Goat

In retrospect, that was a pretty silly way to enter the thread

Hi everyone! I am on day 5 now and interested in joining the thread.

Gilmer

I bet everyone just posted at the same moment, and they unfortunately ended up posting on top of you!

That happens to me almost every day!

Great to see you!

WeaverBird

Well, I think its an excellent way to burst onto the scene! I've been stuck trying to post for days but no longer thanks to you Capra. One of my earliest memories is of a goat trying to eat the pocket off my dungarees when I was three years old. Very fond memory of mine ( I don't have many recent ones). Big welcome to you.

WeaverBird

Hi Nileruns, well done on that Friday night. I couldn't get through a Friday all through April. In fact, I've built them up too big in my head. I just couldn't sleep last night making Friday a reeaallly long day. It did mean I got to go to the chat room at 2am uk time though.
Hope you're having a good day.

WeaverBird

Thinking about you and hoping toddler is better now x

healthme

I've been away for a while. Big mistake. Yesterday I failed. I'm upset because I didn't have any "urge" to drink in the first place. It was literally a stupid habit, you know the "it's Friday" PMS feeling...so I thought ok, let me have a glass of wine.But obviously, after I started, I went on a binge. I was doing well. Back on day one.

WeaverBird

Hi Healthy, I'm glad you're back. Fridays are a pain and PMS is a pain and put them together and big explosion / big drink. Trouble is, I can never predict when it's brewing and I'm left scratching my head going Oh yeah I know what's happening. You need to take extra special care of yourself.
I love the avatar btw.

Dee74

welcome back healthme

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BatholithBabe

Day 13! I wanted to get wasted yesterday (Sun afternoon) but I didn't. See I'm getting sober while my beer-drinking and now ex-smoking husband recovers at home from two small strokes. Marriage is a bit rocky at the moment. I have also lost both my parents within a year and a half of each other. My mother went to AA when she was 80. My father spent 35 years as an executive at a distillery! Alcohol played a HUGE part in my growing up and family history.

Anyway, I'm 56 now and I am transitioning. I feel like a butterfly ready to break out of its cocoon. I just re-read a journal entry from 11 months ago just after I got blottoed at a hotel gathering with my siblings after our mother died. My husband blew up at me and said he was going to leave me because I get like such a **** when I drink. I tried back then to quit but you know how it goes, or at least some of you do. Off and on. Off and on. Until now.

The point of this thread was not to tell you my life story but to write down what I wrote in my journal last July. Hope it helps anyone who is struggling or just wants some inspiration:

1) NEVER give up
2) It's OK to feel this way.
3) It WILL get better.
4)Self-care is an ACT of LOVE.
5)Nothing changes if nothing changes.

Peace and Love.

WeaverBird

"I feel like a butterfly ready to break out of its cocoon."

Hi BB, thanks for the nice image! You sound really positive, and I'm happy for that. I think I remember day 13 and being surprised that I was sober for so long, I'd tried so many times to stop by then. Day 31 for me, and I still don't trust myself fully yet. Must be doing something right though.

I hope you have a really good day. Weev

SimplyE

day 13
And
for the 5

Goat

So I am on day 7

Yesterday I went to my first AA meeting of my new sobriety.

I am going to find a sponsor by the end of the week. I neglected to do that for the past several months, and it was a big mistake.

Anyway, the subject of the meeting was Step 1.... so that was pretty good for me

SimplyE

Step 1 how awesome is that!
Day 7 !

SimplyE

ODAT
Still Unsure
No matter I choose not to drink or take the Benzo's they keep prescribing
Both are mind numbing
My life
My choice
Not easy
Day 8

SimplyE

Wow Weev 31 Days!!!!!

Awake61

grateful to be able to come here, sad and weak, but sober.

SimplyE

Sober, good for you
Grateful too

WeaverBird

I am so happy to see all of you posting here sober and with plans and hope for better times to come. It was a bit quiet here earlier and I found myself thinking what's going on with you guys, and everyone who posted in May 17.
Stick with it because take it from me it gets much, much better. I slept through the whole night last night. No waking at 4.30 looking for the next drink. There was no emotional chaos all day. I got to a meeting tonight and it was so calm. I even could think through a decision.
Getting those first days, a week, is huge.

Sunflowerlife

Hi everyone- sad to see our group has gotten smaller and more quiet but very happy to hear from those of us who are still moving forward!
It's been a little over a month for me and I am feeling great overall. I can't wait to get past 4 months and 8 days as that is my longest stretch and I need to beat it to reach that milestone!

I am finally feeling settled in the new house and feeling good about that. Going to join the community pool so I can take my toddler in the mornings and I'm really looking forward to that.

Been sticking to my diet and haven't binged in over a week - that's always an added bonus! Overall I would say things are good. No thoughts of drinking this past week. Hoping it stays that way. Just want to find a therapist or some outside support so I don't get complacent again.

Hope everyone is having a great week so far- hope to hear from more of you!

Sunflowerlife

Hi Goat! Sounds like a great plan and so glad to see you here. Day 7 or 8 is great- keep moving forward!