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Hi Complexiti,
Hope you are feeling okay, just keep posting as a release it will help.
All the best
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Doing OK for another day. Been to the store and bought more salad stuff and fruit and when I got to the till he said "no vodka today" and when I said not today thanks he said "but vodka is good for you". Funnily enough I had to stop by the shelves of bottles to get something from the bottom shelf and I did not even think of looking up at them. It was almost as if they were not there.
No it is not good for me and I do not want any. I just have to keep telling myself that, one day at a time. I had a major upset yesterday evening and I honestly think I might have gone and bought a bottle, but then told myself that I did not want a drink and I did not need a drink, so did not give in.
Small grilled chicken fillet with loads of salad again today!
No it is not good for me and I do not want any. I just have to keep telling myself that, one day at a time. I had a major upset yesterday evening and I honestly think I might have gone and bought a bottle, but then told myself that I did not want a drink and I did not need a drink, so did not give in.
Small grilled chicken fillet with loads of salad again today!
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I'm not scared at the moment as I am feeling quite good. Started off this thread in the throes of withdrawal and by listening to me people here helped me get through it and not buy any more - until I gave in last Friday but at least I had gone a week and did not do my usual during a binge which was buy more every other day so I was going through half a litre of vodka a day.
Been OK since then and if I can keep away from buying any more tomorrow it will be a week since I last bought a bottle.
If I can do it you can, and if you can do it I can. Like everyone here.
What scares me now is the thought that it is so easy to give in and buy a bottle but I really do not want to so am just doing it day by day. Like if I can go without alcohol today then that is good. Tomorrow I will say the same.
And try my best not to give in again.
Been OK since then and if I can keep away from buying any more tomorrow it will be a week since I last bought a bottle.
If I can do it you can, and if you can do it I can. Like everyone here.
What scares me now is the thought that it is so easy to give in and buy a bottle but I really do not want to so am just doing it day by day. Like if I can go without alcohol today then that is good. Tomorrow I will say the same.
And try my best not to give in again.
Doing OK for another day. Been to the store and bought more salad stuff and fruit and when I got to the till he said "no vodka today" and when I said not today thanks he said "but vodka is good for you". Funnily enough I had to stop by the shelves of bottles to get something from the bottom shelf and I did not even think of looking up at them. It was almost as if they were not there.
No it is not good for me and I do not want any. I just have to keep telling myself that, one day at a time. I had a major upset yesterday evening and I honestly think I might have gone and bought a bottle, but then told myself that I did not want a drink and I did not need a drink, so did not give in.
Small grilled chicken fillet with loads of salad again today!
No it is not good for me and I do not want any. I just have to keep telling myself that, one day at a time. I had a major upset yesterday evening and I honestly think I might have gone and bought a bottle, but then told myself that I did not want a drink and I did not need a drink, so did not give in.
Small grilled chicken fillet with loads of salad again today!
Glad you are sounding better, the strength to say no again today is fabulous, and eating well like you are doing Is a great bridge to fueling your body when the cravings show there ugly self.
Way to go buddy, doing great.
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The stupid thing is that I didn't enjoy either the taste or the feelings when I gave in last Friday, it was like I was forcing myself to drink it even though the taste was so bad, and at the moment the thought of that horrible taste is helping my vigilance.
So I don't know whether to go to the store and test myself or not as I can probably do without what I would go for. It was comparatively easy during the last week but that was what I thought last Friday and I gave in.
At least stuffing myself full of salad will help my waistline which the alcohol didn't!
Thank you Stoogy I must say that I am feeling much better in myself and also in my determination not to give in. Not exactly craving but Fridays tend to be my "gotta go buy a bottle" day so having to be extra vigilant.
The stupid thing is that I didn't enjoy either the taste or the feelings when I gave in last Friday, it was like I was forcing myself to drink it even though the taste was so bad, and at the moment the thought of that horrible taste is helping my vigilance.
So I don't know whether to go to the store and test myself or not as I can probably do without what I would go for. It was comparatively easy during the last week but that was what I thought last Friday and I gave in.
At least stuffing myself full of salad will help my waistline which the alcohol didn't!
The stupid thing is that I didn't enjoy either the taste or the feelings when I gave in last Friday, it was like I was forcing myself to drink it even though the taste was so bad, and at the moment the thought of that horrible taste is helping my vigilance.
So I don't know whether to go to the store and test myself or not as I can probably do without what I would go for. It was comparatively easy during the last week but that was what I thought last Friday and I gave in.
At least stuffing myself full of salad will help my waistline which the alcohol didn't!
So happy you are feeling better, it's Friday but hey it's just another day to chalk off on the calender.
You are doing so well, good on you! Maybe the thirst is just your body wanting some water for rehydration, I have found that too. Normally I was too numb to hear my body telling me what it needed. Keep on keeping on x
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I hope it's OK for me to keep posting here but it's helping me to concentrate on being sober myself. Might sound rather selfish not supporting anyone else but I'm finding it easier this way.
I mean I have got to beat this thing and I know that I am far from alone in doing it, but I really do need to concentrate on myself for the moment, as I still have that fear that I will give in.
The thought is always trying to get into my mind that hey, I'm feeling great now, I've got over withdrawal so can buy another bottle. But I must NOT let that thought into my mind and I MUST keep on fighting it. Just sitting here saying how I feel is helping me to fight and keep that thought away.
I'm wondering whether this thirst is my body's way of flushing the toxins from my body?
I mean I have got to beat this thing and I know that I am far from alone in doing it, but I really do need to concentrate on myself for the moment, as I still have that fear that I will give in.
