Class of August 2014 Part 2
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Originally Posted by penkins 
thanks everyone. i turned the car around and went home, took a shower and cried in my room. actually still crying but I'm sober. anyway. thnx everyone.
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Day 2 has begun. I feel ok. Lots of jobs to do but I am up early and hangover free. I am fuzzy headed though and slightly panicky. I have a long road ahead and it's usually ' the fear' that has me reaching for a drink until I drain the bottle and knock myself out. I won't drink today. Lets do this! Exercise badly needed too. I can't understand how I let all that fitness go. Guilt surfaces again and mind insults me...that bloody internal voice is such a critic.
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Join Date: Aug 2014
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Had my first AA meeting this morning. I've never felt so powerless but powerful at the same time. I was super nervous but after sitting there and seeing how much the group welcomed a newcomer and wanted to involve me in the group on the first day was fantastic. I am already feeling accomplished about my new life choice. One thing stuck with me though, one gentleman kept telling me "you dont have to stay sober for your entire life" all throughout the meeting. I just smiled and nodded my head and continued listening to who was speaking. After the meeting he came up and shook my hand and said it one more time, it was what he said after that will stick with me for life. "You only need to be sober until you go to bed tonight, because tomorrow is another day, and another day to work for sobriety." We can't speak out for the rest of our lives, but I can live with pride in knowing today I made it another day sober and will be starting Day 8 tomorrow!
The energy feeding me had me moving about the house, cooking, cleaning doing dishes, even took the dog for a 4.5 mile run in the rain. So far sobriety is good, I am getting better every day, and God is best for giving me the strength to see this through. Keeping hanging in there everyone! Salvation truly lies within, and when you find it give some to others and grant them the strength do do as you have.
The energy feeding me had me moving about the house, cooking, cleaning doing dishes, even took the dog for a 4.5 mile run in the rain. So far sobriety is good, I am getting better every day, and God is best for giving me the strength to see this through. Keeping hanging in there everyone! Salvation truly lies within, and when you find it give some to others and grant them the strength do do as you have.
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Join Date: Aug 2014
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Hey Guys,
Great to read your posts and share your ups and downs, you are an inspiring bunch.
I went to the pschologist today which was ok, nice to talk to someone who just accepts it when you say you have a serious problem with alcohol. I find it frustrating how many people (including my alcohol counselor!) who tell me to drink in moderation. I mean I've been trying that for 20 years people, a little support for my abstinence please.
Just my 5 cents for today (generally I am a little less cranky recently!)
Great to read your posts and share your ups and downs, you are an inspiring bunch.
I went to the pschologist today which was ok, nice to talk to someone who just accepts it when you say you have a serious problem with alcohol. I find it frustrating how many people (including my alcohol counselor!) who tell me to drink in moderation. I mean I've been trying that for 20 years people, a little support for my abstinence please.
Just my 5 cents for today (generally I am a little less cranky recently!)
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Join Date: Aug 2014
Location: Sotogrande, Spain
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Morning all (or happy whatever time of day it is where you are)!
Morning number 5 hangover free and it is a great feeling. I had another fractured night's sleep though. I guess this is going to be the way it goes for a while.
Yesterday was a rough day. I was at work and for most of the afternoon our website was down AMD our internal system was also FUBARed so I had to deal with a lot of angry customers, customers trying to pull a fast ones, complaining customers (I work in VIP Customer Service for an online casino company so... yes...). Then other members of staff were getting stressed and yelling... Ugh. It was the kind of day I would have usually gone home and had a few drinks to unwind. It seems so silly... I really did need no excuse to crack open that bottle of whatever it was....
Some weird things I've noticed in the last few days though... (Aside from panic attacks and general anxiety)...
I am drinking an insane amount of tea. Peppermint, green, fruit, English breakfast... You name it. Yesterday I drank 12 cups of herbal tea. This is on top of the water (3-5 l) I ddrink. I pee a lot. ;-)
My short term memory is even worse than usual. I went to the supermarket after work and completely forgot why I was there. I mean, totally blank. I just bought some more tea and some lemonade AMD came home.
I know there are more, but hey... I have forgotten!
Well.. Another day at work today. I need to try and find an Xbox cable from somewhere. The PS2 has died, the GameCube is lacking a controller and a memory card and the Xbox cable broke. Thankfully the Dreamcast is still working, or we would be having to watch more re-runs on Neox... Finishing work at 10pm isn't conducive to making me want to do a lot when I get home!
Have a great day everyone. It's MONDAY! :-) a new week!
Morning number 5 hangover free and it is a great feeling. I had another fractured night's sleep though. I guess this is going to be the way it goes for a while.
Yesterday was a rough day. I was at work and for most of the afternoon our website was down AMD our internal system was also FUBARed so I had to deal with a lot of angry customers, customers trying to pull a fast ones, complaining customers (I work in VIP Customer Service for an online casino company so... yes...). Then other members of staff were getting stressed and yelling... Ugh. It was the kind of day I would have usually gone home and had a few drinks to unwind. It seems so silly... I really did need no excuse to crack open that bottle of whatever it was....
