Gonnachange

Good. I'm glad I got that across. I know I probably didn't need to write what I did, but I feel better for having done so.

Thanks SW. The service and funeral while sad were not tragic because the woman was 92 and lived a very fulfilling and healthy life right up until the last few months. I hope everyone reading that can distinguish the difference.

Writing about the second chapter of the day, my mother is buried next to my father and my paternal grandparents and while saddened I feel a sense of peace while at the cemetery. It's a mix of emotions, but I always feel better after being there.

Given the funeral and the luncheon, the anniversary of my mother's death, and St. Patrick's Day it would have been easy for my AV to justify some alcohol, but in a few minutes I'm going to bed sober. Once again I have to thank my SR friends for helping me through a rough day.

Good night.

SoberLeigh

Good to hear that your day went well enough, Gonnachange.

Haven't been feeling well (some sort of bug which feels like a hangover with added cold symptoms - making coherent thoughts rather challenging) at all so not checking in with you as often as I would like but am thinking about you.

Gonnachange

Sorry to read that you're under the weather. Get well soon. I know your weather is similar to mine and the large variability of late probably isn't helping.

Soberwolf

I really understand GC i have lost a lot of ppl if you ever want to talk im always around bud

ps keep the fab recipes coming my friend

Gonnachange

Thanks for the kind offer SW.

Tonight's dinner is going to be cauliflower pizza crust topped with ricotta cheese mixed with dried parsley and then sautéed onions and garlic.
I'll be serving a salad on the side probably with some type of balsamic vinaigrette that I'll make a decision on later. I'll cross post this in the recipe thread.

Gonnachange

After bringing my "A" game yesterday I'm a little more susceptible tonight and the thought of a martini is dancing through my head. Not going to happen, but I can't wait for these types of thoughts to not be around.

In humorous news, I've somehow gotten on the wrong mailing list because in the past couple of days I've gotten brochures for me to buy shares in a private jet, schedule a test drive in a Maserati, and come visit a Bentley dealership for a test drive. Wonder what I'll get tomorrow. LOL!

Going to the kitchen.

Soberwolf

Sounds exellent GC

melki

I've been a bit out of the loop Gonnachange, but interested to see how you're doing. Doing well, I hope. Are you still attempting to moderate? Glad you're staying on the forum!

Gonnachange

Now if I can only find that money tree in the backyard I'd be able to take the jet to one of the test drives. Or fly across the pond and have you cook me a delicious meal. :-)

Thanks for coming around and inquiring. I am doing well, but not perfect. My aim is to be sober, but for the past three/four weeks I've been having a drink about once per week. Bottom line, I'm doing much better than I was, but I still have work to do.

Soberwolf

Have you considered abstinance GC it really is the best option by light years

Gonnachange

Have re-read my response to Melki I can understand how I should have worded my response differently. Abstinence, sobriety, or whatever label is placed on not drinking is the goal; I was just pointing out that I'm falling short of that standard about once per week. The goal is zero, but lately a couple of drinks once a week are happening. I've always 'fessed up so I'm comfortable about writing about them again, but would be happier writing about zeros.

On a lighter note, I checked my backyard and still couldn't find the money tree so that private jet that I was given the opportunity to purchase and would take to have you cook me a meal doesn't seem to be in the cards. LOL!

melki

NICE!

We were just talking about the passive voice in another thread.

Overall, good for you. Take good care of yourself!

Gonnachange

Thank you. You take care also.

Soberwolf

Good luck in achieving your goal GC

Gonnachange

Thanks SW.

Soberwolf

Whats on the menu today GC ?

Gonnachange

Smoked chicken leg quarters with brown lentils on the side.

SoberLeigh

Yum.

Your wife is a lucky woman.

Gonnachange

Thanks about the dinner and I tell my wife everyday how lucky she is to have me. I don't always get what I consider an appropriate response. :-)

Seriously, we've been together over 33 years and Sunday is our 28th wedding anniversary. It's been a good ride that I hope continues for many more decades.

No More Cooking

Tonight is the last dinner I'll be making until Monday. As I wrote above, Sunday is our anniversary, but we're going to my BIL's house for his annual St. Patrick's Day party that coincides with the second largest parade in the NY metro area, after NYC of course. To celebrate our anniversary we're going out to dinner tomorrow night. I'm off the hook on Saturday because we're going to a wedding that night.

The other takeaway from all the activity is that I'm going to be surrounded by people drinking. Not necessarily irresponsibly, but there will be alcohol around.

SoberLeigh

You can get through those situations, GC. Try to imagine yourself in those situations ahead of time and without a drink in your hand.

You can always imagine us there, too - your SR buddies - our names and avatars guiding you away from the bar. You can imagine me holding my umbrella over the wine glass by your plate and having wine spill all over the table like raindrops when the waiter tries to fill your glass - that would be entertaining.

Preoare your mind and heart; you can do it, GC.