Here goes ..
Hi all
Doing okay today thanks, although somebody seems to have turned off the sun here! It was freezing this morning!! The wind was howlinng up the river as I walked alongside it this morning and broke my new umbrella
Quite exhilarating though. Guess I should dig out my winter coat and gloves, its feeling really autumnal.
Oh, and my 2 year old must have got his hands on my clock radio. It was on full volume static when it went off at six this morning. Had to peel myself off the ceiling. Thought I was going to have a heart attack! Death by clock radio....
Doing okay today thanks, although somebody seems to have turned off the sun here! It was freezing this morning!! The wind was howlinng up the river as I walked alongside it this morning and broke my new umbrella
Quite exhilarating though. Guess I should dig out my winter coat and gloves, its feeling really autumnal.
Oh, and my 2 year old must have got his hands on my clock radio. It was on full volume static when it went off at six this morning. Had to peel myself off the ceiling. Thought I was going to have a heart attack! Death by clock radio....
Cool - it worked!
Now got to find something interesting to post!
That picture by the way is on my desktop to remind me what I want to get back. It was taken of me a couple of years ago on top of a Scottish Mountain. This last couple of years I havent done anythign like that because I preferred to simply drink. My intention is to get fit and stand there again. I used to love hiking and hill walking and i want to get it back in my life.
Now got to find something interesting to post!
That picture by the way is on my desktop to remind me what I want to get back. It was taken of me a couple of years ago on top of a Scottish Mountain. This last couple of years I havent done anythign like that because I preferred to simply drink. My intention is to get fit and stand there again. I used to love hiking and hill walking and i want to get it back in my life.
Yeah, havent worked out how to do small pictures yet, Lol
They are either tiny little thumnails or utterly enormous.
Never mind, I'll try and do a smaller version later when I have time.
They are either tiny little thumnails or utterly enormous.
Never mind, I'll try and do a smaller version later when I have time.
Awesome
A beautiful and uplifting picture Octo - brought tears to my eyes. It's a rough day I hope I will get through. So, thanks for the inspiration. I need to remember who I used to be also. Love, Joanie
Octo: Nice photo, but holy crap! I can't understand how you were able to stand there like 2 feet away from what looks like a million mile drop. I can't even do glass elevators without the urge to hurl. Heights give me the willies. eeh!
Hi Joanie, ParentRecovers & Reubena!
Is everything okay Joanie? The bad days seem to come and go dont they. We wake up in the morning feeling okay and then whallop! life hits you. Hopefully you are doing better now. Let us know how you are.
That place I was standing I dont recall specifically. My friend who took the picture sent it to me weeks after we got back. Looks like I was posing but I dont remember it being taken. Maybe it looks like a huge drop because of the angle? There were some thin ridges from time to time but I'm not too great with heights either so normally stay a little back. Maybe I had a bit of dutch courage. Used to carry whisky with me when I walked .....
Either way I just love the scenery there. Scotland is so beautiful and remote. Its hard to feel unhappy in amongst such natural beaty. The weather can be awful so not many people venture into them. It can go from a sunny day like in the picture to zero visability in half an hour. Because its so free of people the animals are not scared of people - they have never seen any before. Some birds will come and sit with you and take bread from your hand. Arctic foxes come right up to you to see what you are. Its magic.
I totally gave up walking a few years back - gave up everything to be honest - so its good to be reminded of the things I once enjoyed. I dont have the fitness yet to do something like that again. I hope I will do though. I have started exercising again so maybe over time I will get in shape. I hope so. My joints ache terribly now though, i really should get it checked out. Its not normal at 34 I think.
Oh well, enough waffling from me! Speak later.
Is everything okay Joanie? The bad days seem to come and go dont they. We wake up in the morning feeling okay and then whallop! life hits you. Hopefully you are doing better now. Let us know how you are.
That place I was standing I dont recall specifically. My friend who took the picture sent it to me weeks after we got back. Looks like I was posing but I dont remember it being taken. Maybe it looks like a huge drop because of the angle? There were some thin ridges from time to time but I'm not too great with heights either so normally stay a little back. Maybe I had a bit of dutch courage. Used to carry whisky with me when I walked .....
Either way I just love the scenery there. Scotland is so beautiful and remote. Its hard to feel unhappy in amongst such natural beaty. The weather can be awful so not many people venture into them. It can go from a sunny day like in the picture to zero visability in half an hour. Because its so free of people the animals are not scared of people - they have never seen any before. Some birds will come and sit with you and take bread from your hand. Arctic foxes come right up to you to see what you are. Its magic.
I totally gave up walking a few years back - gave up everything to be honest - so its good to be reminded of the things I once enjoyed. I dont have the fitness yet to do something like that again. I hope I will do though. I have started exercising again so maybe over time I will get in shape. I hope so. My joints ache terribly now though, i really should get it checked out. Its not normal at 34 I think.
Oh well, enough waffling from me! Speak later.
Thanks for caring,
Parent, Octo & Reubena - it's just that I scared myself badly last night, similar to what Octo went through recently. Our new puppy was sick in the middle of the night & when my husband took her out for a walk I cleaned up the mess. I wasn't particularly upset or anything, but when I was alone in the kitchen I opened the 'fridge and grabbed a beer. I popped it - I did NOT drink it. I have no idea where the desire to drink came from, it's been 6 wks. It scared the hell out of me because it came out of nowhere! Next time it happens, will I be able to resist? I guess it's time to rethink the "It's ok to have beer in the house" thing. I was terrified at my lack of control. Today I have cried alot and been feeling very shredded, very humbled. I do not have this thing made after all.
Sorry you had a scare last night and a rough one to get thru today, Joanie. I hope you are feeling better soon. You are doing a super job and have made it over some big hurdles. Take Care,
R
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Oh well, still going.
Just had to cancel meeting an old friend tonight. Last week I bumped into a great budddy of mine who I had lost touch with for nearly 10 years ago We arranged to have bite to eat tonight to catch up.
Thing is I have been feeling a really strong desire to drink today. I dont feel in danger but I dont trust myself to go out. I obviously havent told him that since we last hung out I became an alcoholic (even though when we last knew each other I was under a `supervision order` at university for getting drunk and throwing a barbeque off the roof of a 30 story building in downtown Toronto so I guess it wouldnt come as too much of a surprise... )
Anyway, I have had to cancel which stinks. I basically cant trust myself to trust myself.
Maybe further into my recovery I can start socialisin properly again.
Just wanted to whinge.
Oct
Just had to cancel meeting an old friend tonight. Last week I bumped into a great budddy of mine who I had lost touch with for nearly 10 years ago We arranged to have bite to eat tonight to catch up.
Thing is I have been feeling a really strong desire to drink today. I dont feel in danger but I dont trust myself to go out. I obviously havent told him that since we last hung out I became an alcoholic (even though when we last knew each other I was under a `supervision order` at university for getting drunk and throwing a barbeque off the roof of a 30 story building in downtown Toronto so I guess it wouldnt come as too much of a surprise... )
Anyway, I have had to cancel which stinks. I basically cant trust myself to trust myself.
Maybe further into my recovery I can start socialisin properly again.
Just wanted to whinge.
Oct
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