CaseyW

Really starting day 88 now. It's raining here right now. That doesn't happen often here in the summer in West Texas. Or in the fall or spring or winter, for that matter.

Work this evening. I'll probably spend most of the day lazing around the house catching up on some television. My neighbor's crying baby woke me up this morning. Glad I'm not dealing with that hungover.

ClosetCinephile -- Yeah, our perspective as alcoholics on how many other people drink can be vastly skewed. I work in a restaurant/bar so get to see on a daily basis that the vast majority of people simply don't have to have a drink before or during or after their meal. And that the vast majority of people who do order a drink only have the one and lots of times don't even finish it.

AllieK -- You're not a big baby. Unfamiliar situations with lots of new people frighten me too. I don't know if you've ever read this thread:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...a-meeting.html

Heck, I might have even pointed it out before, my apologies if so. But I think it's a great read. One of my go-to threads here on SR.

Surrender2win -- That's awesome you're able to stay sober under such circumstances. You're doing great!

Dharma -- congrats on 81 days!

Wishing everyone a safe and sober start to the new week! Talk to you later.

AllieKat

I don't think you ever posted that one on our thread. I will check it out. Thanks!

site1Q84

Hi!

I'm still alive and doing well. Finally home and just enjoying being here. Laying around watching tv in my own bed, doing laundry, etc.

I'll be back in full force in a few days, but for now I'm ignoring my computer entirely.

Hope you're all doing good!

CaseyW

Glad you're back home, site. I always love that first day back after a long trip. It's almost like having all new belongings.

Rufftime719

Good evening sober friends. Just checking in and it looks like the group has been busy enjoying life. I'm putting the finishing touches on day 66. Just got back from a 3-mile run as I try to get back into the exercise to feel normal again (and maybe get a little sleep). I think the last I wrote I was struggling with poor sleep and anxiety. Doc put me on Lexapro and the start-up side effects were rough. Still getting used to it, but I am getting some relief with the anxiety. Now if I could just string more than 5-hours in a row on the pillow. One day at a time I guess. Anyhow, keep up the great works peeps and catch you all soon.

CaseyW

Finishing up day 89. Another nice day here. I left the house at about eleven this morning planning on just running to the post office and grocery store, but it was absolutely beautiful outside--around 80 degrees with a bunch of clouds in the sky so I decided I might as well take advantage of the slightly cooler weather and bicycle to an AA meeting across town at noon. So glad I did. Topic was just kind of a general "what to do in very early sobriety" kind of thing. Heard a lot of people talking that hit home with me.

On the way home, I stopped at my favorite Thai place and had lunch. They've been closed for the last month for vacation so I was really craving it.

Came home after that and took a very hard nap, before I got up and read for a little bit and then got ready for work. Work started out very slow but it actually ended up being a very good night. We were empty and then all of a sudden at 6:30 we were full. Made good money and everything ran smooth. I've already made enough money in the last three days to pay next month's rent so I'm going to go ahead and do that tomorrow. That means I should be able to put a whole lot of money in the car fund this month.

Going to watch last night's True Detective after I visit the rest of the boards here for a while. Hope everyone has had a nice day in recovery.

Rufftime -- congrats on day 66! Glad the medication is starting to help with the anxiety. Exercising to help yourself sleep better sounds like a win-win solution.

Dee74

Congrats Casey

you too rufftime dharma, surrender and anyone else hitting a milestone today

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CaseyW

That was a typo there. I was finishing up day 88. August 4 is day 89.

D122y

Always great to read your posts Casey.

For all interested....my update...

9 May 2015 was when I decided to stop. Was using 8 May as my day, but that night was my last night drunk.

On vacation this week. Trying to put in some extra time working out and sleeping.

Going to have a staycation at a local casino. Good food, swimming, poker tournament. No booze.

I look around to see who is drinking now. I find strength when I see folks like me who are enjoying water or other non alcoholic beverages. I am a bit envious and curious about folks I see drinking. I wonder how many they will have. Maybe just 1, but that never made much sense to me. I would just get sleepy after a single drink.

For those like me, I know they are going to be weak, dehydrated, and regretful soon.

After 3 months clean I am still healing. I have more energy than before. I am still getting used to never being drunk or hungover. After all the years drinking, my brain is getting such a release. I work out fairly hard, so I am never sure if I feel bad from no booze or from working out.

I have anxiety here and there. But, it goes away quickly. Usually, with a few deep breaths. Thanks internet.

Still eating cleanish. Taking a mult vit. Lots of water.

Been post, reading SR daily. Trying to be careful to not get to preachy. I am doing great, but I am very vulnerable for ever. I read a bunch of stories here about that. 1 day at a time. God help me please.

