Badger07

How do you feel today Dalizadee? I am eating quite a bit. I figure the increased calories from eating is offset by the loss of drinking calories.

JL2014

Go Sadie !!!!
Cheering you on !

Delizadee

Morning guys.

The positivity here really helps. You're right, this is a great class.
Me, I'm trying to work on recommitting. My head is in negative space and doesn't want to leave. It's like I've slipped from thoughts cravings straight into drinker's mindset. All the old anxieties, fears, and resentments are coming out screaming and I am miserable. I find myself fantasizing and planning drinking. Raaarrgh!!
Meeting with my new counselor this afternoon. I'm going to try doing some step work before I go again.
xoxo thanks for being here you guys.

Outonthetiles

Thanks 360, Mel and Old Tomato.

JL2014

I'm looking at a pack of Reese's cups and a bag of beef jerky. I'm not even thinking about drinking.
( Probly gonna end up needing insulin before this is over) ! Lol
I haven't eaten either if those things in at least 3-4 yrs
I feel like if I REALLY want to change, really do it different, I'm gonna have to DO different. Even making mistakes and doing something wrong, yet different is better than the same old deadly drinking cycle.
Our AV has convinced us over the years that alcohol won't kill us.
I mean, who here is suicidal, all the time? I want live.
I also am drooling with some food cravings.
Sorry for the ramble. It's midday here, and today we are free.
Free----

OldTomato

GG - Don't let seeing your medical record trigger you, it's just there to ensure you get the help you need. It's the start of your recovery.
And yes, I got lost!! I'm quite happy working with AA so I'm not too bothered by it.

Delizadee - You'll be up and down like that sometimes, just keep pushing through it and you'll start to feel better. A lot of people I've met have told me that they were absolutely miserable in early recovery, you wouldn't think it looking at them now! It's your AV telling you you're better off drinking and it's LYING. What are the positives of you not picking up a drink? List them.

JL - Tell me about it! I've spent such a long time barely eating anything and now suddenly I'm spending all my money on food. Madness!

JL2014

Mel that is good stuff.
I'm saving it as someone else also commented, it goes beyond a few beginning days.
Thank you for sharing it !

PHRD

Phew took me a while to read through all the posts. Having been a member of several different "Month" groups over the years this is the most lively and supportive ever! Day 4 but really feeling a ton of energy now having gone a few weeks with only weekend drinking and now taking B12! Lovin it!

Badger07

JL - check out the calorie count on that jerky. Very low and its lean protein.

Mel12

Cococoooooooooo . . . . we miss youuuuuuuuuu . . . . .

Optimist4ever57

Hope you are on the mend soon, JL!

Well, my cravings are mostly for savory, salty things and right now I'm craving sushi. I burned out both my grandsons on it but I just can't get enough. In fact, that would be dinner if I had any tastebuds! This virus has killed them. I did manage to get a huge pot of chicken soup going and hopefully that will clear me up!

OldTomato

PHRD - B12 works wonders. Well done on getting to Day 4! I don't know about the rest of you but I always seemed to find Day 3 really difficult.

Optimist - Chicken soup can solve anything. Hope you can kick that virus soon.

360startstoday

I'm gonna be a cry baby for a minute OK.... I won't make this a habit.

So, I'm reading under the influence, its taking about how our cells actually adapt to the alcohol intake and thus we progress in alcoholism. I always share whatever I'm reading with SO. I was telling him about it last night and he says, it's a bunch of propaganda. What about what we eat, that's not good for us, what about smoking. Etc etc. Then proceeds to talk about one or two drinks in the future on an occasion where he "feels like it".

He's not drinking either, and has been devoted. But his comments really irked me. First of all he's already making excuses for a future drink. Second, he's trying to discredit proven scientific fact just because he doesn't want to hear it and third. We eat healthy so that comment is annoying.

It just really rubbed me wrong. I know this is a personal decision for each of us. I know the control freak in me is irritated by this. And feel free to tell me that.... Anyway, thoughts?!?!

CuteNGayYay

Day 12 really liked my new psychologist yesterday... Also went to a AA speaker meeting. Those are really the only ones I like. Hope everyone has a great day!

Mel12

Experiment: start me out with "one or two" drinks.

Experimental results: bad things happen--increasingly bad, the more the experiment is repeated.

Confidence interval: 100%

Though the above is not science, it is factual. I do not need to repeat the experiment any more.

360startstoday

I feel the same way!!! I don't know if it was a bad brain moment on his part or if he's considering it. But it kind if freaks me out!

GardenGal

I'm going to make soup tonight too, the easiest one I know, because my nose won't stop running! Caldo verde - Portuguese soup consisting of linguiça [not the healthiest, I know, but oh so good], potatoes, a LOT of greens, and that's about it!

I too miss Coco. She's very inspirational! I'm sure she'll be back; she's probably just busy.

edit: ok, I'm going to try B12 again. I've just got to check for any contraindications… If I recall correctly, it was niacin that I took, that made me all flushed and crazy feeling.

I bought some very dark chocolate. Don't remember which thread is talking about it, but they say it works wonders in early phases of recovery/ detox.

OldTomato

360 - Like you said, it's up to him and he'd probably resent any argument. The thought of not drinking ever again can be scary and lead to that kind of thinking. Let's hope he doesn't act on it, and don't let it affect your own recovery. Mel summed it up perfectly.

CuteNGayYay

Wow Mel that withdrawal link is a good link to go if ever tempted. Thanks for that link. Sure reminds me how it is like.

OldTomato

CuteNGay - Well done on Day 12! Almost at two weeks! I've found AA meetings without a speaker to be really awkward. Not sure if that's just because I'm a newbie.