Class of November 2015 Part 5
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Know how it feels to find a $5 under the couch? Or a peppermint in your pocket?
It feels that way to realize you were off a day on your "day count," and today is actually Day 18 rather than 17!!!
It's tricky when stuff comes up out of the past that you have to deal with. Like a big tab you ran up when you were blowied. Since that relates to drinking, obviously, you want to have a drink to think about how to deal with it. BUT THAT DOESN'T REALLY SOLVE ANYTHING DOES IT.
I just feel like that was something I needed to do, for whatever reason, for all those years. But that time has ended. What do I need to do know (besides not drink)? Who knows.
But I will tell you I'm as busy at work as I've been in a few years. Could it be that I am more effective when not drunk/hung over? Or that people like working with me more when they aren't wondering if I'm a little tipsy?
It feels that way to realize you were off a day on your "day count," and today is actually Day 18 rather than 17!!!
It's tricky when stuff comes up out of the past that you have to deal with. Like a big tab you ran up when you were blowied. Since that relates to drinking, obviously, you want to have a drink to think about how to deal with it. BUT THAT DOESN'T REALLY SOLVE ANYTHING DOES IT.
I just feel like that was something I needed to do, for whatever reason, for all those years. But that time has ended. What do I need to do know (besides not drink)? Who knows.
But I will tell you I'm as busy at work as I've been in a few years. Could it be that I am more effective when not drunk/hung over? Or that people like working with me more when they aren't wondering if I'm a little tipsy?
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Originally Posted by rah555 
I am feeling so tired too! My favorite thing is laying on the couch or in bed watching tv with my hubby and my 3 dogs. It's peaceful. I figure I owe it to my body...the cycle of binging and recovering probably made my body work extra hard. Plus I had 3 major surgeries in the last 7 years, gastric bypass in September 2009, tummy tuck in December 2014 and arm lifts at the beginning of this year. My body has been working overtime!! I think rest and finding relaxation and peace is key to our success. We need to take care of ourselves. When we were drinking we weren't listening to our bodies. In my mind knowing and feeling fatigue is s sign that we are connecting with our bodies! So I say...when is it the work day done do I can go home, put on my favorite show and snuggle??
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Originally Posted by learntofly
Exactly! When I first stopped drinking, I had a very hard time letting things go. I would just keep replaying my past actions over and over in my head. I felt so incredibly ashamed and guilty and horrible that I had let everyone down.
Reliving the past is a waste. It happened, and there is nothing I can do about it now. Might as well focus on my sobriety and changing my future. It's good to not forget the past, because it reminds us of why we're choosing sobriety, but don't live there.
Reliving the past is a waste. It happened, and there is nothing I can do about it now. Might as well focus on my sobriety and changing my future. It's good to not forget the past, because it reminds us of why we're choosing sobriety, but don't live there.
....seconded. Spot on.
Day 24.....off we go.
Good day all................
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Originally Posted by enfinthechange
I can't stand the past actions... i want to run away.... the anxiety is massive
I don't think.j can go back home..... oh gawd.....
I don't think.j can go back home..... oh gawd.....
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Originally Posted by patricia68
I had a nap and I woke up feeling better. But now the anxiety is back. My hands are shaking and my heart is racing. On top of that I'm beating myself up for wasting my day like this. I know it's ridiculous to worry so much about something I can't control. My AV , my own thoughts, I don't even know what it is...it just feels like I'm wasting a day making myself ill...
I pushed myself to work out and then tackled a couple of small things on my to-do list and now I am feeling a bit better. Overload can lead to shutdown for me. What about you? Kiki????
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Originally Posted by KiKi0615
IS THIS BAD?
Only 17 days in and I feel soooo lazy! I stay up late and then in the morning once I get my kids off to school I crawl back in bed with my puppy & kitty & read your posts on this site & post myself, catch up on the news...basically just procrastinate and then go back to sleep. Sometimes I don't get out of bed until 2:00!
I'm just soooo tired all the time. I think my body is trying to catch up from the 2 years of hell I put it through.
On one hand I feel so guilty because I have so much to do &'I keep putting it off until "tomorrow". But on the other hand I think to myself..."hey! I'm exhausted. I'm sober. And I need rest. The LIST will be there tomorrow!"
Thoughts?
Only 17 days in and I feel soooo lazy! I stay up late and then in the morning once I get my kids off to school I crawl back in bed with my puppy & kitty & read your posts on this site & post myself, catch up on the news...basically just procrastinate and then go back to sleep. Sometimes I don't get out of bed until 2:00!
