Originally Posted by
Jade1224 
Thanks north. I feel better already.
My bf said he's "very disappointed" but he's gotten over it now. It all started with me thinking oh I can just go without drinking for 30 days and only drink on special occasions or only drink on vacations. Then of course I'm planning a vacation so I can think about drinking. But in reality I didn't even wait for a special occasion unless you count in between shifts drinks "special".
The alcohol lies again and I totally fell for it
Hi Jade
Are you working and kind of a recovery plan? Have you tried any face to face support like AA, or an addictions counselor, or other group meetings? Maybe ramping up your efforts outside of SR will help you?
Try not to focus too much on your boyfriend's disappointment, or get too stuck in your shame and guilt. Positive action is what needs happen to get you moving forward. Be kind to yourself.
Beating ourselves up often becomes a good reason for us to drink again.
Hang in there and chin up!
