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Congratulations Angie... I enjoyed reading your last few uplifting posts about how your life has turned around. The great stuff that is going on with your son and you is fantastic.
I have three children and SO happy I am sober.
I have three children and SO happy I am sober.
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Join Date: May 2015
Location: California
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I haven't commented on a thread in two days. I've typed out things to people but then I didn't click submit because I thought what I typed out wasn't helpful. I've been in a depressed mood the last couple of days but I'm still sober. 106 days. I ate horribly on Tuesday and that made a bad mood even worse later on. I made a promise to myself Tuesday night that I would try to get myself out of this mood and drinking wasn't an option ever. So, today I went on the stationary bike at work during both breaks and about 10 minutes of my 30 minute lunch. Right after I ate a healthy lunch, then I went to the bike so I got about 30 minutes total of exercise. It's great that my workplace has that gym for employees to use. It did help but I'm still not quite myself. I'll keep working on it.
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Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: New England, USA
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Angie - great job on 106 days!
In sobriety I've found that some days are relatively easy. Those pass. Other days are like the way you describe your last few days - boring, depressing, isolated, etc. For me a huge lesson in sobriety has been learning to ride out the tough times. Those, too, will pass.
My suggestion is to post even when what you have to say is sad. Getting my feelings out helps me understand them, and develop tools for managing them.
Reach out! That's what we're here for.
In sobriety I've found that some days are relatively easy. Those pass. Other days are like the way you describe your last few days - boring, depressing, isolated, etc. For me a huge lesson in sobriety has been learning to ride out the tough times. Those, too, will pass.
My suggestion is to post even when what you have to say is sad. Getting my feelings out helps me understand them, and develop tools for managing them.
Reach out! That's what we're here for.
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Join Date: May 2015
Location: California
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I'm not drinking. It was extremely hard but I drove the long way so I wouldn't go past the liquor store on my way home. My son is with his dad and visiting cousins. I've been laying in bed staring at the ceiling. Better than drinking.
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Join Date: Jul 2014
Location: Spain
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Angie! So glad you're not drinking. Sometimes it's plain sailing and other times you just have to tough it out. I'm so proud of you for the strength you have accumulated over the last few months. Well done also for posting before drinking. It's hard to do but in the morning you'll be so glad you did it!
Give us a shout and let us know how it's going
A
Give us a shout and let us know how it's going
A
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Join Date: Jul 2013
Location: USA
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At this point, will the drinking really make you feel numb or will it just give you an excuse to do a little self-hate?
Keep posting. Keep asking for help. Keep not taking that first drink. Drinking is not a solution for what ails you, you've (and all of us) have proven that over and over again. We're here for you if you want to do a little venting here--we're here for the bad as well as the good. What's going on?
You're in my thoughts and prayers tonight...
Keep posting. Keep asking for help. Keep not taking that first drink. Drinking is not a solution for what ails you, you've (and all of us) have proven that over and over again. We're here for you if you want to do a little venting here--we're here for the bad as well as the good. What's going on?
You're in my thoughts and prayers tonight...
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Great job taking the long drive home. That technique worked for me when I wanted to drink. You took life as it came and made the right decision in the moment. That's all any of us who are sober can do!
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Thank you all so much. I'm so relieved that I didn't drink last night because I know I would be truly crushed right now. I kept eyeing the clock until 10 when the store closed. Yesterday was a really bad day but I've made it to 110 days sober today. Last night was the worst intense cravings that I have had and the scary thing was that I felt like I didn't care if I drank. I'm not proud of that. I just didn't cave in and do it because I told myself of all the positives that have happened since I stopped and I didn't want to experience the feelings I would have after drinking because that would be worse than how I was currently feeling. I got tired and just went to sleep. Woke up feeling rested and a little better emotionally. I survived the worst craving that I have had so far without drinking. Now, I almost want to cry happy tears about that. Thank you all so much for your wonderful support. <3
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