The thought is always trying to get into my mind that hey, I'm feeling great now, I've got over withdrawal so can buy another bottle. But I must NOT let that thought into my mind and I MUST keep on fighting it. Just sitting here saying how I feel is helping me to fight and keep that thought away.
I'm wondering whether this thirst is my body's way of flushing the toxins from my body?
I've been told by others...Keep On Posting!!! It's like "Journaling, with Benefits"...
I know I need to be doing the SAME, yet feel kind of Ashamed at the Moment, as I cannot seem to stop drinking.
Regardless of MY situation, We are ALL here for the same reason-Once We can get well enough, we WILL help others - but in the meantime, it's gotta be All About You, Complexiti-No shame in it, man - Thanks for YOUR Help - You have made Me Realize- I Need to help Myself MORE and get More Involved in My posting Activity...
Best Wishes to You !!!
I know I need to be doing the SAME, yet feel kind of Ashamed at the Moment, as I cannot seem to stop drinking.
Regardless of MY situation, We are ALL here for the same reason-Once We can get well enough, we WILL help others - but in the meantime, it's gotta be All About You, Complexiti-No shame in it, man - Thanks for YOUR Help - You have made Me Realize- I Need to help Myself MORE and get More Involved in My posting Activity...
Best Wishes to You !!!
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I know that just as I am convinced, as of this minute, that I will not give in today, I also know that I cannot guarantee that I will be able to stick to that conviction. All I can do it try not to give in. Today. And I know that I MUST keep telling myself that.
Tomorrow? I don't know. I will try to do the same. I have nothing to lose by trying but everything to lose if I don't try.
diff, I know that if I give in, as I did Friday a week ago, I too, will feel ashamed, just as I did when I came back to SR after being away for so long, and just as I did when I posted that I had given in on that Friday.
But I came back to SR albeit after having tried many other forums, and I am glad, very glad that I did, because by posting like this it is helping me stick to my aim - which is to be sober and stay sober.
All best wishes to you too, let us both keep posting!
Tomorrow? I don't know. I will try to do the same. I have nothing to lose by trying but everything to lose if I don't try.
diff, I know that if I give in, as I did Friday a week ago, I too, will feel ashamed, just as I did when I came back to SR after being away for so long, and just as I did when I posted that I had given in on that Friday.
But I came back to SR albeit after having tried many other forums, and I am glad, very glad that I did, because by posting like this it is helping me stick to my aim - which is to be sober and stay sober.
All best wishes to you too, let us both keep posting!
I hope it's OK for me to keep posting here but it's helping me to concentrate on being sober myself. Might sound rather selfish not supporting anyone else but I'm finding it easier this way.
I mean I have got to beat this thing and I know that I am far from alone in doing it, but I really do need to concentrate on myself for the moment, as I still have that fear that I will give in.
The thought is always trying to get into my mind that hey, I'm feeling great now, I've got over withdrawal so can buy another bottle. But I must NOT let that thought into my mind and I MUST keep on fighting it. Just sitting here saying how I feel is helping me to fight and keep that thought away.
I'm wondering whether this thirst is my body's way of flushing the toxins from my body?
I mean I have got to beat this thing and I know that I am far from alone in doing it, but I really do need to concentrate on myself for the moment, as I still have that fear that I will give in.
The thought is always trying to get into my mind that hey, I'm feeling great now, I've got over withdrawal so can buy another bottle. But I must NOT let that thought into my mind and I MUST keep on fighting it. Just sitting here saying how I feel is helping me to fight and keep that thought away.
I'm wondering whether this thirst is my body's way of flushing the toxins from my body?
Complexity - I Like Your Thread and Like being Here...I am feeling better about things this Eve/Nite...Earlier, I was feeling quite distraught and Hopeless about My situation. I had a bit of food and a few naps since and felt that the naps helped, as I had a couple of hours here and there, where I wasn't drinking, at least. I had just about 90 days sober and it all went to sh*t about five weeks ago. I have managed to get a week, 5 days, 3 days, then 2, but am still going at moment.
So, Here I am Posting...and reading and Hoping I can catch a Break, soon...
So good to see You hanging in there...You give Me Hope-I know if I can at least get a couple of days in, I will have a much better chance this time. I really want More out of Life than this Cycle of Pain I have been Living...
So, Here I am Posting...and reading and Hoping I can catch a Break, soon...
So good to see You hanging in there...You give Me Hope-I know if I can at least get a couple of days in, I will have a much better chance this time. I really want More out of Life than this Cycle of Pain I have been Living...
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Still here, still managing, but still keep getting the "needa drink" thought creeping into my head.
I am not actually craving a drink just that I think I do, if that makes sense. But I don't want to give in as everything smells and tastes so fresh, and this time I want to keep it this way.
It's not exactly a constant battle as I don't think about it all the time, just sometimes find myself reaching out for a glass that of course isn't there.
So many times in the past I've said this time I am going to do it, this time I really am going to stop drinking for ever, but then I slip, so I'm not thinking of stopping drinking for more than just today. And if I can manage it today, tomorrow I will do the same.
I am not actually craving a drink just that I think I do, if that makes sense. But I don't want to give in as everything smells and tastes so fresh, and this time I want to keep it this way.
It's not exactly a constant battle as I don't think about it all the time, just sometimes find myself reaching out for a glass that of course isn't there.
So many times in the past I've said this time I am going to do it, this time I really am going to stop drinking for ever, but then I slip, so I'm not thinking of stopping drinking for more than just today. And if I can manage it today, tomorrow I will do the same.
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