Class of November 2015 Part 5
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Originally Posted by rah555 
Good morning!! Today is day 9!! Feeling good, healthy and so glad not to be hungover! Over the weekend I wrote about an idea I had...create a collage of all the fun things I do sober to replace the pics I have that remind me of a night gone bad bc of binging. I've been shopping around for some type of frame that I could use to hold a bunch of pics...starting now through 2016. Tonight is the first activity to record..an NBA basketball game. Hope you are all doing well!
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Originally Posted by Jemma44
Wow I had horrible drinking dreams last night. I actually dreamt I was coming off of a bender that began on thanksgiving, blackouts and all! So scary and so real. I was never so happy to wake up and realize it was a dream! Even woke up with a headache 
Day 20 something. Thankful for my sobriety.
OH and I are not getting along. We discussed counseling but then last night before I went to bed, he said "no, forget it, you can go if you want but I'm not. I'm done." So I guess I got dumped??
Day 20 something. Thankful for my sobriety.
OH and I are not getting along. We discussed counseling but then last night before I went to bed, he said "no, forget it, you can go if you want but I'm not. I'm done." So I guess I got dumped??
I hope you can believe in yourself and do whatever you need to do for you. Sending you best wishes...
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Originally Posted by tufty13
Hello class, just checking in on my day 31.
My AV has been ominously quiet recently but I'm off to a gig tonight to watch a couple of indie bands in ******* so I'm expecting some grief from it.
A promise to my class mates, my family and of course myself, I WILL NOT BE DRINKING.
Congratulations to everyone on their sober days, keep it up you lovely people!
My AV has been ominously quiet recently but I'm off to a gig tonight to watch a couple of indie bands in ******* so I'm expecting some grief from it.
A promise to my class mates, my family and of course myself, I WILL NOT BE DRINKING.
Congratulations to everyone on their sober days, keep it up you lovely people!
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IS THIS BAD?
Only 17 days in and I feel soooo lazy! I stay up late and then in the morning once I get my kids off to school I crawl back in bed with my puppy & kitty & read your posts on this site & post myself, catch up on the news...basically just procrastinate and then go back to sleep. Sometimes I don't get out of bed until 2:00!
I'm just soooo tired all the time. I think my body is trying to catch up from the 2 years of hell I put it through.
On one hand I feel so guilty because I have so much to do &'I keep putting it off until "tomorrow". But on the other hand I think to myself..."hey! I'm exhausted. I'm sober. And I need rest. The LIST will be there tomorrow!"
Thoughts?
Only 17 days in and I feel soooo lazy! I stay up late and then in the morning once I get my kids off to school I crawl back in bed with my puppy & kitty & read your posts on this site & post myself, catch up on the news...basically just procrastinate and then go back to sleep. Sometimes I don't get out of bed until 2:00!
I'm just soooo tired all the time. I think my body is trying to catch up from the 2 years of hell I put it through.
On one hand I feel so guilty because I have so much to do &'I keep putting it off until "tomorrow". But on the other hand I think to myself..."hey! I'm exhausted. I'm sober. And I need rest. The LIST will be there tomorrow!"
Thoughts?
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Originally Posted by learntofly
Good morning all! Checking in on Day 39.
Fabat, That's awesome! Kudos to you for taking charge. I loved your post about noticing the beauty of life again.
Kiki, I still get cravings too, though not nearly as many as before. Most recently, my AV will come out of nowhere and say "well, you've made it this long without a drink, so that must mean you don't have a problem after all. This sobriety thing is silly. There are plenty of people who drink as much as you did. Go buy some wine!" And I'm like how delusional are you AV?!? It's like a crazy little demon inside of me!
Keepnitreal, I think it's been proven that people who struggle with depression are more likely to be alcoholics. I've struggled with depression since I was a kid, and alcohol, though it didn't make me happy, was enough to at least keep me numb. It's been a struggle to try to work through that, but I'm finally on a healthy path and at least headed in the right direction.
Fabat, That's awesome! Kudos to you for taking charge. I loved your post about noticing the beauty of life again.
Kiki, I still get cravings too, though not nearly as many as before. Most recently, my AV will come out of nowhere and say "well, you've made it this long without a drink, so that must mean you don't have a problem after all. This sobriety thing is silly. There are plenty of people who drink as much as you did. Go buy some wine!" And I'm like how delusional are you AV?!? It's like a crazy little demon inside of me!
Keepnitreal, I think it's been proven that people who struggle with depression are more likely to be alcoholics. I've struggled with depression since I was a kid, and alcohol, though it didn't make me happy, was enough to at least keep me numb. It's been a struggle to try to work through that, but I'm finally on a healthy path and at least headed in the right direction.
I really want to get to a place where I can love all the blessings in my life. I'm going to make the 12 steps my goal. Step 1-3 are pretty much covered...onward and upward!
Good day to all.
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Originally Posted by KiKi0615
IS THIS BAD?
Only 17 days in and I feel soooo lazy! I stay up late and then in the morning once I get my kids off to school I crawl back in bed with my puppy & kitty & read your posts on this site & post myself, catch up on the news...basically just procrastinate and then go back to sleep. Sometimes I don't get out of bed until 2:00!
I'm just soooo tired all the time. I think my body is trying to catch up from the 2 years of hell I put it through.
On one hand I feel so guilty because I have so much to do &'I keep putting it off until "tomorrow". But on the other hand I think to myself..."hey! I'm exhausted. I'm sober. And I need rest. The LIST will be there tomorrow!"
