24 Hour Recovery Connection Part 267
Wanted to cry but God's Will and He is on our side no matter what.
I get it about IBS. I'm dealing with diverticulitis and colitis and an UTI. Uh. Don't tell me stress doesn't make it flare. Getting tired of banannas, rice, applesauce and potatoes this past month. Thankful to be done with the antibiotics!
I get it about IBS. I'm dealing with diverticulitis and colitis and an UTI. Uh. Don't tell me stress doesn't make it flare. Getting tired of banannas, rice, applesauce and potatoes this past month. Thankful to be done with the antibiotics!
I have to admit I've been sitting with an awful insidious AV nattering at me for a couple of days now. Not constant but enough to concern me. I've done a fair bit of thinking and internal wrestling this evening and I just can't do it (drink I mean). I actually do want to be sober more than I want to drink! Wow who knew? I'm home alone no kids no partner and the voice is there for sure but I just can't start again. I'm forcing my mind back through my last withdrawal and to what tomorrow might be like if I drink tonight. Yes okay I'm a crazy person (lol) with a long way to go but God if I gave in tonight then what? Honestly I have no idea how it would pan out and I'm still genuinely scared to go back out there. Good. Frankly I dont really care what has actually stopped me but something has and I'm very relieved. Maybe I do have a fighting chance of making this stick after all.....
Celebration time!!!
Recovery is a Choice We make Everyday. Celebrating their sobriety today are CK with 2 Weeks, Badger with One Terrific Month and Sassy with 2 Years and 11 months of Awesome!
Serving up a 3 Layer Red Velvet Cake with White Chocolate Buttercream Frosting with Sprinkles!
Recovery is a Choice We make Everyday. Celebrating their sobriety today are CK with 2 Weeks, Badger with One Terrific Month and Sassy with 2 Years and 11 months of Awesome!
Serving up a 3 Layer Red Velvet Cake with White Chocolate Buttercream Frosting with Sprinkles!
(((Kris))). Thinking of you & Mr. Kris and fingers crossed that you get that referral to Mayo. I can't say enough good things about their doctors, support staff and efficient system.
(((Leigh))) hope you feel better soon!
Lots going on with our 24-hr. family.....love, hugs, peace and strength to all....xxxx
My AV is also acting up and last night I told it to F^^^^ Off!! I don't often curse but enough is enough! So please count me ALL in for another 24.
(((Leigh))) hope you feel better soon!
Lots going on with our 24-hr. family.....love, hugs, peace and strength to all....xxxx
My AV is also acting up and last night I told it to F^^^^ Off!! I don't often curse but enough is enough! So please count me ALL in for another 24.
All curse words are permissible when referring to our AVs. I've called mine some dreadful things .
Evening check in:
Well I have survived yet another day. I have given into the old AV 3 days now (binge eating) and that is something I am not proud of. I don't know what is going on but this tends to happen every now and then- it comes in a wave, I ride it and then it goes away. It's not fun, and I want the cycle to end.
I just need to rewire my brain- I know for a fact it's that simple. So why won't I take the steps to do it? All I have to do is start meditating. I even got a bunch of new meditations sent to me by a complete stranger (through a FB group.) And here I am not doing them.
Anyway, no more self loathing today. I accept myself and all my flaws. I accept that this is the best I can do for this week and tomorrow I promise I will do better.
Good night friends...
Well I have survived yet another day. I have given into the old AV 3 days now (binge eating) and that is something I am not proud of. I don't know what is going on but this tends to happen every now and then- it comes in a wave, I ride it and then it goes away. It's not fun, and I want the cycle to end.
I just need to rewire my brain- I know for a fact it's that simple. So why won't I take the steps to do it? All I have to do is start meditating. I even got a bunch of new meditations sent to me by a complete stranger (through a FB group.) And here I am not doing them.
Anyway, no more self loathing today. I accept myself and all my flaws. I accept that this is the best I can do for this week and tomorrow I promise I will do better.
Good night friends...
Each day brings a new beginning - another chance.
Checking in for 24. Signed up for some PT next week as I am wondering whether to change my exercise routine. I feel like I've been in a rut for the past few months. Need some new challenges. Tough mudder anyone ?
Kris, I am sorry to hear of the ongoing health issues with you and Mr K. I would gladly take all your suffering in return for the kindness and compassion you have shown to us. I hope you can get the medical assistance and see an end to suffering.
Congrats to all the milestoners ! Well done and lets keep moving forward
Another 24 hours of tonglen, serenity and sobriety pls ! Its 9:26am here !
Kris, I am sorry to hear of the ongoing health issues with you and Mr K. I would gladly take all your suffering in return for the kindness and compassion you have shown to us. I hope you can get the medical assistance and see an end to suffering.
Congrats to all the milestoners ! Well done and lets keep moving forward
Another 24 hours of tonglen, serenity and sobriety pls ! Its 9:26am here !
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