? Well anything with chocolate. The ultimate- has to be roasted coffee beans coated in dark chocolate.
LB2- no brainer? NO BRAINER? HA! If that were true- why does alcoholism exist? Got nothing to do with brains. Do not say you will go again. That is not the point. The point is you, now- what you do this moment. Let tomorrow take care of itself.
Timtams- no? Well anything with chocolate. The ultimate- has to be roasted coffee beans coated in dark chocolate.
Pelagic, I am so sorry. That sucks. Just another reason to stay on track I think.
" So, maybe my presence here is not much use till I get solidly sober. " You mean here? If that's the case, that is so wrong. We need you here and it sounds like you need to be here. Staying here when you have sobriety? How does that help you. Stay here when you are struggling. When you feel like crap, when you hate yourself, when you don't want to get out of bed - you should be here. We Get It. We have all been there. Hugs.
" So, maybe my presence here is not much use till I get solidly sober. " You mean here? If that's the case, that is so wrong. We need you here and it sounds like you need to be here. Staying here when you have sobriety? How does that help you. Stay here when you are struggling. When you feel like crap, when you hate yourself, when you don't want to get out of bed - you should be here. We Get It. We have all been there. Hugs.
Phoenix - I agree with the chocolate theory. I prefer ice cream at the moment. I think it's Casey's fault. Blaming him anyway. Also, it really is tough to want a drink if your belly is full of ice cream.
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Pelagic, I am so sorry. That sucks. Just another reason to stay on track I think.
" So, maybe my presence here is not much use till I get solidly sober. " You mean here? If that's the case, that is so wrong. We need you here and it sounds like you need to be here. Staying here when you have sobriety? How does that help you. Stay here when you are struggling. When you feel like crap, when you hate yourself, when you don't want to get out of bed - you should be here. We Get It. We have all been there. Hugs.
" So, maybe my presence here is not much use till I get solidly sober. " You mean here? If that's the case, that is so wrong. We need you here and it sounds like you need to be here. Staying here when you have sobriety? How does that help you. Stay here when you are struggling. When you feel like crap, when you hate yourself, when you don't want to get out of bed - you should be here. We Get It. We have all been there. Hugs.
I felt SO bad about wasting those people's efforts. They were gems, remarkable, so kind. They patted me on the shoulder, took my hand, and I just lost it. The least I can do is reciprocate.
It's as real as it gets.
Yeah, maybe that wasn't clear. I meant here not HERE. You guys are on your way, no need for me to hold you back. But I'm not checking out the big way here--way too stubborn for that.
I felt SO bad about wasting those people's efforts. They were gems, remarkable, so kind. They patted me on the shoulder, took my hand, and I just lost it. The least I can do is reciprocate.
It's as real as it gets.
I felt SO bad about wasting those people's efforts. They were gems, remarkable, so kind. They patted me on the shoulder, took my hand, and I just lost it. The least I can do is reciprocate.
It's as real as it gets.
If you are drinking, post.
If you are not drinking, post.
If you want to drink, post.
If you don't want to drink, post.
Come on. We all are from the same hell. Some of us are getting out what seems to be faster, but you don't know what we've already been through before we got here.
Don't you dare go away. I personally feel emotionally invested in your recovery. In your happiness and dammit in your wife's happiness too.
I know hurting people isn't your style. Your style is being in nature and bird watching. Your style is standing in front of a classroom talking about Poe.
I was walking in a park the other day and they had signs up informing watchers what birds were there. I thought of you.
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