Some weird things I've noticed in the last few days though... (Aside from panic attacks and general anxiety)...
I am drinking an insane amount of tea. Peppermint, green, fruit, English breakfast... You name it. Yesterday I drank 12 cups of herbal tea. This is on top of the water (3-5 l) I ddrink. I pee a lot. ;-)
My short term memory is even worse than usual. I went to the supermarket after work and completely forgot why I was there. I mean, totally blank. I just bought some more tea and some lemonade AMD came home.
I know there are more, but hey... I have forgotten!
Well.. Another day at work today. I need to try and find an Xbox cable from somewhere. The PS2 has died, the GameCube is lacking a controller and a memory card and the Xbox cable broke. Thankfully the Dreamcast is still working, or we would be having to watch more re-runs on Neox... Finishing work at 10pm isn't conducive to making me want to do a lot when I get home!
Have a great day everyone. It's MONDAY! :-) a new week!
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Hello team. Good to be here this morning still sober, but not feeling well, and sleep was disturbed.
Penkins, glad you didn't pick up. I'm so proud of you.
Raggle, things will improve.
Zozo, glad work didn't set you back. Great job.
Restless, I find that disturbing about the counselor. I support your commitment to 100% abstinence. I know I can't moderate either.
Sthlondon, have a great day at work.
Travis, so glad you loved the meeting. Keep at it.
To the rest of our team, have a great and sober day. I care about my whole class, and only want the best for all of us. Keep strong all.
Penkins, glad you didn't pick up. I'm so proud of you.
Raggle, things will improve.
Zozo, glad work didn't set you back. Great job.
Restless, I find that disturbing about the counselor. I support your commitment to 100% abstinence. I know I can't moderate either.
Sthlondon, have a great day at work.
Travis, so glad you loved the meeting. Keep at it.
To the rest of our team, have a great and sober day. I care about my whole class, and only want the best for all of us. Keep strong all.
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6th day sober and without cigarettes. My sleep was pretty disjointed last night too zozo. I must have woken up at least a half dozen times, I'm fighting with myself to go back to sleep or just get up so I have a shot at being tired enough tonight for a full nights sleep. Feels pretty great to once again not have a hangover. My lungs feel like they are clearing out too. Hi im bbf, nonsmoker, non drinker. Coffee wins time to get my lazy bones out of bed! Have a great day all!
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Join Date: Aug 2014
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Good morning all! Penkins, your posts broke my heart. I hope you have a peaceful week. We're here for you. Zozo, sorry to hear about your rough day! Those are the types of days I have always gone straight to the wine when I get home, as well.
Shot a bottle of wine with a bb gun yesterday... today is day 14, and it's been a struggle with AV, but that goblin is going to lose. Have DS's 7th birthday party on Saturday... we've only received 9 RSVPs, but who wants to bet more show up? Anyway, should be fun.
Shot a bottle of wine with a bb gun yesterday... today is day 14, and it's been a struggle with AV, but that goblin is going to lose. Have DS's 7th birthday party on Saturday... we've only received 9 RSVPs, but who wants to bet more show up? Anyway, should be fun.
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Checking in on beginning of day 8. I love sober sleep...as someone else on SR once said...sober sleep is delicious. I wake up so rested and happy it is hard to believe I'm the same person who was always depressed and tired just a couple weeks ago! I'm still having vivid dreams so I know I'm getting quality REM.
BBF and Dingodog the sleeping will get better...hang in there!
Some benefits of being sober a week:
Clearer, softer, brighter skin
Clear, bright eyes
Less bloated face
Slightly less bloated body
Improved concentration
Increased productivity
Happier
Higher self esteem
Hope
More time for fun!
No regrets, guilt, shame about the night before
Better relationship with my kids and BF
Enjoying good food
Appreciating little things....
Lets do this TeamAugust!
BBF and Dingodog the sleeping will get better...hang in there!
Some benefits of being sober a week:
Clearer, softer, brighter skin
Clear, bright eyes
Less bloated face
Slightly less bloated body
Improved concentration
Increased productivity
Happier
Higher self esteem
Hope
More time for fun!
No regrets, guilt, shame about the night before
Better relationship with my kids and BF
Enjoying good food
Appreciating little things....
Lets do this TeamAugust!
Last edited by Grateful11; 08-18-2014 at 07:20 AM. Reason: Dang autocorrect
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Originally Posted by Grateful11
Checking in on beginning of day 8. I love sober sleep...as someone else on SR once said...sober sleep is delicious. I wake up so rested and happy it is hard to believe I'm the same person who was always depressed and tired just a couple weeks ago! I'm still having vivid dreams so I know I'm getting quality REM.
BBF and Dingodog the sleeping will get better...hang in there!
Some benefits of being sober a week:
Clearer, softer, brighter skin
Clear, bright eyes
Less bloated face
Slightly less bloated body
Improved concentration
Increased productivity
Happier
Higher self esteem
Hope
More time for fun!
No regrets, guilt, shame about the night before
Better relationship with my kids and BF
Enjoying good food
Appreciating little things....
