Class of October 2016 Support Thread Part 2
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Join Date: Sep 2016
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Having a few cravings here on my day 3, so I'm posting for some accountability. No, I'm not going to drink today. I can't. It takes my body more and more time to recover from each relapse, and I'm too worn out to do it again.
It's much easier on my body and brain to read and post here than it is to withdraw again. Happy sober Monday!
It's much easier on my body and brain to read and post here than it is to withdraw again. Happy sober Monday!
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Join Date: Sep 2012
Location: Santa Barbara, SoCal
Posts: 561
Guys I drank and I'm sorry. My bf has forgiven me but I feel terrible. It's so funny how a few days ago I was so happy and now after the alcohol has worn off I'm like my life is in shambles!
It's really not any different than it was a week ago when I was sober (I do have a great life) but now I haven't done anything in like 3 days. My house is a wreck. How quickly it all goes downhill.
No choice but to get back on the band wagon. Clean my house, go to work, pretend like everything's fine.
It's really not any different than it was a week ago when I was sober (I do have a great life) but now I haven't done anything in like 3 days. My house is a wreck. How quickly it all goes downhill.
No choice but to get back on the band wagon. Clean my house, go to work, pretend like everything's fine.
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Join Date: May 2016
Posts: 270
Ok I'll introduce myself. I am from the June, August and September classes. As you can see I am really good at staying sober...... The last few weeks have been one long binge.... So here I am at the end of October trying to do 7 straight days of sobriety. Then I can join November with some decent progress.
Hi again to a few familiar names! And hello nice to meet you to all the other Rocktobers! Love the name!!
Hi again to a few familiar names! And hello nice to meet you to all the other Rocktobers! Love the name!!
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Join Date: Sep 2012
Location: Santa Barbara, SoCal
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Thanks north. I feel better already.
My bf said he's "very disappointed" but he's gotten over it now. It all started with me thinking oh I can just go without drinking for 30 days and only drink on special occasions or only drink on vacations. Then of course I'm planning a vacation so I can think about drinking. But in reality I didn't even wait for a special occasion unless you count in between shifts drinks "special".
The alcohol lies again and I totally fell for it
My bf said he's "very disappointed" but he's gotten over it now. It all started with me thinking oh I can just go without drinking for 30 days and only drink on special occasions or only drink on vacations. Then of course I'm planning a vacation so I can think about drinking. But in reality I didn't even wait for a special occasion unless you count in between shifts drinks "special".
The alcohol lies again and I totally fell for it
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Join Date: Jan 2012
Location: Turkey
Posts: 66
NorthernLass, welcome, Jade, your experiences serve as a reminder to myself. I know a few drinks at a social occasion is not for me.
Keep visiting here, it helps me. A lot.
Nothing really to comment on today. I am still more productive at work, things that were just left on my desk are actually being dealt with now. I look back at some Mondays when all I could do was to watch the clock go round and I could get home and go to bed to get some sleep. The days where my hands were shaking so badly I couldn't write or draw a straight line, when eating with chopsticks was impossible. I don't have to live that anymore.
Progress towards being better at my job, being better with friends and family and being a better person. Progress, I am not there, but improving.
G
Keep visiting here, it helps me. A lot.
Nothing really to comment on today. I am still more productive at work, things that were just left on my desk are actually being dealt with now. I look back at some Mondays when all I could do was to watch the clock go round and I could get home and go to bed to get some sleep. The days where my hands were shaking so badly I couldn't write or draw a straight line, when eating with chopsticks was impossible. I don't have to live that anymore.
Progress towards being better at my job, being better with friends and family and being a better person. Progress, I am not there, but improving.
G
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Join Date: Nov 2013
Location: Ohio
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Originally Posted by NorthernLass 
I have just had a hot chocolate. I only ever drink it when I am staying off the booze. It's my alcohol replacement drink.
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Join Date: Feb 2016
Location: middle of nowhere
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Originally Posted by Pinky1
Please can I rejoin? Day 1 again for me but I won't let it beat me. I am determined to get back up and try again. Downfall was stupidly getting some wine hampers for Christmas presents and yes I opened them. Well lesson learned will replace them with food hampers. Foolish of me to buy them I know �� x
Originally Posted by NorthernLass
Ok I'll introduce myself. I am from the June, August and September classes. As you can see I am really good at staying sober...... The last few weeks have been one long binge.... So here I am at the end of October trying to do 7 straight days of sobriety. Then I can join November with some decent progress.
Hi again to a few familiar names! And hello nice to meet you to all the other Rocktobers! Love the name!!
Hi again to a few familiar names! And hello nice to meet you to all the other Rocktobers! Love the name!!
I was very much the same as you. I relapsed and tried joining a couple classes but I just could not figure out how to get it to stick for me. Eventually I found myself on the other side of the line in the sand. It took a lot of commitment to hard work on my recovery, a good strong plan and making use of as much face to face and group support as I could.
