Originally Posted by
Be123 
God this is unbearable. We did stuff with the kids today on a beach theme, based on a place we always went on holiday. I also went as a kid. Knowing this won't happen again as a family is breaking me.
im sorry for going on but I've got nobody to talk to and am in floods of tears and don't really know the point of this anymore. I really don't want anyone to tell me about the future or it being better because I'm hurting and broken and just want out
BE, regardless of what happens between you and your wife, your kids still need you there as a strong father. I’m sure they would rather you be sober going forward and not half there which drinking would make it. I remember being pretty heartbroken as well when my wife wanted to separate. I was also sober when this happened but it broke me. If it happened again I would rather to have remained sober but we can’t change our past. I know things really suck now, trust me. But you WILL get through this.