Class of February 2016 Support Thread Part 6
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Originally Posted by jobei 
I have a test of my own... last week my doctor found a tumor on my body and in two hours I am going in for an ultrasound. I'm petrified. I've been fearing this all week and doing relapse planning in my head if there is bad news. I've been sober for exactly 7 days now 
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Originally Posted by jobei
Im going to cook kimchi fried rice regardless of the outcome I've decided.
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Originally Posted by soberjim
knb02... I very much relate to your post. yesterday was 30 days for me. I am very pleased with that achievement. Friday and Saturday nights are hard for me; except this week end it was manageable.
However last evening after work it was a stronger craving than ever. I read here and did not post.
My AV was trying to convince me I did 30 days. "No problem here".
The thoughts I had. crazing. like thinking it is February 29th. Just drink tonight and join the march group tomorrow. I could feel those intense cravings. I was thinking to myself will this ever stop, these craving?
I drove by the store. It took a great deal of mental energy however I did it. What works for me lately is thinking about what 2 am the next morning will feel like. Just how utterly disappointed I will feel at that time. I also imagined what it would feel like to get into bed sober.
I understand that part of energy. I know tonight after work will be another battle. Yet if I give in it will not be good.
Stay strong. I truly believe at 60 days it will be better. I plan on getting there one day at a time.
However last evening after work it was a stronger craving than ever. I read here and did not post.
My AV was trying to convince me I did 30 days. "No problem here".
The thoughts I had. crazing. like thinking it is February 29th. Just drink tonight and join the march group tomorrow. I could feel those intense cravings. I was thinking to myself will this ever stop, these craving?
I drove by the store. It took a great deal of mental energy however I did it. What works for me lately is thinking about what 2 am the next morning will feel like. Just how utterly disappointed I will feel at that time. I also imagined what it would feel like to get into bed sober.
I understand that part of energy. I know tonight after work will be another battle. Yet if I give in it will not be good.
Stay strong. I truly believe at 60 days it will be better. I plan on getting there one day at a time.
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Originally Posted by CuteNGayYay
Day 10 ! Yay double digits. KNB u rock! U go gurlllll! *hairflip :-) proud of u sista!
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We sure have some good-looking people in this class (I'm talking to you, knb and CuteNGay!)
knb so so happy to hear you made it through with the help of people here. I was in group so I didn't see the posts until now or I would have chimed in.
jobei--that is so scary. Keep us posted. It will only make things worse to drink, which you know. Maybe read over the advice given to knb if the urge comes? Also, I would like some kimchi fried rice, please!! LOVE kimchi plain or in anything (kimchi jjigae is my favorite). My husband sometimes makes a batch, but it makes the apt a little too fragrant
One week today! I have my SOS meeting tonight. Feeling better although still coughing. Group was excellent. I learned that I have no idea how to manage my feelings or sometimes even what they are.
We also had a 10-minute meditation. Does anyone do this? I always find it hard to quiet my mind and not obsess.
knb so so happy to hear you made it through with the help of people here. I was in group so I didn't see the posts until now or I would have chimed in.
jobei--that is so scary. Keep us posted. It will only make things worse to drink, which you know. Maybe read over the advice given to knb if the urge comes? Also, I would like some kimchi fried rice, please!! LOVE kimchi plain or in anything (kimchi jjigae is my favorite). My husband sometimes makes a batch, but it makes the apt a little too fragrant
One week today! I have my SOS meeting tonight. Feeling better although still coughing. Group was excellent. I learned that I have no idea how to manage my feelings or sometimes even what they are.
We also had a 10-minute meditation. Does anyone do this? I always find it hard to quiet my mind and not obsess.
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Originally Posted by knb02
ONTT how are you feeling? I am on day 36 butI have gone downhill since reaching the 30 day mark. My AV is strong. It hasn't stopped annoying me since sunday. grrrrrrrrr
I was ok after 21 days. Not sure if this is another phase that one hits in sobriety. I have been upping the sugar to combat any self pity that I have had recently.
I would love to drink three glasses of wine but there is no point evening mentioning this. Stupid of me to even type what I just said
I was ok after 21 days. Not sure if this is another phase that one hits in sobriety. I have been upping the sugar to combat any self pity that I have had recently.
I would love to drink three glasses of wine but there is no point evening mentioning this. Stupid of me to even type what I just said
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Originally Posted by soberjim
That was a very inspirational sentence to read. That was a very strong thing you did. An action which you will be pleased with tomorrow morning!!!
keep posting for support!
I know reading this post somehow will make it easier for me to deal with my AV later this afternoon!
keep posting for support!
I know reading this post somehow will make it easier for me to deal with my AV later this afternoon!
