This new sober life
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Feeling SO much better than I was last week. This entry isn't so much about alcohol but my enjoyment of life being sober. 
My fitbit took a charge again so I've been trying to get more steps in. Yesterday, I got in 10K steps but this morning my knees were telling me they were not so happy with me. Today, I only did 8K but it's still a lot better than I was doing before. Progress, not perfection. I was disappointed though that I didn't hit 10K tonight but my knees are thanking me.
I'm on a podcast kick lately. There's podcasts about anything and everything and I'm having fun finding interesting ones. My absolute favorites are Welcome to Nightvale, Mystery Show, Snap Judgement and This American Life. I also listened to the entire Serial episodes and am anxiously awaiting the second season. If anybody reads this and has enjoyed a podcast, I would love to hear about it. I'm so happy my work lets us listen to things like this.
I'm feeling very positive and I'm so happy that I didn't drink during that night where I didn't care so much. This is something that I have to remember other times when the craving comes. I've written myself a letter when I want to drink and that feeling to drink is very intense. Anything to wake up the next day sober.
My fitbit took a charge again so I've been trying to get more steps in. Yesterday, I got in 10K steps but this morning my knees were telling me they were not so happy with me. Today, I only did 8K but it's still a lot better than I was doing before. Progress, not perfection. I was disappointed though that I didn't hit 10K tonight but my knees are thanking me. I'm on a podcast kick lately. There's podcasts about anything and everything and I'm having fun finding interesting ones. My absolute favorites are Welcome to Nightvale, Mystery Show, Snap Judgement and This American Life. I also listened to the entire Serial episodes and am anxiously awaiting the second season. If anybody reads this and has enjoyed a podcast, I would love to hear about it. I'm so happy my work lets us listen to things like this.
I'm feeling very positive and I'm so happy that I didn't drink during that night where I didn't care so much. This is something that I have to remember other times when the craving comes. I've written myself a letter when I want to drink and that feeling to drink is very intense. Anything to wake up the next day sober.
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I had another brief moment where I wanted to drink yesterday. The craving wasn't that bad and it only lasted a few minutes. However, when the craving went away then I was left with a lot of self loathing for having wanted to drink. It kinda ruined my night and I was very irritable. Then I got more mad at myself for being irritable and it just sucked. This is something that I'm going to have to work on. Late last night, I went into the living room, shut all the lights and tried to meditate. I think it worked because I felt better but I was also tired. Meditation is something that I want to keep trying.
So today I went on the scale in the little gym room at work. I felt strong and felt like I could take whatever the scale said. I've lost 15 pounds since I stopped drinking almost 4 months ago. It was weight I needed to lose and I feel so much better. I am still overweight and need to lose a good 40 more to be at my ideal weight but I am stoked to see that weight gone. I want to lose the weight slowly and stick to this 1,200 calorie diet that I've tried the last couple of weeks. Feeling good and ready for the weekend.
So today I went on the scale in the little gym room at work. I felt strong and felt like I could take whatever the scale said. I've lost 15 pounds since I stopped drinking almost 4 months ago.
It was weight I needed to lose and I feel so much better. I am still overweight and need to lose a good 40 more to be at my ideal weight but I am stoked to see that weight gone. I want to lose the weight slowly and stick to this 1,200 calorie diet that I've tried the last couple of weeks. Feeling good and ready for the weekend.
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I just looked it up. 122 days sober. That's 4 months without a drop of alcohol. Have not had any major cravings in the last few days. I'm just having some (PAWS?) issues. I am having a little problem with thinking I'm saying one word but out comes another word. It's nothing major but has happened several times in the last couple weeks. Like I asked the waitress for salad but meant soup. It might be nothing but it's happened more in the last couple of weeks than normal.
I've been trying to eat healthier and I 've been walking a lot more than I have in a long time. Kinda messed myself up by getting on the scale today and I had not lost anything in the last week or so but I have lost 15 pounds total. However, I want to do this slow and in a healthy way so it will stay off. I'm not in any rush and I know I've lost inches too. My energy level is a lot better.
Another thing is that I'm having a problem with typing out comments to people on SR. My mind always second guesses and I'm afraid of saying something wrong although that would never be my intention, I want to be supportive and I'll keep working on that.
Work is going well. I'm getting trained on something new in a few weeks. I'm excited and I hope that I can do it well and catch on quick.
Hope everyone is doing well. SR means so much to me and I hope to get over my issues and start responding more. I'm on here several times a day and I really like it here,
I've been trying to eat healthier and I 've been walking a lot more than I have in a long time. Kinda messed myself up by getting on the scale today and I had not lost anything in the last week or so but I have lost 15 pounds total. However, I want to do this slow and in a healthy way so it will stay off. I'm not in any rush and I know I've lost inches too. My energy level is a lot better.
Another thing is that I'm having a problem with typing out comments to people on SR. My mind always second guesses and I'm afraid of saying something wrong although that would never be my intention, I want to be supportive and I'll keep working on that.
Work is going well. I'm getting trained on something new in a few weeks. I'm excited and I hope that I can do it well and catch on quick.
Hope everyone is doing well. SR means so much to me and I hope to get over my issues and start responding more. I'm on here several times a day and I really like it here,
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Stressed beyond belief. Drinking seems like a good idea. Just dropped my son off at his dad's. I'm at the liquor store in my car but I haven't bought anything yet. I don't deserve it but can someone comment? I know it's a bad idea but I would love to feel numb for a bit.
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