I'm just soooo tired all the time. I think my body is trying to catch up from the 2 years of hell I put it through.
On one hand I feel so guilty because I have so much to do &'I keep putting it off until "tomorrow". But on the other hand I think to myself..."hey! I'm exhausted. I'm sober. And I need rest. The LIST will be there tomorrow!"
Thoughts?
So go find a yoga class if it's available - there are always beginner classes around - something about the stretching helps with circulation and makes you feel really grounded. The rest of the day is going pretty well, even though I still have the little AV talking to me, but I know I can say "no" all day because I want to try for a delicious night's sleep!
Her main message in the class was about kindness - not just kindness to others, which is easy, but kindness to ourselves. So be kind and allow your laziness if it feels good! : )
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I did it, went in... kids pleased to see me... at least it's home. I got to be patient. ... work at it! Still sober, don't even want it... there's bottles on the side, but I don't care. Thank you brain! Day 5 in the bag... rock on day 6.... stay strong folks. ....
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Originally Posted by blondsober
It's not bad at all. This takes some time. A friend invited me to a yoga class today, a hatha yoga class, and out of the blue the woman running the practice did a standing position where you raise your toes, lift your arches, and reach upward and she announced that it was a great pose for anxiety and depression. Right then I knew why the yoga class was dropped in my lap.
So go find a yoga class if it's available - there are always beginner classes around - something about the stretching helps with circulation and makes you feel really grounded. The rest of the day is going pretty well, even though I still have the little AV talking to me, but I know I can say "no" all day because I want to try for a delicious night's sleep!
Her main message in the class was about kindness - not just kindness to others, which is easy, but kindness to ourselves. So be kind and allow your laziness if it feels good! : )
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sorry for all the anxieties today guys - I find breathing exercises to be really useful:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...echniques.html
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...techniqes.html
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...echniques.html
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...techniqes.html
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Originally Posted by enfinthechange
I did it, went in... kids pleased to see me... at least it's home. I got to be patient. ... work at it! Still sober, don't even want it... there's bottles on the side, but I don't care. Thank you brain! Day 5 in the bag... rock on day 6.... stay strong folks. ....
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Originally Posted by RedAndy
Day 18 and feeling better than yesterday - wife told me this morning to smile and keep the momentum going - the day has definitely been better so far.
The above tho Kiki has now got my mind racing into overdrive - GP started me on Fluoxetine yesterday - one of my worst obsessions is weight and gaining would mean utter meltdown at present - I am strict with diet and exercise (majority of the time) to the point of obsessive.
The above tho Kiki has now got my mind racing into overdrive - GP started me on Fluoxetine yesterday - one of my worst obsessions is weight and gaining would mean utter meltdown at present - I am strict with diet and exercise (majority of the time) to the point of obsessive.
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All my anxiety today was about my husband's job. I knew there was something going on but he was acting strange and didn't tell me what the problem was.
When he came home I confronted him. He finally told me what's going on. And when I told him I didn't like being lied to or not told the truth he blamed me...I'm too emotional too handle it, I am not compassionate, I always worry about money...and the list goes on.
I'm not going to drink over this but I'm really hurt...
When he came home I confronted him. He finally told me what's going on. And when I told him I didn't like being lied to or not told the truth he blamed me...I'm too emotional too handle it, I am not compassionate, I always worry about money...and the list goes on.
I'm not going to drink over this but I'm really hurt...
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Patricia, I'm sorry that your husband is pointing the finger at you. Please don't let it get you down. By staying sober you are doing the one thing that can make positive change in your life. You don't deserve to be blamed for other's problems.
Busy afternoon at work. Glad it's almost time to go home! Hope you all are well... I'll check in before bed!
Busy afternoon at work. Glad it's almost time to go home! Hope you all are well... I'll check in before bed!
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Originally Posted by beautifulpines
Hi all - I am having a difficult day - feeling so down about my past actions. But reminding myself that the past is gone and today I am awake, painful as that can feel. Good having my old dog by my side - he's always been there. Thank you for listening.
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Had a funny day. I didn't sleep at all last night and ended up sleeping most of the day which isn't great (off this week).
But.......I woke up feeling great and went out with my son which is something I would never have done at night! I could tell how much he just appreciated being with me, quite humbling and made me feel guilty for the past. Having said that, I now know that can be a normal occurrence so I am happy!
I hope you are all doing okay.
