Class of March 2020 Part 3
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Morning all
Haven't posted for a while so thought I would check in, hey to Bilr, Willow, Tink, FF, VC and Dee, not sure who else is around. Hope you guys are doing well today. Just over 6 weeks for me, have had a few struggles just in the occasional day mourning the loss of drink in certain situations, eg. A beautiful sunny day sitting in the garden. Stupid right? I don't think I realised how many parts of my life were defined by how much I could get away with drinking.
Hey ho, I am still here, hopng it will get easier, but still very glad to be sober ❤️
Love to all x
Haven't posted for a while so thought I would check in, hey to Bilr, Willow, Tink, FF, VC and Dee, not sure who else is around. Hope you guys are doing well today. Just over 6 weeks for me, have had a few struggles just in the occasional day mourning the loss of drink in certain situations, eg. A beautiful sunny day sitting in the garden. Stupid right? I don't think I realised how many parts of my life were defined by how much I could get away with drinking.
Hey ho, I am still here, hopng it will get easier, but still very glad to be sober ❤️
Love to all x
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Hi Billymac 
Yeah I know what you mean, I sometimes have those nostalgic feelings about drinking, but when you take the rose tinted glasses off, the underlying reality is that alcohol was controlling our lives, and any romantic notions otherwise were illusions. Well for me anyway. But I still sometimes wistfully wish I was a “normal” drinker. But the reality is that I generally drank too much. So I’m better off having none. Hard as it is to not drink at all, it’s even harder to control if I drink any.
Yeah I know what you mean, I sometimes have those nostalgic feelings about drinking, but when you take the rose tinted glasses off, the underlying reality is that alcohol was controlling our lives, and any romantic notions otherwise were illusions. Well for me anyway. But I still sometimes wistfully wish I was a “normal” drinker. But the reality is that I generally drank too much. So I’m better off having none. Hard as it is to not drink at all, it’s even harder to control if I drink any.
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Originally Posted by Willow68 
Good morning everyone
Be, I don’t think it’s selfish to enjoy lockdown. I’m enjoying it too. I prefer staying home. And like Tink, I’m enjoying a simpler life
I’m on day 46 today. Made it through 2 days of a screaming AV, hopefully today’s a better day.
Bil I’ll bet your kids will be very proud of you
Freedom, how’re you going? What did you do with the vodka?
Be, I don’t think it’s selfish to enjoy lockdown. I’m enjoying it too. I prefer staying home. And like Tink, I’m enjoying a simpler life
I’m on day 46 today. Made it through 2 days of a screaming AV, hopefully today’s a better day.
Bil I’ll bet your kids will be very proud of you
Freedom, how’re you going? What did you do with the vodka?
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Originally Posted by Be123
Morning willow, glad you got through last couple of days. Keep your guard up, but also enjoy the times the AV is absent (I find that really helpful, to acknowledge that most of the time the AV isn't noisy. It makes the times that it is seem more short term).
I hope you're ok Freedom. I'm concerned you drank those vodkas (what is a 'noggin' btw?)
Im going to carry on shifting sand today, then having a 'beach' day with kids in back garden (due to the abundance of sand, obviously!). Have a good one everyone
7 weeks today for me
I hope you're ok Freedom. I'm concerned you drank those vodkas (what is a 'noggin' btw?)
Im going to carry on shifting sand today, then having a 'beach' day with kids in back garden (due to the abundance of sand, obviously!). Have a good one everyone
7 weeks today for me
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Originally Posted by Billymacintosh
Morning all
Haven't posted for a while so thought I would check in, hey to Bilr, Willow, Tink, FF, VC and Dee, not sure who else is around. Hope you guys are doing well today. Just over 6 weeks for me, have had a few struggles just in the occasional day mourning the loss of drink in certain situations, eg. A beautiful sunny day sitting in the garden. Stupid right? I don't think I realised how many parts of my life were defined by how much I could get away with drinking.
Hey ho, I am still here, hopng it will get easier, but still very glad to be sober ❤️
Love to all x
Haven't posted for a while so thought I would check in, hey to Bilr, Willow, Tink, FF, VC and Dee, not sure who else is around. Hope you guys are doing well today. Just over 6 weeks for me, have had a few struggles just in the occasional day mourning the loss of drink in certain situations, eg. A beautiful sunny day sitting in the garden. Stupid right? I don't think I realised how many parts of my life were defined by how much I could get away with drinking.
Hey ho, I am still here, hopng it will get easier, but still very glad to be sober ❤️
Love to all x
I know what you mean i still get the 'glass of wine right now would be lovely' thought. Only the reality would be so different as i can't drink 'normally'. But im realising the things i thought were nice because i had alcohol, were actually just nice in themselves eg sitting in garden. The alcohol in fact just ended up spoiling things.
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Originally Posted by Tinkerbeau
Hi Billymac well done on 6 weeks.
I know what you mean i still get the 'glass of wine right now would be lovely' thought. Only the reality would be so different as i can't drink 'normally'. But im realising the things i thought were nice because i had alcohol, were actually just nice in themselves eg sitting in garden. The alcohol in fact just ended up spoiling things.
I know what you mean i still get the 'glass of wine right now would be lovely' thought. Only the reality would be so different as i can't drink 'normally'. But im realising the things i thought were nice because i had alcohol, were actually just nice in themselves eg sitting in garden. The alcohol in fact just ended up spoiling things.
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Originally Posted by Tinkerbeau
Hi Billymac well done on 6 weeks.