Thoughts?
Only 17 days in and I feel soooo lazy! I stay up late and then in the morning once I get my kids off to school I crawl back in bed with my puppy & kitty & read your posts on this site & post myself, catch up on the news...basically just procrastinate and then go back to sleep. Sometimes I don't get out of bed until 2:00!
I'm just soooo tired all the time. I think my body is trying to catch up from the 2 years of hell I put it through.
On one hand I feel so guilty because I have so much to do &'I keep putting it off until "tomorrow". But on the other hand I think to myself..."hey! I'm exhausted. I'm sober. And I need rest. The LIST will be there tomorrow!"
Thoughts?
Don't feel bad or guilty. Everything else can wait IMO, a dirty kitchen is nothing compared to being wasted. Be good to yourself Kiki.
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Originally Posted by enfinthechange
Oh poor you.. my husband is in that territory too.... don't know if we will be together now either after 20 years.... and half terrified... it makes me want to get smashed..... but I won't, I won't. .. I'm going to do **** for me and belive in myself. I am worth it... just because I screwed up doesn't mean I am evil... I have to try and belive it.
I hope you can believe in yourself and do whatever you need to do for you. Sending you best wishes...
I hope you can believe in yourself and do whatever you need to do for you. Sending you best wishes...
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Hi, Kiki, don't worry about resting a lot. Your body is trying to heal itself! And think back to the times you were hungover - you probably spent a lot of time in bed as well (I did!) so try not to worry about it. You will get your energy back 
To those who are suffering from anxiety today, my thoughts go out to you. Try and focus on the wonderful thing you are doing for yourself: staying sober. Everything will be okay because you are giving yourself a chance at life by living sober. You can get through this!
I hope you all have a good sober day!
To those who are suffering from anxiety today, my thoughts go out to you. Try and focus on the wonderful thing you are doing for yourself: staying sober. Everything will be okay because you are giving yourself a chance at life by living sober. You can get through this!
I hope you all have a good sober day!
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Hello everyone off today, Having a better day today Husband and I getting alone better . Home alone and taking some time for me , made breakfast for ME, and having my coffee . I will get out and do some shopping . I feel so much better every sober day I have, well today is day 5 for me. I still makes me sick to think about the relapse, before 9-17-15 I had 295 days sober out of 13 years.
Well I have learned the importance of staying supported . Nomatter what happens an here. everyone have a good day , I wish I could take you out shopping with me LOL.
Well I have learned the importance of staying supported . Nomatter what happens an here. everyone have a good day , I wish I could take you out shopping with me LOL.
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Hi all - I am having a difficult day - feeling so down about my past actions. But reminding myself that the past is gone and today I am awake, painful as that can feel. Good having my old dog by my side - he's always been there. Thank you for listening.
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Originally Posted by RedAndy
Day 18 and feeling better than yesterday - wife told me this morning to smile and keep the momentum going - the day has definitely been better so far.
The above tho Kiki has now got my mind racing into overdrive - GP started me on Fluoxetine yesterday - one of my worst obsessions is weight and gaining would mean utter meltdown at present - I am strict with diet and exercise (majority of the time) to the point of obsessive.
The above tho Kiki has now got my mind racing into overdrive - GP started me on Fluoxetine yesterday - one of my worst obsessions is weight and gaining would mean utter meltdown at present - I am strict with diet and exercise (majority of the time) to the point of obsessive.
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Originally Posted by beautifulpines
Hi all - I am having a difficult day - feeling so down about my past actions. But reminding myself that the past is gone and today I am awake, painful as that can feel. Good having my old dog by my side - he's always been there. Thank you for listening.
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I am feeling so tired too! My favorite thing is laying on the couch or in bed watching tv with my hubby and my 3 dogs. It's peaceful. I figure I owe it to my body...the cycle of binging and recovering probably made my body work extra hard. Plus I had 3 major surgeries in the last 7 years, gastric bypass in September 2009, tummy tuck in December 2014 and arm lifts at the beginning of this year. My body has been working overtime!! I think rest and finding relaxation and peace is key to our success. We need to take care of ourselves. When we were drinking we weren't listening to our bodies. In my mind knowing and feeling fatigue is s sign that we are connecting with our bodies! So I say...when is it the work day done do I can go home, put on my favorite show and snuggle??
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Oh, I have finally reached the turning point where I am no longer gaining weight and have lost 6 pounds!! Day 24. Trying to eat healthy but allowing myself pleasurable food as well. And exercising when I can when I'm not working or taking care of my 7 month old. So hang in there everyone best wishes to you all. Happy sober Wednesday!
best wishes to you all. Happy sober Wednesday!
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Originally Posted by Fabat50
You can't start the next chapter of your life if you keep reading the old ones....
Reliving the past is a waste. It happened, and there is nothing I can do about it now. Might as well focus on my sobriety and changing my future. It's good to not forget the past, because it reminds us of why we're choosing sobriety, but don't live there.
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Originally Posted by GoldenSands
I'm feeling the same way today about my past actions. Feeling guilty and maybe things I should discuss with my husband but then I say- there is no reason for bringing back up the past. It's over and done with and our actions and intentions are on the right path NOW and that is what matters.
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I had a nap and I woke up feeling better. But now the anxiety is back. My hands are shaking and my heart is racing. On top of that I'm beating myself up for wasting my day like this. I know it's ridiculous to worry so much about something I can't control. My AV , my own thoughts, I don't even know what it is...it just feels like I'm wasting a day making myself ill...
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