Evening check in:
Well I have survived yet another day. I have given into the old AV 3 days now (binge eating) and that is something I am not proud of. I don't know what is going on but this tends to happen every now and then- it comes in a wave, I ride it and then it goes away. It's not fun, and I want the cycle to end.
I just need to rewire my brain- I know for a fact it's that simple. So why won't I take the steps to do it? All I have to do is start meditating. I even got a bunch of new meditations sent to me by a complete stranger (through a FB group.) And here I am not doing them.
Anyway, no more self loathing today. I accept myself and all my flaws. I accept that this is the best I can do for this week and tomorrow I promise I will do better.
Good night friends...