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Every day is a new day, that's what I keep telling myself. The struggle is real. I'm in deep with this addiction to wine. I am searching for the answer how to turn it off. I feel lucky if I can keep it down to a daily minimum of just one bottle. I pray to God to take this addiction away. Some days I'm a fighter. Other days are a bit more challenging. Hopefully by putting this out there, starting today, I can find a new hope and believe in myself again.

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DAY 8 - Benefits of Sobriety

Posted 01-06-2019 at 01:38 PM by LoveHateMerlot

Last night I was faced with a huge challenge. After becoming sober, again, I knew from the past that I buckle under peer pressure. I want to crawl out of my skin when I am sober and have conversations with people. I do not feel comfortable with myself at all. I went to a friend's for dinner, we are notorious winos together. After more than once being pushed to drink wine, I stayed strong. I had recited my mantra all day, as I walked up to her home, and while we baked cookies and ate dinner. I just kept repeating in my head "you cannot drink". It worked because I was able to say "I can't drink.", twice. Overall I had a good night, but I won't deny the fact that I wanted to crawl out of my skin the entire 4 hours.

I know this isn't my last test. Other times will be easier, but some days I will be weak and it will take even more courage to face my demons. I have "Casino Night" to attend this Friday, it's a charity event that I am going to attend with my husband, my sister and brother-in-law. I will just keep reminding myself before Friday all the reasons why I am sober.

Which brings me to...

-no hangovers
-eyes are getting whiter
-dropped a few pounds in 7 days
-my liver and pancreas pain is subsiding
-tummy is flatter
-I remember what I did last night
-I did not embarrass myself last night
-I have worked out almost every day
-craving less junk food
-I have more time
-my family wants to be around me
-emotionally stable
-feeling more spiritual
-I read an entire book (I can't ever finish)
-able to think before I speak
-I didn't hurt anyone's feelings this week
-starting to forgive myself
-starting to love myself
-getting to know myself all over again
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