I know what you mean i still get the 'glass of wine right now would be lovely' thought. Only the reality would be so different as i can't drink 'normally'. But im realising the things i thought were nice because i had alcohol, were actually just nice in themselves eg sitting in garden. The alcohol in fact just ended up spoiling things.
I know what you mean i still get the 'glass of wine right now would be lovely' thought. Only the reality would be so different as i can't drink 'normally'. But im realising the things i thought were nice because i had alcohol, were actually just nice in themselves eg sitting in garden. The alcohol in fact just ended up spoiling things.
Thanks guys 🤗😊
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Originally Posted by Be123
Morning willow, glad you got through last couple of days. Keep your guard up, but also enjoy the times the AV is absent (I find that really helpful, to acknowledge that most of the time the AV isn't noisy. It makes the times that it is seem more short term).
I hope you're ok Freedom. I'm concerned you drank those vodkas (what is a 'noggin' btw?)
Im going to carry on shifting sand today, then having a 'beach' day with kids in back garden (due to the abundance of sand, obviously!). Have a good one everyone
7 weeks today for me
I hope you're ok Freedom. I'm concerned you drank those vodkas (what is a 'noggin' btw?)
Im going to carry on shifting sand today, then having a 'beach' day with kids in back garden (due to the abundance of sand, obviously!). Have a good one everyone
7 weeks today for me
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Welcome back Billy and congrats to you! Actually congrats to everyone for remaining as strong as possible.
Freedom, I hope your poured the vodka down the drain. If not, you should still come back here for day one.
Well, off to my WebEx nightmare of work, lol.
Freedom, I hope your poured the vodka down the drain. If not, you should still come back here for day one.
Well, off to my WebEx nightmare of work, lol.
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Thanks guys!
Ive been rewarded with feeling really low today, and incredibly anxious. Trying not to think thoughts of impending and certain doom - loneliness, sadness, family breakdown, destitution etc etc etc
Hahaha when I write it down it sounds so cheery - it will pass I know
Ive been rewarded with feeling really low today, and incredibly anxious. Trying not to think thoughts of impending and certain doom - loneliness, sadness, family breakdown, destitution etc etc etc
Hahaha when I write it down it sounds so cheery - it will pass I know
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God this is unbearable. We did stuff with the kids today on a beach theme, based on a place we always went on holiday. I also went as a kid. Knowing this won't happen again as a family is breaking me.
im sorry for going on but I've got nobody to talk to and am in floods of tears and don't really know the point of this anymore. I really don't want anyone to tell me about the future or it being better because I'm hurting and broken and just want out
im sorry for going on but I've got nobody to talk to and am in floods of tears and don't really know the point of this anymore. I really don't want anyone to tell me about the future or it being better because I'm hurting and broken and just want out
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Oh love. I am cyber hugging you as hard as I can. 
s xx
The point of going on is for you and your kids and your future. No matter what, you are their dad and they need you. They need you to help them get thru this pandemic, and they will never forget you being so present in all of this. s
I know your heart is broken. I can hear how much pain you are in.
But what do you want out of? You want out of the pain. Of course you do.
Unfortunately drinking wouldn't do that for you.
What it would do is get you thrown out of your house in the middle of this virus. And it would horrify your kids.
Pain doesn't last, but good decisions have consequences that last forever.
Every time we make the right choice, no matter how hard it is, we feel a bit stronger, a bit prouder and a bit more able to believe that we can handle anything....as long as we do it sober. s xx ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
s xxThe point of going on is for you and your kids and your future. No matter what, you are their dad and they need you. They need you to help them get thru this pandemic, and they will never forget you being so present in all of this.
sI know your heart is broken. I can hear how much pain you are in.
But what do you want out of? You want out of the pain. Of course you do.
Unfortunately drinking wouldn't do that for you.
What it would do is get you thrown out of your house in the middle of this virus. And it would horrify your kids.
Pain doesn't last, but good decisions have consequences that last forever.
Every time we make the right choice, no matter how hard it is, we feel a bit stronger, a bit prouder and a bit more able to believe that we can handle anything....as long as we do it sober.
s xx ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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Originally Posted by Be123
God this is unbearable. We did stuff with the kids today on a beach theme, based on a place we always went on holiday. I also went as a kid. Knowing this won't happen again as a family is breaking me.
im sorry for going on but I've got nobody to talk to and am in floods of tears and don't really know the point of this anymore. I really don't want anyone to tell me about the future or it being better because I'm hurting and broken and just want out
im sorry for going on but I've got nobody to talk to and am in floods of tears and don't really know the point of this anymore. I really don't want anyone to tell me about the future or it being better because I'm hurting and broken and just want out
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As awful as it is for you to have gone through that separation Bil, I feel like it is some kind of miracle that you and Be landed in the same class thread here....it's as if you came to help. s
I hope you let Bil help you dear Be....he has been through all of this. s xxxx
(And he is very wise ❤️).
sI hope you let Bil help you dear Be....he has been through all of this.
s xxxx(And he is very wise ❤️).
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Originally Posted by venuscat
As awful as it is for you to have gone through that separation Bil, I feel like it is some kind of miracle that you and Be landed in the same class thread here....it's as if you came to help. s
I hope you let Bil help you dear Be....he has been through all of this. s xxxx
(And he is very wise ❤️).
sI hope you let Bil help you dear Be....he has been through all of this.
s xxxx(And he is very wise ❤️).
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