Lets do this TeamAugust!
BBF and Dingodog the sleeping will get better...hang in there!
Some benefits of being sober a week:
Clearer, softer, brighter skin
Clear, bright eyes
Less bloated face
Slightly less bloated body
Improved concentration
Increased productivity
Happier
Higher self esteem
Hope
More time for fun!
No regrets, guilt, shame about the night before
Better relationship with my kids and BF
Enjoying good food
Appreciating little things....
Lets do this TeamAugust!
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Been absent to SR for the past 6 months. Made it January without drinking, then back to the old routine and Day 1 for me unfortunately. Back to the point of feeling frustrated, tired, and honestly a little hopeless.
Read a good book a while back called "Six Pillars of Self-Esteem." One part is the practice of living consciously - most human beings are sleep-walking through there own existance. I don't know if that is true, but that is the case as of today as it relates to alcohol. I don't want to be a spectator to my own life!!
Wish everyone the best, and hoping many of your successes will rub off a little on me (again).
Read a good book a while back called "Six Pillars of Self-Esteem." One part is the practice of living consciously - most human beings are sleep-walking through there own existance. I don't know if that is true, but that is the case as of today as it relates to alcohol. I don't want to be a spectator to my own life!!
Wish everyone the best, and hoping many of your successes will rub off a little on me (again).
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Day 2 is drawing to a close. I did not leave the house. I did not even get dressed. Instead I read for my assignment with many breaks to pop in here. At dusk I began to think about ..and stopped myself. So nice to read the comments above me. I look forward to day 3 and experiencing some signs of that in my mind and body. Stay strong everyone. For one more day.
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Morning everyone. Hope everybody is having a good Monday morning or afternoon depending on where you are. 
. Day two for me and man I feel so much better today. I forgot how much hangovers suck. Great list Grateful!!! Thanks
. Day two for me and man I feel so much better today. I forgot how much hangovers suck. Great list Grateful!!! Thanks
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Congrats on one week CaliChris! Fantastic! 
Congrats on 13 days Penkins...hope today is better. Look for my PM.
Grateful to be sober today.
I hope I am not annoying anyone with my positivity...I think I'm experiencing the "pink cloud" of sobriety. I just can not believe how different I feel from last month. I want to hold on to this feeling. Believe me, there are still some negative things I am dealing with but I feel like I'm in a better place mentally, emotionally and physically to deal with them.
Glad the list is helping...I spent a lot of time last night researching early recovery and it gave me hope to read that sometimes we feel worse before we feel better...then when we feel better it will be 100x better! Our bodies and minds are healing. It is actually amazing how quickly the body starts readjusting to not having alcohol and being dehydrated and malnourished for so long. It makes sense that much of it is the adjustment to finally being hydrated.
When I came back from vacation my flowers were not looking so great even though my neighbor watered them a couple times while I was gone. I was watering them this morning and noticed the healthy dark green leaves coming in and the old yellowish sickly leaves from when I was away. That is how I feel my body is right now...just starting to get healthy (not green) but still has some of the unhealthiness from the drinking.
Hang on for the ride...it is worth it! If you fell, get back up. You never know when it is your turning point.
Congrats on 13 days Penkins...hope today is better. Look for my PM.
Grateful to be sober today.
I hope I am not annoying anyone with my positivity...I think I'm experiencing the "pink cloud" of sobriety. I just can not believe how different I feel from last month. I want to hold on to this feeling. Believe me, there are still some negative things I am dealing with but I feel like I'm in a better place mentally, emotionally and physically to deal with them.
Glad the list is helping...I spent a lot of time last night researching early recovery and it gave me hope to read that sometimes we feel worse before we feel better...then when we feel better it will be 100x better! Our bodies and minds are healing. It is actually amazing how quickly the body starts readjusting to not having alcohol and being dehydrated and malnourished for so long. It makes sense that much of it is the adjustment to finally being hydrated.
When I came back from vacation my flowers were not looking so great even though my neighbor watered them a couple times while I was gone. I was watering them this morning and noticed the healthy dark green leaves coming in and the old yellowish sickly leaves from when I was away. That is how I feel my body is right now...just starting to get healthy (not green) but still has some of the unhealthiness from the drinking.
Hang on for the ride...it is worth it! If you fell, get back up. You never know when it is your turning point.
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Hi everyone,
Im back here on SR and this time intend to stay sober. Part of myself tells me I am fine and don't have a problem; that part is my inner alcoholic, and I see that clearly. I have managed a few months sober here and there in the past, but this time I intend to actually do it. Interesting to see a lot of people also drop the cigarettes when they stop the drinking. Im going to stop the smoking also.
I feel incredibly positive just being back here and posting again. Good night all and thank you..
Im back here on SR and this time intend to stay sober. Part of myself tells me I am fine and don't have a problem; that part is my inner alcoholic, and I see that clearly. I have managed a few months sober here and there in the past, but this time I intend to actually do it. Interesting to see a lot of people also drop the cigarettes when they stop the drinking. Im going to stop the smoking also.
I feel incredibly positive just being back here and posting again. Good night all and thank you..
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