MidnightBlue

Trach, I know. You are right.

But I've been wearing crap for so long by now - depression made me not to care at all. And today I've realized how exhausted I am emotionally of constant wish to be "invisible" and dreading to meet someone I know because I look like...Fashion....This word has been out of my vocabulary for quite a while. I just can't stand being dressed like a low-life any more. Though, why "like"...I think I can be officially categorized like this now.

Sorry for the rant. Girls' stuff probably. But I so do need to be not ashamed of the way i look!

trachemys

Blue, I don't need to see you to know how good you look. You're a fighter. Not just at the gym but in life. And you look like a fighter. Fighters always look good. There's no shame in looking like you fought a war. You won.

MidnightBlue

Wow, Trach. That was so freaking powerful, that shifted my point of view from feeling defeated to getting my fighter-spirit back. Thanks!!!!

Solarion

Wow -- this thread took a swerve to cooler.

I was all primed to add some surreal nonsense at the right moment, but now I think I just need to read "previously on this thread ..."

trachemys

You go girl.

Lenina

(((((Trach)))). You're a good man. Mid, can you afford some of those leggings at the Walgreens? I got two pairs for $10. Get some over sized shirts at the Sally Am and a belt. Tres hip enough for around here.

Get out and at least take a walk in the sun. 20 minutes will help! I was out all day and I feel better.

Thank you all for chipping in.

Robby. How soon before real food can be happening?

BBL

much love to the okra munchers! Leelee

alphaomega

Hello love buckets -

Checking in on day 100 !

Made it through Vegas with free booze being shoved at me at every turn. You can't even shop or get a manicure in this godforsaken city without someone offering you champagne or a shot. Anything to get your money. SMDH. So over it already.

Didn't make it hiking yesterday. I think the PAWS and exhaustion from caring for my ailing mom finally caught up to me. Plus, I'm still getting accustomed to the SSRI. Yesterday was a bad day. Cried a bit. Felt like death. Depression and anxiety were overwhelming. But today was much better. Thank goodness for good days. I hang on to them with both hands. Feet too.

Homeward bound tomorrow. Miss my kitty and puppy. Not to excited about rejoining the role of solitary caretaker. But I got you guys. So I'll be ok.

Thinking bout you MB. Trach and of course and always, our beloved Robot.

Here's to better days my loves !

XO AO

AddictGuy

Robby,

they have those tests results. they just leave them laying around because they are sadists. fortunately for you, this is not your first rodeo.

LeeLee,

those homeless numbers blow my mind. One city. yet, you are out there in the thick of it, doing what you can, and still checking out some art. Balance is everything, isn't it? Did you get the kitties? meow.

midnight,

trach's right. you want to get out there and do some walking. don't worry about the shame thing. that's all subjective. you are a bright and shining light. a fighter, and these things will not get you down. You are going to come out on the other side of this. we always do.

alpha,

thank goodness for the good days, huh? I have seen how it is with solitary care givers. My heart goes out to you.

~~~~~~~~~~

and yes, we have us, and that is a wonderful thing. I have no family so my friends are my family. my friends -- my family.

Hawkeye13

Glad you had a few days away AO--very important to support yourself when you
are caregiving in a difficult situation.

Just wanted to say hi and send positive energy to all.
You're a fine bunch. . .

silentrun

Hi all. Sorry about your health problems Robby. You pull some great insights out of the situation for us. Thank you. There are some I can use.
MesaMan I love that song! Wake me from the nothing I've become. Great recovery lyrics. How did that even happen anyway?
MightnightBlue you are a fighter! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PstrAfoMKlc I don't spend any money on clothes either.

AO You rock!!!

AddictGuy

alpha,

day 100

alphaomega

Awwww. Shucks. thanks AG. XO AO

MesaMan

Strat ~

Many thanx for that amazing Pic of the Royal Gorge Bridge which I have walked across. It sways almost as much as I used to!-) The Tourista Train at the Canyon bottom still runs, although I've not ridden it. Also, neato Trivia on 'The Birds' that I vaguely recall. So, thanks for jogging my aging Memory on that.

The House that Aussie Transplant Rod Taylor was located at in the Film burned down long ago. But, the Restaurant there still plays on the whole 'Birds' Legacy. During my High Tech Daze on a Corporate Credit Card, I stayed right on the Square that the Film starts on. Good provenance.

To Photo Document the California Coast, this Site compiled an amazing set of Images. Resolution increases over time as Technology permits. I've used this Site to plan Trailer Trips along the Coast, since you can zoom into individual Campsites around Bodega Bay, etc..

California Coastline.org


Silentun ~

Here's an even-more germane Song from Evanescence. Trigger Alert ~ There are some Bottles and Glasses in this kinda-Goth Vid, but no worse than TV or Magazine Ads, IMO. Only ~34 Million Hits on this Vid with a clear Recovery message.

'Call Me When You're Sober' ~ Evanescence


We've put both sets of Parents to rest after all 4 needed varying levels of Pro Care at different times. Hang tight, AO; hopefully after getting a breather occasionally... Way to rock Day 100!

Going for a Canyon Hike now w/Da Pooch after we hit a Himalayan/Indian Buffet Joint that I get The Jones for. Mebbe some Pix to post later...

-

Leshar

AO, so well done on 100 days!

Lenina

((((((AO))))). 100 days!! WTG!! You rock! Keep stacking those days!

I have a fairly busy day ahead. Housework chores, kitten finding, community meeting and getting organized to return to the road. It's a beautiful day here.

Love from Lenina

Hawkeye13

kitten finding?

trachemys

Kitten finding? I got recipes.

Lenina

Yes, Hubs and I are ready to get some kittens, we would like two. Hubs works outside part time so kitties would have company and I am gone weeks at time working so Hubs will have company with some kittehs. Our oldies passed over a couple of years ago and we miss them. Finally ready for some new personalities in the house.

trach, I have some recipes for tortuga salad served on the shell....just saying

Love from Lenina

trachemys

Rwerrw!

Hey, turtles make better pets.


PHHHHHTTTTTT!

walkbeformakrun

Robot! I used to shop at Salvation Army and similar stores in the early 80's. And not bc I was poor, I wasn't. I shopped there bc they had some assume stuff! I still have some if it and (much to the dismay of my wife) I still wear it sometimes.