Here goes ..
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Join Date: Aug 2007
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Your right of course. Its just that the desire to drink has come and gone in waves until recently and I have been able to tough it out when they hit. Now though I havent had any let up since Saturday when it just hit me. Its exhausting and dispiriting to think of nothing but drinking. Right now I really really really want to drink and it seems to be the only think my mind will let me dwell on 
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Join Date: Sep 2007
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Well Octoman I fell off the wagon about a year ago, I had been sober for 2 months and here I am again. I had my last drink on Sunday. I am done. I hope I can do it this time. Seems like I had to learn how fun blackouts were again too. I never tried meeting last time, but I might this time. I thought I could do it with sheer will power. I recall what you are going through at this point with it coming in waves, but just get your surfboard out lol.. Good luck... Keep your fingers crossed for me.
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Join Date: Sep 2007
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best of luck!
The first step is admitting you have a problem and you've done just that.. I wish you the best of everything you do... It's not easy, I've relapsed a few times myself and I'm hoping this time it sticks... You can do it!! 
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Join Date: Jul 2007
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I just read your thread here and let me just say
I hope you won't put yourself in the position
of learning the hard way
what so many before you have already gone through
our experience is knocking
trying to reach you by phone
saying your chances of doing this thing
long-term, all on your own
by the sheer strength of your will
it's just slightly over nil
I would be seriously getting my @ss to some AA meetings if I were you. You are in a very precarious phase right now, and you need some in-person support from people who understand. That's just my personal opinion...
I hope you won't put yourself in the position
of learning the hard way
what so many before you have already gone through
our experience is knocking
trying to reach you by phone
saying your chances of doing this thing
long-term, all on your own
by the sheer strength of your will
it's just slightly over nil
I would be seriously getting my @ss to some AA meetings if I were you. You are in a very precarious phase right now, and you need some in-person support from people who understand. That's just my personal opinion...
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Well, its the start of another sober day for me. Thanks for your advice.
Barb & Bavaljalo - I will give AA another shot. I went to a couple of open meetings at the outset and although I found listening to others stories inspiring I didnt engage properly. Right now I am willing to try anything to get through this `patch`.
CareBearStare - Good luck this time round! keep posting and let me know how you get along. It helps to remember that if I fail this time I will surely be here again at some point starting from square.
Dreaminaurora - thanks for your support. Going to tough this one out!
I have a problem evening tonight. I have to give somebody a job interview for my firm. It is being conducted in a bar / restaurant in Notting Hill. Crazy I know but thats just the way things are done here! Its not something I can avoid, its fundamental to my job. Nobody I work with knows I have quit drinking. I am going with two directors who will hit the bottle I'm sure. I'm going to tell them I have stopped drinking while I get over my cravings for cigarettes which is part true (I quit a 20 a day habit at the same time). I just need to be mentally prepared to be surrounded by drinking partying people and not pick up.
Anyone been in a similar situation so early on? How did you cope?
Barb & Bavaljalo - I will give AA another shot. I went to a couple of open meetings at the outset and although I found listening to others stories inspiring I didnt engage properly. Right now I am willing to try anything to get through this `patch`.
CareBearStare - Good luck this time round! keep posting and let me know how you get along. It helps to remember that if I fail this time I will surely be here again at some point starting from square.
Dreaminaurora - thanks for your support. Going to tough this one out!
I have a problem evening tonight. I have to give somebody a job interview for my firm. It is being conducted in a bar / restaurant in Notting Hill. Crazy I know but thats just the way things are done here! Its not something I can avoid, its fundamental to my job. Nobody I work with knows I have quit drinking. I am going with two directors who will hit the bottle I'm sure. I'm going to tell them I have stopped drinking while I get over my cravings for cigarettes which is part true (I quit a 20 a day habit at the same time). I just need to be mentally prepared to be surrounded by drinking partying people and not pick up.
Anyone been in a similar situation so early on? How did you cope?
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Join Date: Jun 2007
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I just started reading your thread today. Welcome to life on lifes terms! If you don't drink it does get better. It has been almost 8 months for me and I never wanna go back. So, how are you doing? I noticed you had not posted in a few days. Hope all is well. 
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hellooo, Octoman! I was hoing you'd post tonight!
how about ,
"Well, you see, I'm trying to stop smoking.
If I drink - I'll smoke. I NEED to stop smoking."
*then the clincher*
"I'm sure you understand."
How's that?
And YAY FOR YOU checking out AA again.
how about ,
"Well, you see, I'm trying to stop smoking.
If I drink - I'll smoke. I NEED to stop smoking."
*then the clincher*
"I'm sure you understand."
How's that?
And YAY FOR YOU checking out AA again.
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Hi Tanypmc and Dee,
Its a wierd one. That part of London was my old partying ground - at least until a few years ago when I preferred to drink alone and at home.
Thinking about it though I think situations like that I am going to be so on my guard and mentally prepared to not drink that a relapse is a limited risk. Its those quiet times at home when it `creeps up on you` that I find the toughest to fight.
goog thing though is that is a nice sunny day here and walking by the Thames this morning at 6.45am as the sun rose was wonderful. No hangover, just a beautiful view to lift my spirits.
Its a wierd one. That part of London was my old partying ground - at least until a few years ago when I preferred to drink alone and at home.
Thinking about it though I think situations like that I am going to be so on my guard and mentally prepared to not drink that a relapse is a limited risk. Its those quiet times at home when it `creeps up on you` that I find the toughest to fight.
goog thing though is that is a nice sunny day here and walking by the Thames this morning at 6.45am as the sun rose was wonderful. No hangover, just a beautiful view to lift my spirits.
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Hahah, I'll try to end up hoeing tonight. Might not go down to well if I suggest it to the job candidate - "hey lets see how you'll fit in - fancy a spot of hoeing old boy?"
Seriously though thanks. I'll use your line, do the meal, ask the questions my boss has asked me to put to the guy and then get straight out and home.
Seriously though thanks. I'll use your line, do the meal, ask the questions my boss has asked me to put to the guy and then get straight out and home.
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"Hoeing" LMAOOOO Thanks so much for a great laugh this morning! Hang in there.
chuckle chuckle......I am still laughing
Who said sobriety is boring? Ha I laugh much more than when I was using. hehehe
chuckle chuckle......I am still laughing
Who said sobriety is boring? Ha I laugh much more than when I was using. hehehe
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Hi Tanya, hope you are still finding somthing to smile about today
Well I made it through last night and this morning I feel GREAT!!
I fully expected to have crumbled last night and be writing my last post here wishing everyone luck before before sloping away to pick up where I left off.
Being out in a social environment was always going to be the biggest test for me and I would prefer not to have risked it so early. Unfortunatley though life doesnt stop and I have a mortgage to pay so I need my job. I simply have to be able to handle these types of entertainment events.
Its only a small step but after nearly week of feeling very low and very sorry for myself its great to have just a little thing to feel proud about. I hope my good feeling sticks for a little while, I prefer myself this way.
For the first time in a little while I believe I can do this again.
Well I made it through last night and this morning I feel GREAT!!
I fully expected to have crumbled last night and be writing my last post here wishing everyone luck before before sloping away to pick up where I left off.
Being out in a social environment was always going to be the biggest test for me and I would prefer not to have risked it so early. Unfortunatley though life doesnt stop and I have a mortgage to pay so I need my job. I simply have to be able to handle these types of entertainment events.
Its only a small step but after nearly week of feeling very low and very sorry for myself its great to have just a little thing to feel proud about. I hope my good feeling sticks for a little while, I prefer myself this way
. For the first time in a little while I believe I can do this again.
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