If I can do it... you can too. You know your plan is not strong enough if you can't quit and stay quit. Hang in there, do you have a plan? Have you tried revisiting it and adding to it?
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Originally Posted by Mia1972
Hi everyone. Had 2 years of sobriety plus 10 and a half months of awful relapse. Now I am back to my old good days of sobriety. Today is day 1. And I wanted to share this with you...
Did you get a chance to look at the recovery plans link yet? What do you think was your reason for the relapse, and do you know how you can prevent it next time?And for everyone, I can't recommend it enough if you don't already have it. The Sober Tool app is an amazing app to help track your sobriety and to read positive, motivational messages.
When I was alone and had no face to face support, SR and Sober tool app were what kept me going in the difficult times.
I hope everyone is having a great sober day!
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Join Date: Feb 2016
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Originally Posted by Jade1224
Thanks north. I feel better already.
My bf said he's "very disappointed" but he's gotten over it now. It all started with me thinking oh I can just go without drinking for 30 days and only drink on special occasions or only drink on vacations. Then of course I'm planning a vacation so I can think about drinking. But in reality I didn't even wait for a special occasion unless you count in between shifts drinks "special".
The alcohol lies again and I totally fell for it
My bf said he's "very disappointed" but he's gotten over it now. It all started with me thinking oh I can just go without drinking for 30 days and only drink on special occasions or only drink on vacations. Then of course I'm planning a vacation so I can think about drinking. But in reality I didn't even wait for a special occasion unless you count in between shifts drinks "special".
The alcohol lies again and I totally fell for it
Are you working and kind of a recovery plan? Have you tried any face to face support like AA, or an addictions counselor, or other group meetings? Maybe ramping up your efforts outside of SR will help you?
Try not to focus too much on your boyfriend's disappointment, or get too stuck in your shame and guilt. Positive action is what needs happen to get you moving forward. Be kind to yourself.
Beating ourselves up often becomes a good reason for us to drink again.
Hang in there and chin up!
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Join Date: Mar 2014
Posts: 141
Originally Posted by Delizadee
Welcome to the class Mia! You have done it before so you know you can do this again Did you get a chance to look at the recovery plans link yet? What do you think was your reason for the relapse, and do you know how you can prevent it next time?
And for everyone, I can't recommend it enough if you don't already have it. The Sober Tool app is an amazing app to help track your sobriety and to read positive, motivational messages.
When I was alone and had no face to face support, SR and Sober tool app were what kept me going in the difficult times.
I hope everyone is having a great sober day!
Did you get a chance to look at the recovery plans link yet? What do you think was your reason for the relapse, and do you know how you can prevent it next time?And for everyone, I can't recommend it enough if you don't already have it. The Sober Tool app is an amazing app to help track your sobriety and to read positive, motivational messages.
When I was alone and had no face to face support, SR and Sober tool app were what kept me going in the difficult times.
I hope everyone is having a great sober day!
And everyone else in the class. I had 2 years of sobriety. And then I had this big event that I organised. And that is where I started back. But now I went ahead and looked at my old posts. Couple months before I relapsed I had started to question whether I was a boring person because I wasnt drinking. Well the last 10 and a half months that I drank I was not a more colourful person because I was drinking on the contrary I was a person who put herself into so many regretful and shameful situation.
I am as determined as I was before. I am done with alcohol. And yes I am not denying anymore. And no I can never be a normal drinker. But a healthier person who is confident of herself. I put myself in so many ****** situations I dont even want to go into details.
I am taking this week as a relaxed week. Next week I will start exercising. And will go back to writing.
I am so happy I have SR...
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Originally Posted by Gifford
NorthernLass, welcome, Jade, your experiences serve as a reminder to myself. I know a few drinks at a social occasion is not for me.
Keep visiting here, it helps me. A lot.
Nothing really to comment on today. I am still more productive at work, things that were just left on my desk are actually being dealt with now. I look back at some Mondays when all I could do was to watch the clock go round and I could get home and go to bed to get some sleep. The days where my hands were shaking so badly I couldn't write or draw a straight line, when eating with chopsticks was impossible. I don't have to live that anymore.
Progress towards being better at my job, being better with friends and family and being a better person. Progress, I am not there, but improving.
G
Keep visiting here, it helps me. A lot.
Nothing really to comment on today. I am still more productive at work, things that were just left on my desk are actually being dealt with now. I look back at some Mondays when all I could do was to watch the clock go round and I could get home and go to bed to get some sleep. The days where my hands were shaking so badly I couldn't write or draw a straight line, when eating with chopsticks was impossible. I don't have to live that anymore.
Progress towards being better at my job, being better with friends and family and being a better person. Progress, I am not there, but improving.
G
Progress is right--improving every day.
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