Class of December 2014 Part 22
...holds the key
Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: Texas
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I'm so happy for you Marty!
Y'all, I drank yesterday and today. No excuses. I chose to drink and I hate myself right now. Sorry Sis B to ruin our sisterhood. It's been a nightmare and I don't recommend it. I'm still in bed shaking, can't keep anything down, it's bad really bad. The anxiety is almost unbearable and I'm popping Xanax like crazy but doesn't help. I love you guys. Stay strong and don't give in to the voice.
Y'all, I drank yesterday and today. No excuses. I chose to drink and I hate myself right now. Sorry Sis B to ruin our sisterhood. It's been a nightmare and I don't recommend it. I'm still in bed shaking, can't keep anything down, it's bad really bad. The anxiety is almost unbearable and I'm popping Xanax like crazy but doesn't help. I love you guys. Stay strong and don't give in to the voice.
Hillbilly Girl
Join Date: Dec 2013
Location: In my Garden
Posts: 3,953
And please no more Xanax Brynn, please get some medical attention if you have taken that much......You have your place here, nothing changes that. I am thinking of you & worried about you....Is someone with you?
...holds the key
Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: Texas
Posts: 7,065
Thanks for the support y'all. I'm not drinking but I wish I could.
This whole thing has been very humbling. I'm sorry for not always being as supportive as I could've been and having a superior arrogant attitude at times....please forgive me. I'm feeling a little desperate right now and overwhelmed because I don't like letting myself down and I feel like I can't trust myself anymore and I've got to get out of that detrimental mindset because I have to be able to trust myself again because I'm the only one that can keep myself sober.
Xoxo
This whole thing has been very humbling. I'm sorry for not always being as supportive as I could've been and having a superior arrogant attitude at times....please forgive me. I'm feeling a little desperate right now and overwhelmed because I don't like letting myself down and I feel like I can't trust myself anymore and I've got to get out of that detrimental mindset because I have to be able to trust myself again because I'm the only one that can keep myself sober.
Xoxo
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Join Date: Dec 2014
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Brynn, not sure I have any room to say anything as I'm not much a part of this group anymore, but I don't feel you owe any apologies. Over the last 6 months, I personally chose to drink more times than I can count and EVERY time I did you were right there compassionately cheering me on and never failed to tell me the truth. You have been our biggest cheerleader and now it's our turn to support you. To surround you with encouragement, love, and compassion while you figure out what you need to figure out. I hope you'll let us do this for you. I love you lots and don't admire you any less for your strength and big heart.
Anyways, that's my piece for what it's worth.
Anyways, that's my piece for what it's worth.
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Join Date: Dec 2014
Posts: 5,453
Hi everyone!
Marty- I am glad you are home! Enjoy it! :-)
Della- I am glad you were able to go on a trip.
B- it sounds like you have been busy!
HI Cooper & Tonks!
Mary- you have been kicking butt with your exercising!!
Brynn- I am glad your home from the rehabilitation center. I am glad you are choosing not to drink today! You have learned so much about yourself in the last six months! No one can take all those sober days from you. You are really brave!! I hope you get back to trusting yourself real soon.
Marty- I am glad you are home! Enjoy it! :-)
Della- I am glad you were able to go on a trip.
B- it sounds like you have been busy!
HI Cooper & Tonks!
Mary- you have been kicking butt with your exercising!!
Brynn- I am glad your home from the rehabilitation center. I am glad you are choosing not to drink today! You have learned so much about yourself in the last six months! No one can take all those sober days from you. You are really brave!! I hope you get back to trusting yourself real soon.
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Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: Northern Illinos
Posts: 1,757
Brynn - ditto to what Copper, Mary and the litter have said.
Trust in yourself will come again. Actually it has never left you. It's just covered up with disappointment. Remember you are awesome and strong and determined.
This is just a bump in the road.
I love you sister.
Trust in yourself will come again. Actually it has never left you. It's just covered up with disappointment. Remember you are awesome and strong and determined.
This is just a bump in the road.
I love you sister.
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Location: Australia
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Brynn, not sure I have any room to say anything as I'm not much a part of this group anymore, but I don't feel you owe any apologies.
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Hillbilly Girl
Join Date: Dec 2013
Location: In my Garden
Posts: 3,953
I went to visit little Grandsons yesterday ...called before I went over (I asked last week-end if I could have the oldest one for a few hours on Saturday, but DIL said they already had plans), any way I went for a visit yesterday, asked how their outing was & was told it is next week-end, she had the wrong date. So, I asked if he could go with me for a few hours, she said their Dad probably wouldn't want him too, so I ask him & DIL yelled "I said No", so I told little Grandson that I loved him & had to go, got up & as I was walking to the door, she is yelling at me, that I never come by & if I want to see them, I can make an appointment.....I kept my mouth shut & walked out. I'm disgusted with them both & my heart aches that they are doing this to not just me, but to the little ones. I know that I just have to walk away & give this situation over to God.....knowing I have no control over their actions, only mine, but it sure hurts.
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