When I do post I usually regurgitate what I read somewhere else and add that it worked for me.

Thanks to whoever put this site together. You are a saint.

CaseyW

Wake up Mayflowers! Starting day 89 here. Fell asleep to the sound of a huge thunderstorm last night. Now my allergies are killing me this morning, guess the rain stirred something up. Oh well, hopefully it's nothing my daily Zyrtec can't handle, and it still beats the heck out of waking up hungover.

No work today. My plan is to not set foot outside the house. Got a bunch of food to cook in the kitchen, some good books to read and a long queue of television shows to catch up on. And of course lots of SR to read.

Wishing everyone a happy and sober Tuesday! If you haven't checked in lately, hope you'll all do so soon.

D122y -- your journey this time sounds a whole lot like mine. Enjoy your staycation!

AllieKat

Hi just taking a quick break at work to read some posts. D122y I like your post a lot. I don't think I could handle a staycation at a casino. You are pretty strong! I start my staycation tomorrow at home. It will be nice to have some time off to do some thinking and planning and shopping with my daughter.

Have a good one!

D122y

Getting ready to go watch the AAA Baseball 51's.

Driving cause, I'm sober.

Staying up late because, I'm sober.

Feel better than ever today.

1daat. Ghm.

It has gotten progressively better for me.

Thanks to all of you and SR.

D122y

Allie...thanks for the kind words. We are going to beat this thing. It won't be easy, but nothing worthwhile is.

D122y

Home safe and sober. Drank....a bunch of water.

Ate a granola bar before the trip from downtown Vegas to the north side (home).

Good game, 51's won.

Watched a you guys kid drink 3 or 4, 20 Oz. Beers.

He was the exception.

Most people I saw were drinking water or soda.

Glad to be a non drinker.

1daat. Ghm.

D122y

Curious...is this how AA meetings go?

People take turns talking, helping each other?

CaseyW

AA meetings are sorta kinda like that--they're definitely all about the power of one alcoholic helping another, much like these forums.

But there are all different types of actual meetings. Most of them have someone picking a recovery-related topic and then others sharing on that, but there also meetings where one or two people get up and speak at length about their experiences. And then there are book study meetings as well.

You should give a meeting a try. The only requirement is a desire to stop drinking. No dues or fees and you don't have to stay if it's not for you.

AGAGONNHOJ

Hey again everyone.

Well, the long weekend was great - I did many, many things- started with a rafting trip down the Pai river, and after that, when I got back to the mountain Circus School hostel I was staying at, there was a quiz involving games - and I *DID* drink, and felt ****** the day afterwards, though I still went trekking in Mae La Na, and also went back to visit the monastery, to pay respect to the Abbot, and make a donation for Khao Pan Sa (beginning of Vassa; so-called "Buddhist Lent").

Definitely wished I hadn't afterwards, and kind of kicked myself a bit for thinking I was 'cured', that the moderation thing was going to be easy now I was past the 90 day mark - it may well be, like some people have said before, that there is no 'reset switch', and moderation isn't a viable alternative after all.

Whatever the case, I'm definitely not going to pursue moderation now - though I'm not beating myself up too much for the slip up over the weekend - the fact that I did a full 90 days sober gives me confidence I can do it again - and seeing the instant difference between clear-headedness etc from all that time sober, versus the aftermath of the party, I'm taking as a learning experience.

So here's to another 90 days, which I now know I can definitely do - which is the period of Vassa anyway, which I was planning on doing in any case- and then, to be honest, that's probably me done forever.

Seeing more clearly the fact that I can. For Vassa, I'm also giving up coffee and cakes - mid-way through the week, Thursday in a few hours, and I've only had a bottle of iced tea every morning!

Big love to all xx

D122y

I need to be careful.

I am beginning to feel a lot better after almost 90 days.

Living in Las Vegas there is booze everywhere...all the time.

In the past, if I couldn't drink, because of work, I didn't.

That has tempered my reserve to never ever drink. I am sure.

Looking forward to the rest of my life, free of alcohol.

site1Q84

Hi all!

Glad to see everyone is doing alright. AG I'm glad to hear you've decided to stop or good. Is not as much fun once you've been sober for a while, I imagine. I couldn't begin to think what a hangover would be like now if I drank like I used to!

Enjoying being home and doing normal little chores. I've been reading a lot and later today I'm going to switch my computer over to a new SSD I bought, but not much to report these days!
Going to start hitting some meetings now that I've had a few days to enjoy and do whatever I want. Coming up on 90 days soon and I have some chips to collect since I've been gone!

AllieKat

Hi guys. First day of staycation is off to a good start. I have a meal plan written for 2 weeks and made a few doctor appointments that I've been putting off. So far so good...