Thanks north. I feel better already.
My bf said he's "very disappointed" but he's gotten over it now. It all started with me thinking oh I can just go without drinking for 30 days and only drink on special occasions or only drink on vacations. Then of course I'm planning a vacation so I can think about drinking. But in reality I didn't even wait for a special occasion unless you count in between shifts drinks "special".
The alcohol lies again and I totally fell for it