But.......I woke up feeling great and went out with my son which is something I would never have done at night! I could tell how much he just appreciated being with me, quite humbling and made me feel guilty for the past. Having said that, I now know that can be a normal occurrence so I am happy!
I hope you are all doing okay.
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Ending day 17 sober.
Came home from work and was met with an empty house (expected) and then became annoyed at how the kitchen was...immediately my AV began to whisper and tell me that I was alone and that I could take a swig out of the open bottle of wine on the counter and that I'd feel better and that nobody would know. But the reasonable part of my brain then told me that I'd not stop until I was drunk and/or passed out and that I'd feel like trash tomorrow. Killed it with food and caffeine and so very thankful right now that I did.
Goodnight classmates, sending positive vibes to all of you!
Came home from work and was met with an empty house (expected) and then became annoyed at how the kitchen was...immediately my AV began to whisper and tell me that I was alone and that I could take a swig out of the open bottle of wine on the counter and that I'd feel better and that nobody would know. But the reasonable part of my brain then told me that I'd not stop until I was drunk and/or passed out and that I'd feel like trash tomorrow. Killed it with food and caffeine and so very thankful right now that I did.
Goodnight classmates, sending positive vibes to all of you!
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Day 10 check-in...still fighting for sobriety. First counseling session tomorrow morning. Let's see how it goes and whether it helps me on this path to a better life.
Not feeling so social tonight so will just say goodnight. Embrace another sober day and night everyone.
Not feeling so social tonight so will just say goodnight. Embrace another sober day and night everyone.
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Evening check-in. Pretty much echoing the same fatigue complaint that others have reported, and counting down until I can turn in for the night. I recognize it for what it is, part of the healing process, and know that it will improve with time.
Watching the news coverage of the shooting in San Bernardino, CA at a conference center that was being used by county public employees. It is so sad, 14 killed and 17 injured. Such a devastating event, please keep the families of the victims in your prayers. Speculations are that it may have been a work-place dispute that triggered it.
I am thankful that we are all safe in our homes and are striving to make improvements so that we can live our lives in the moment, appreciating each and every day.
Watching the news coverage of the shooting in San Bernardino, CA at a conference center that was being used by county public employees. It is so sad, 14 killed and 17 injured. Such a devastating event, please keep the families of the victims in your prayers. Speculations are that it may have been a work-place dispute that triggered it.
I am thankful that we are all safe in our homes and are striving to make improvements so that we can live our lives in the moment, appreciating each and every day.
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Originally Posted by Keepnitreal
Hang in there Patricia. I pushed myself to work out and then tackled a couple of small things on my to-do list and now I am feeling a bit better. Overload can lead to shutdown for me. What about you? Kiki????
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Hi guys! Checking in! I didn't get my butt out of bed until 2:00 pm today! I feel guilty but my body must just need the extra rest. Anyway, after I woke up I had to run all over town, cook dinner for the family, exercise, clean etc etc. Basically I had to play "catch up". Oh well...at least I'm sober! End of day 17 & feeling better every day!
I did have one pretty strong craving at 3:20 today (the same exact time as yesterday) but it only lasted about 3 minutes. My sponsor told me when I have a craving to talk back to it & say something like "ahhh...shut up! Haha. I'm not gonna drink so go away!" I talked back to it & it left!
Pams & SwimKim-I sure hope the reason I am so tired is b/c my body is healing because I did ALOT of damage!!!
KIR & Denise-great news about your husbands!
BeautifulPines-I hope your feeling better!
Enfin-u hanging in there?
Rah- you make relaxing sound so awesome! I think I will relax more! Ha
Jemma-that definitely gives me hope that you've lost 6 lbs!
Patricia-you doing ok?
Odelle-the shootings are terrible! I wish people would stop killing people. :-(
I did have one pretty strong craving at 3:20 today (the same exact time as yesterday) but it only lasted about 3 minutes. My sponsor told me when I have a craving to talk back to it & say something like "ahhh...shut up! Haha. I'm not gonna drink so go away!" I talked back to it & it left!
Pams & SwimKim-I sure hope the reason I am so tired is b/c my body is healing because I did ALOT of damage!!!
KIR & Denise-great news about your husbands!
BeautifulPines-I hope your feeling better!
Enfin-u hanging in there?
Rah- you make relaxing sound so awesome! I think I will relax more! Ha
Jemma-that definitely gives me hope that you've lost 6 lbs!
Patricia-you doing ok?
Odelle-the shootings are terrible! I wish people would stop killing people. :-(
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