Originally Posted by joandmelandhan

I have to admit I've been sitting with an awful insidious AV nattering at me for a couple of days now. Not constant but enough to concern me. I've done a fair bit of thinking and internal wrestling this evening and I just can't do it (drink I mean). I actually do want to be sober more than I want to drink! Wow who knew? I'm home alone no kids no partner and the voice is there for sure but I just can't start again. I'm forcing my mind back through my last withdrawal and to what tomorrow might be like if I drink tonight. Yes okay I'm a crazy person (lol) with a long way to go but God if I gave in tonight then what? Honestly I have no idea how it would pan out and I'm still genuinely scared to go back out there. Good. Frankly I dont really care what has actually stopped me but something has and I'm very relieved. Maybe I do have a fighting chance of making this stick after all.....

Originally Posted by aussieblue

I wish I could heal you both.
More love.

Originally Posted by tomls

Running a little late but 24 more clean and sober hours please. Kris

Originally Posted by Hevyn

Kris - We love you so much, and appreciate that you're here, even while you go through such challenging times. Prayers for you to be comforted are going up and will continue.

Please give me another 24.

Originally Posted by Sunflowerlife

Pain is relative. We all have problems and it doesn't matter whose is worse if they can even be compared. You are not a complainer. I hope I didn't make you feel that way for some reason.

I am sure sobriety makes life's challenges a bit more manageable and for that I am also grateful. Hang in there and please don't stop sharing. You have a lot of people here who care about you and your family.

Originally Posted by Sunflowerlife

Pain is relative. We all have problems and it doesn't matter whose is worse if they can even be compared. You are not a complainer. I hope I didn't make you feel that way for some reason.

I am sure sobriety makes life's challenges a bit more manageable and for that I am also grateful. Hang in there and please don't stop sharing. You have a lot of people here who care about you and your family.

Originally Posted by Kaneda8888

Checking in for 24. Signed up for some PT next week as I am wondering whether to change my exercise routine. I feel like I've been in a rut for the past few months. Need some new challenges. Tough mudder anyone ?

Kris, I am sorry to hear of the ongoing health issues with you and Mr K. I would gladly take all your suffering in return for the kindness and compassion you have shown to us. I hope you can get the medical assistance and see an end to suffering.

Congrats to all the milestoners ! Well done and lets keep moving forward

Another 24 hours of tonglen, serenity and sobriety pls ! Its 9:26am here !

Originally Posted by SandyO

8:28 and another 24 hours please. I recently found some YouTube meditations and positive affirmations by Louise Hay. I find them quite interesting and could be useful to some as an extra tool.

Keep strong everyone. Shut down the AV as fast as you can. It's gotten it's own way for far too long in our lives. Being sober makes me feel. Period. I feel all of my emotions as they are supposed to be and in turn can react to them with clarity. The good and the bad.

Take care everyone. Have a great day 😊

Originally Posted by Sunflowerlife

Evening check in:
Well I have survived yet another day. I have given into the old AV 3 days now (binge eating) and that is something I am not proud of. I don't know what is going on but this tends to happen every now and then- it comes in a wave, I ride it and then it goes away. It's not fun, and I want the cycle to end.
I just need to rewire my brain- I know for a fact it's that simple. So why won't I take the steps to do it? All I have to do is start meditating. I even got a bunch of new meditations sent to me by a complete stranger (through a FB group.) And here I am not doing them.
Anyway, no more self loathing today. I accept myself and all my flaws. I accept that this is the best I can do for this week and tomorrow I promise I will do better.
Good night friends...

Originally Posted by erfra7

Hope you like this one too.


. . . that is what learning is. You suddenly understand something you've understood all your life, but in a new way.

—Doris Lessing


As we are changed by our experiences, that which we know also changes. Our experiences foster growth and enlightenment, and all awarenesses give way to new understandings. We are forever students of life blessed with particular lessons designed only for us. There is joy in knowing that learning has no end and that each day offers us a chance to move closer to becoming the persons we are meant to be.

To understand something more deeply requires that we be open to the ideas of others, willing to part with our present opinions. The program offers us many opportunities to trade in the understandings we've outgrown. Throughout our recovery we have discovered new interpretations of old ideas. And we will continue to expand our understanding.

Every situation, every person, every feeling, every idea has a slightly different hue each time we encounter it. The wonder of this is that life is forever enriched, forever fresh.

Each moment offers me a chance to know better who I am and to understand more fully the real contribution that is mine to make in this life. I will let the anticipation of my changing ideas excite me.

Originally Posted by mystified

Count me in please.

Originally Posted by Sunflowerlife

I'm okay, its not an emergency. I am doing this to myself with the binge eating- I know this is how it affects my mood and I just need to break the cycle. I will be fine, I promise. I really wanted this therapist because he focuses on meditation, hypnosis and transpersonal psychology. I have been to too many traditional therapists and it just doesn't work for me. I need someone to help me break the habit of being myself.

Now off to get my little man to sleep so I can have some alone time.

Originally Posted by PippoRossi

Ugghhh! Sounds all too familiar, although I never ended up in the ER. The docs were baffled and finally just threw medication at it but it only made me worse. Turns out after A LOT of trial and error, I figured out my problem was slight lactose intolerance. Simple as that! I can have SOME lactose in the form of hard cheeses and even some soft cheeses in moderation. I've removed milk from my life altogether. It's just not worth it. I would suggest purchasing this cookbook that she has refined for IBS sufferers: Eating for Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS). If you want, I think I still own this other informative book but no longer have any need for it and I've been saving it to send to someone who could use it: First Year: Irritable Bowel Syndrome, by Heather Van Vorous. PM me and I would be happy to mail it to you.

ETA - printing out this IBS Cheat Sheet was super helpful to me: Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS) Books - HelpForIBS

Originally Posted by erfra7

I just found out that I gain 35 pounds eeehhhhh in two months of seating in my ass.