( apologies, Dee74)
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Originally Posted by safeandsound
We also had a 10-minute meditation. Does anyone do this? I always find it hard to quiet my mind and not obsess.
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Originally Posted by knb02
Guys I am home and I am sitting at the table with two bottles of wine. Just staring at them.I am in tears. I am sorry to sound so dramatic. I will give myself an hour like old tomato said. I will read and reread everyones post.
I am in such a self pity world at the moment. And I have nothing to feel sorry about. I am just finding an excuse to drink. I an trying yi fight this. I dont want to throw away 36 days :-((((((
I am in such a self pity world at the moment. And I have nothing to feel sorry about. I am just finding an excuse to drink. I an trying yi fight this. I dont want to throw away 36 days :-((((((
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Originally Posted by knb02
Oh man. Sense is coming back to my head.
I poured both bottles down the drain just now.. . Can't believe I just did that.
Gratitude to you guys for your posts. I kept reading them over and over again.
Thank you so much Apple, soberjim, 360startstoday,delizadee ,oldtomato, auggie, sadie, JL. Your posts meant alot to me.
I am mentally shattered now. Gonna have a shower and order a big fat pizza, and Ben and Jerry's ice cream. Gonna pile bananas on the icecream. Hell with the diet. It was a close call tonight.
I feel much much much better. Thank you guys big time
I poured both bottles down the drain just now.. . Can't believe I just did that.
Gratitude to you guys for your posts. I kept reading them over and over again.
Thank you so much Apple, soberjim, 360startstoday,delizadee ,oldtomato, auggie, sadie, JL. Your posts meant alot to me.
I am mentally shattered now. Gonna have a shower and order a big fat pizza, and Ben and Jerry's ice cream. Gonna pile bananas on the icecream. Hell with the diet. It was a close call tonight.
I feel much much much better. Thank you guys big time
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Originally Posted by OldTomato
Optimist - Are you unwell or going through withdrawal? If you're having withdrawal symptoms I would consider seeing a doctor if possible!
This was getting passed around at work by people who admit they are coming into work sick. We are well compensated for sick days and can work from home, so really there is no excuse.
I must be starting to feel better...I'm getting my fight back, LOL!
Thank you for looking out for me
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Campral
Hi, just checking in with the Febs, though I suppose I'm officially March now due to my slip yesterday.
I went to the doc today, and I'm starting Campral tonight. I sincerely hope it will work to keep away the cravings. I'm so tired of it! I also went to my recovery session.
On the way home, I very nearly went to buy wine. AV was talking me into it, big time. But I resisted!
I'm a bit down in the dumps, but day one is half done.
I went to the doc today, and I'm starting Campral tonight. I sincerely hope it will work to keep away the cravings. I'm so tired of it! I also went to my recovery session.
On the way home, I very nearly went to buy wine. AV was talking me into it, big time. But I resisted!
I'm a bit down in the dumps, but day one is half done.
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Stay with us GG. I know I've had times when it wasn't one day at a time, or even one hour at a time. It was one minute at a time. Get through this minute, then the next, etc. That will subside and peace will take it's place.
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Originally Posted by safeandsound
We sure have some good-looking people in this class (I'm talking to you, knb and CuteNGay!)
knb so so happy to hear you made it through with the help of people here. I was in group so I didn't see the posts until now or I would have chimed in.
jobei--that is so scary. Keep us posted. It will only make things worse to drink, which you know. Maybe read over the advice given to knb if the urge comes? Also, I would like some kimchi fried rice, please!! LOVE kimchi plain or in anything (kimchi jjigae is my favorite). My husband sometimes makes a batch, but it makes the apt a little too fragrant
One week today! I have my SOS meeting tonight. Feeling better although still coughing. Group was excellent. I learned that I have no idea how to manage my feelings or sometimes even what they are.
We also had a 10-minute meditation. Does anyone do this? I always find it hard to quiet my mind and not obsess.
knb so so happy to hear you made it through with the help of people here. I was in group so I didn't see the posts until now or I would have chimed in.
jobei--that is so scary. Keep us posted. It will only make things worse to drink, which you know. Maybe read over the advice given to knb if the urge comes? Also, I would like some kimchi fried rice, please!! LOVE kimchi plain or in anything (kimchi jjigae is my favorite). My husband sometimes makes a batch, but it makes the apt a little too fragrant
One week today! I have my SOS meeting tonight. Feeling better although still coughing. Group was excellent. I learned that I have no idea how to manage my feelings or sometimes even what they are.
We also had a 10-minute meditation. Does anyone do this? I always find it hard to quiet my mind and not obsess.
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