Class Of November 2012 - Part 7
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Gosh
Today I feel love
and pain
and devastation
and like laughing and laying on the floor crying...
I am tormented and safe and sober and clean, confused, determined...
I am rich in Spirit and sad in solitude.
I'm partially lazy, panicked, hungry & full; at the same time.
Full up of me...surrendering.
It's my holiday time.
It's my life.
Mostly, I Am
Grateful to be here,
with you.
and pain
and devastation
and like laughing and laying on the floor crying...
I am tormented and safe and sober and clean, confused, determined...
I am rich in Spirit and sad in solitude.
I'm partially lazy, panicked, hungry & full; at the same time.
Full up of me...surrendering.
It's my holiday time.
It's my life.
Mostly, I Am
Grateful to be here,
with you.
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Location: New York
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Welcome Choicy. You are never alone when you are on SR and try your best to reach out. It can be hard I know, but keep trying and do the best you can. We are here for you.
Congrats on 3 years Bashforth. So good to hear from you. I agree with Charlee...you are all such an inspiration that are hitting that 3 year mark. So happy for all of you and proud to have shared the journey.
I struggled for a year of on and off sobriety from Nov 2012 to October 29, 2013, during which you all kept encouraging me and including me - for which I am forever grateful. I had 14 months of good sobriety from October 29, 2013 to December 30, 2014, but have struggled for the last 10 1/2 months of relapse. I'm still trying to get back on track guys. But I know one thing for sure. This group keeps me coming back. I will never give up because I know it's what I need and want for myself and my family.
Although I am unfortunately not celebrating the same milestones, I think this group is so special to me still and where I feel comfortable opening up because it is where I first came when I knew in my heart of hearts that I had a problem and just didn't know where to turn or what to do. I had no one and then suddenley I had a bunch of some ones. And you all have stuck with me through all my ups and downs. You really know more about me than my own family, friends, even my husband.
I'm a work in progress but I will never give up. I'm working hard and want to recover.
Thanks to all for reviving our class thread.
I'm finishing off the work week and school week with the kids and then off to Thanksgiving celebrations at my sister's house. Looking forward to a sober, funfilled weekend with my family.
Love to all-
Congrats on 3 years Bashforth. So good to hear from you. I agree with Charlee...you are all such an inspiration that are hitting that 3 year mark. So happy for all of you and proud to have shared the journey.
I struggled for a year of on and off sobriety from Nov 2012 to October 29, 2013, during which you all kept encouraging me and including me - for which I am forever grateful. I had 14 months of good sobriety from October 29, 2013 to December 30, 2014, but have struggled for the last 10 1/2 months of relapse. I'm still trying to get back on track guys. But I know one thing for sure. This group keeps me coming back. I will never give up because I know it's what I need and want for myself and my family.
Although I am unfortunately not celebrating the same milestones, I think this group is so special to me still and where I feel comfortable opening up because it is where I first came when I knew in my heart of hearts that I had a problem and just didn't know where to turn or what to do. I had no one and then suddenley I had a bunch of some ones. And you all have stuck with me through all my ups and downs. You really know more about me than my own family, friends, even my husband.
I'm a work in progress but I will never give up. I'm working hard and want to recover.
Thanks to all for reviving our class thread.
I'm finishing off the work week and school week with the kids and then off to Thanksgiving celebrations at my sister's house. Looking forward to a sober, funfilled weekend with my family.
Love to all-
Recognizes the Beast
Join Date: Nov 2012
Location: In the kitchen, cooking up a storm
Posts: 704
Originally Posted by Bashforth 
Hey everybody!
So nice to check in and hear from so many of our fellows.
Three years today!
One day at a time.
Grateful.
Love to all,
--B.
So nice to check in and hear from so many of our fellows.
Three years today!
One day at a time.
Grateful.
Love to all,
--B.
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Family I am taking you all as my family this year.
I'm willing to change that hopeless feeling to hopefull-ish...It's a beginning!
Thank you ForMeForThem for being here, one thing I've learned is I'm grateful for my milestone of today. God, that was some sickness before, again and again, and right now, I'm workin' it out too. I love that you said I will never give up AWESOME!!
Dear JSDPhilly I don't attend meetings, I have friends active in the program I talk to every week, but work the NA steps & read NA material every day as often as needed. I don't recommend it.
I would really like to get a sponsor, but haven't gotten that far yet. I can no longer do this isolated and alone. I may not have been in H (for long) &I, but might as well. SO that's how I've learned and stayed clean since 2012. Avoidance will not get me the rest of the way...
Thank you, all for giving me a shot, here. I look forward to getting to know you. Have a Peaceful week.
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I wish a peaceful week for you too Choicy! I also love that you are willing to change hopeless to hopefull (ish)...it is a wonderful start. Hope and faith are the places to start. Beautiful things can grow from there.
Also, thanks guys for the support. Happy Thanksgiving to those celebrating and a peaceful, grateful day to all...
