Class of February 2016 Support Thread Part 6
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Thanks guys. My AV's telling me that I can have one last night of drinking and then go in for a detox. I know it wouldn't be that straightforward, it would find a way to trip me up again further down the line. I'm going to phone them up tomorrow morning and tell them I'm two weeks sober. I'd rather they give my place to someone who needs it more, but I'll go if they say there is support they can give me after physical withdrawal. I need to remember how awful I felt while I was drinking, and that getting drunk is never as enjoyable as I think it's going to be.
knb - No, I was on a drinking limit at the end of January and the beginning of February. The doctor put me on it while I waited for my detox, I wasn't allowed to quit on my own as I was at risk of having DTs (seizures, etc). It was impossible for me to stick with this limit as it was making me even more ill, and after 3 weeks of being on the detox waiting list I just risked quitting on my own.
knb - No, I was on a drinking limit at the end of January and the beginning of February. The doctor put me on it while I waited for my detox, I wasn't allowed to quit on my own as I was at risk of having DTs (seizures, etc). It was impossible for me to stick with this limit as it was making me even more ill, and after 3 weeks of being on the detox waiting list I just risked quitting on my own.
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OT, this is total AV logic you're using. You're looking for an excuse to drink, and looking for an excuse to not go in for detox. Quit f*cking making excuses. DON'T DRINK and go into detox tomorrow. It's not rocket science.
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Originally Posted by 360startstoday 
Good morning everyone! Day 24 and I have a question. I think too much, always have, a big reason I drank. Over the last few days, but really showed its head last night... EVERYTHING I have done drunk, I'm talking 10-15 years ago even, is coming to my mind. Things I haven't thought about in years. Have any of you done this? The guilty, embarrassed feeling is even there and I don't talk to or see the people I used to hang out with. It's so weird!
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And I agree with whoever said we are the only ones our memories are so bad for.....when I think of stupid stuff my drunk friends have done (most of us have friends that abuse alcohol, don't we? Birds of a feather....) I don't dwell on it whatsoever....I move on. Don't dwell on what you can't change. We have all done the same or similar embarrassing things......
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Originally Posted by OldTomato
Thanks guys. My AV's telling me that I can have one last night of drinking and then go in for a detox. I know it wouldn't be that straightforward, it would find a way to trip me up again further down the line. I'm going to phone them up tomorrow morning and tell them I'm two weeks sober. I'd rather they give my place to someone who needs it more, but I'll go if they say there is support they can give me after physical withdrawal. I need to remember how awful I felt while I was drinking, and that getting drunk is never as enjoyable as I think it's going to be.
knb - No, I was on a drinking limit at the end of January and the beginning of February. The doctor put me on it while I waited for my detox, I wasn't allowed to quit on my own as I was at risk of having DTs (seizures, etc). It was impossible for me to stick with this limit as it was making me even more ill, and after 3 weeks of being on the detox waiting list I just risked quitting on my own.
knb - No, I was on a drinking limit at the end of January and the beginning of February. The doctor put me on it while I waited for my detox, I wasn't allowed to quit on my own as I was at risk of having DTs (seizures, etc). It was impossible for me to stick with this limit as it was making me even more ill, and after 3 weeks of being on the detox waiting list I just risked quitting on my own.
The more we overcome our AV the stronger we get. So do you suffer from physical withdrawals when you quit?
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Originally Posted by Outonthetiles
OT, this is total AV logic you're using. You're looking for an excuse to drink, and looking for an excuse to not go in for detox. Quit f*cking making excuses. DON'T DRINK and go into detox tomorrow. It's not rocket science.
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Originally Posted by kittycat3
And I agree with whoever said we are the only ones our memories are so bad for.....when I think of stupid stuff my drunk friends have done (most of us have friends that abuse alcohol, don't we? Birds of a feather....) I don't dwell on it whatsoever....I move on. Don't dwell on what you can't change. We have all done the same or similar embarrassing things......
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Originally Posted by OldTomato
OOTT - You're right, I know you're right. It's glaringly obvious what my AV's up to when I see it written down.
I know it sounded harsh, but my message was sent with love and respect. BTW, everyone will get their chance to pick on me, I'm sure. I came close to drinking on Friday, and it'll happen again (temptation, I mean.). I'm going to Mexico in August and I don't see how I'll be able to not drink when I'm there.
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Today I had a public success that would have been impossible with an alcohol habit. I still cannot believe that "me" and "success" can be in the same sentence. I am trying to process this impossible thing in my mind now. New forces have entered my life that are pulling me further away from drinking. My social-life problem--of having friends that have to be avoided--is starting to solve itself. My new friends are going to be a good influence. Thanks for listening! SR is the best.
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Originally Posted by Mel12
Today I had a public success that would have been impossible with an alcohol habit. I still cannot believe that "me" and "success" can be in the same sentence. I am trying to process this impossible thing in my mind now. New forces have entered my life that are pulling me further away from drinking. My social-life problem--of having friends that have to be avoided--is starting to solve itself. My new friends are going to be a good influence. Thanks for listening! SR is the best.
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Originally Posted by knb02
Good for you OT.
The more we overcome our AV the stronger we get. So do you suffer from physical withdrawals when you quit?
The more we overcome our AV the stronger we get. So do you suffer from physical withdrawals when you quit?
OOTT - Ha! It's fine, tough love works with me. I chose my sponsor because I told her that I was drinking alone and she replied "that's really sad" (as in pathetic), and I respected her for it.
August is a couple of months away yet, you have plenty of time to figure out a sobriety plan for when you go away.
Mel - I'm so happy for you! Life is so much better without alcohol.
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Originally Posted by OldTomato
I got a letter through saying that my assisted detox can start tomorrow if I still want it. I was supposed to wait for that before I quit as it was risky for me to do it alone.
I heard alcohol withdrawal can be more dangerous than withdrawal from heroin, and so forth. Yet wherever one turns, someone is holding a drink. That someone used to be me--but not anymore!
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Originally Posted by knb02
I get you. Every sober day is a spiritual awakening for me. I feel reborn again. Things are slowly clicking into place.
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Originally Posted by OldTomato
Hey guys, having a bit of a struggle tonight. I got a letter through saying that my assisted detox can start tomorrow if I still want it. I was supposed to wait for that before I quit as it was risky for me to do it alone. I was added to the list over a month ago and put on a drinking limit - I tried to stick to the limit for a while but kept overdrinking and underdrinking which caused my withdrawal symptoms to get even worse. It felt like I was dying! I knew I couldn't stick with a limit, with me and alcohol it's either all or nothing. I chose nothing and sat through the withdrawal myself.
The problem is, my AV is telling me that I should get completely blackout drunk tonight seeing as I'll be getting treatment tomorrow. It's an awful thing to think but I am really finding it difficult not to!
The problem is, my AV is telling me that I should get completely blackout drunk tonight seeing as I'll be getting treatment tomorrow. It's an awful thing to think but I am really finding it difficult not to!
At his point in your sober journey, this is something you can deal with successfully. I firmly believe that, and you also know it's true.
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