Also, thanks guys for the support. Happy Thanksgiving to those celebrating and a peaceful, grateful day to all...
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I don't participate in the forced thanks-giving/family gatherings. Wish every one in my family of origin could understand how another 24 hours every day is what I am thankful for.
But I don't blame them.
I forgive them. Right now. Today. In this moment, I forgive, them, and me.
Holidays are my hours away from the compulsive, self-centeredness, bah-humbug...
My holiday is You. Thank you my new 2015 Family!
Peace In---Peace Out!
But I don't blame them.
I forgive them. Right now. Today. In this moment, I forgive, them, and me.
Holidays are my hours away from the compulsive, self-centeredness, bah-humbug...
My holiday is You. Thank you my new 2015 Family!
Peace In---Peace Out!
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Hey FMFT! Great to see you! Keep it up!
Choicy, keep up the positivity. Remember, stopping is easy, staying stopped is hard.
The best way to get a sponsor is to go to a meeting and ask! You'd be amazed at the response you will get.
Hoping you all have a wonderful weekend.
Jeff
Choicy, keep up the positivity. Remember, stopping is easy, staying stopped is hard.
The best way to get a sponsor is to go to a meeting and ask! You'd be amazed at the response you will get.
Hoping you all have a wonderful weekend.
Jeff
I'm Wide Awake
Join Date: Nov 2012
Location: North Carolina
Posts: 766
I hope everyone had a good Thanksgiving however they were celebrating. Or a good Thursday if you aren't in the US. I had a good week at my parents house. I'm glad to be home more.
FMFT, I am completely with you that I won't give up. My path has not been straight but I think we'll both get there.
JSD, my mom bought me a Fitbit Charge HR for Christmas so now I will have to keep up the exercise.
Hope everyone has a good week.
FMFT, I am completely with you that I won't give up. My path has not been straight but I think we'll both get there.
JSD, my mom bought me a Fitbit Charge HR for Christmas so now I will have to keep up the exercise.
Hope everyone has a good week.
Recognizes the Beast
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Location: In the kitchen, cooking up a storm
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Hi Charlee, don't have a fitbit myself, just the app on the iphone which tracks your steps. Not as good, but still had a lot of fun with it.
I'm happy you made it through the holiday. I remember watching a movie a few years ago. It was an AA meeting and the chair made some comment like "I've been sober 15 years, but the holidays are always a tough time. So tough, I usually want to throw myself off the wagon, head first with both feet."
Take care all, we're rolling into the tough month.
I'm happy you made it through the holiday. I remember watching a movie a few years ago. It was an AA meeting and the chair made some comment like "I've been sober 15 years, but the holidays are always a tough time. So tough, I usually want to throw myself off the wagon, head first with both feet."
Take care all, we're rolling into the tough month.
I'm Wide Awake
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That's awesome Choicy! Great job getting through the weekend.
I ran around the house to make my 10,000 steps yesterday. Back on the aerobics tonight after work.
Nomis, you are right, this is a tough time of year. One day at a time for me.
I ran around the house to make my 10,000 steps yesterday. Back on the aerobics tonight after work.
Nomis, you are right, this is a tough time of year. One day at a time for me.
Recognizes the Beast
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Dancin' works just fine Choicy. Unfortunately I'm too old for hip-hop. Nor do I have the grace for anything else. Sigh.
Huge congrats on making it through the weekend! Give yourself a well-deserved pat on the back. Everyone here knows how huge that is.
Good on ya for the 10,000 Charlee. One step at a time
Huge congrats on making it through the weekend! Give yourself a well-deserved pat on the back. Everyone here knows how huge that is.
Good on ya for the 10,000 Charlee. One step at a time
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Nomis - It wouldn't be Christmas on SR without it I'm sure it will be making an appearance soon!
Choicy - Congrats on making it through the weekend...keep on dancin'!
Charlee- I have a fitbit too. I've been slacking on my steps lately. You all have given me motivation to get back to it. I love when I reach 10,000 steps and my little fitbit cheers for me. Exercise and being active really do help. Congrats on making it through the holiday and I'm glad you enjoyed your time with your parents.
Hang in there everyone. The crazy season...I mean Christmas season...is upon us. I'm determined to be sober and present for all of it.
One step at a time - love that Nomis! It's my new mantra.
I'm sure it will be making an appearance soon!Choicy - Congrats on making it through the weekend...keep on dancin'!
Charlee- I have a fitbit too. I've been slacking on my steps lately. You all have given me motivation to get back to it. I love when I reach 10,000 steps and my little fitbit cheers for me. Exercise and being active really do help. Congrats on making it through the holiday and I'm glad you enjoyed your time with your parents.
Hang in there everyone. The crazy season...I mean Christmas season...is upon us. I'm determined to be sober and present for all of it.
One step at a time - love that Nomis! It's my new mantra.
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