Class of February 2016 Support Thread Part 6
Good morning everyone! Day 24 and I have a question.
I think too much, always have, a big reason I drank. Over the last few days, but really showed its head last night... EVERYTHING I have done drunk, I'm talking 10-15 years ago even, is coming to my mind. Things I haven't thought about in years. Have any of you done this? The guilty, embarrassed feeling is even there and I don't talk to or see the people I used to hang out with. It's so weird!
I think too much, always have, a big reason I drank. Over the last few days, but really showed its head last night... EVERYTHING I have done drunk, I'm talking 10-15 years ago even, is coming to my mind. Things I haven't thought about in years. Have any of you done this? The guilty, embarrassed feeling is even there and I don't talk to or see the people I used to hang out with. It's so weird!
Geeze now I get a call from the school that my 12 year old daughter tried alcohol the other day and told a friend. That's fine - great excuse for me to dump all the alcohol in the house! Well I put my husband's wine and two beers in his garage. There done! I had a huge panic attach because I couldn't post and thought I got kicked out. It was because I changed my email and hadn't verified it. Phew! Breathing, breathing, no stress... Yeah well when I went to my new blood doctor a few months ago I had quit at that time for several weeks. I said no I don't drink. She said "Good because I've seen some really bad cases where alcohol reaks (spk?) havoc on platelets" Alcohol kills platelets and new ones need to be made.... I have less to start with. B12 and two irons a pill now though and I have more energy than I've had in years. Sorry to overpost. Okay I'm back to work.
Tell your head to be quiet! No need to look backwards with regret. You are strong enough to be making changes in your life - many people never try once - so be proud and start dreaming about what you really want to do in the future. I'm starting to try to to come up with mantras to be ready for AV. One already involves foul language but I'm ready. Bring it on AV. No, no I'm not interested in wasting time in my life on a discussion about this topic brain. Quit it.
Hi 360 - on the bright side, brain damage from alcohol may not have progressed very far since the unpleasant recollections indicate long-term memory is intact.
The day I cannot remember anything is when I will really start worrying! I certainly have no intention of letting things get to that point.
The day I cannot remember anything is when I will really start worrying! I certainly have no intention of letting things get to that point.
I have 360. But I have 25 years of cringe worthy really? moments. I take a lot of deep breaths, remind myself that the past is the past and this is a new chapter of my life. One that I plan on completing sober. I use a few of them as reminders of why I want to live my life sober now. I also think we make things bigger in our heads, at least I think I do. If I take some of these moments apart I remember that the people I was with were stupid drunk too.
Have a great day, everyone! March 2, Day 2.
p.s. Thanks for the Campral stories -- I hope not to have side effects! Nausea would not be good.
Day 16 quiting smoking and drinking. Feeling great and the cravings has subsided. Will have to carch up in all the posts sometime just very busy at work and i am trying to get normal family life going again.
Well done to everyone for sticking it out. I need to make some plans for the weekend to keep me properly busy.
Keep up the good work!!!
Well done to everyone for sticking it out. I need to make some plans for the weekend to keep me properly busy.
Keep up the good work!!!
knb, my son is 11. I've been pretty open about it with him, because he is now very aware of when I'm drinking. He used to think I was having a sugar low [type 1 diabetic], but even that I can't hide, because now he checks my CGM [constant glucose monitor] constantly.
PHRD, I'm really sorry to hear that about your daughter. This scares me more than anything! My son has cried, saying he will never touch alcohol, but we all know how that goes. He is 'different' [Aspie], and I think those teens have more tendency to drink to fit in.
Did you see GardenGal where my 12 year old tried alcohol and was feeling sick at school? I just dumped out all the booze and guess what I did which was a huge gigantic step for me? I told my husband that I'm done drinking and that it just keeps causing problems for me! I had kind of said it a couple days ago casually but this time I said it very concretely. DONE
Did you see GardenGal where my 12 year old tried alcohol and was feeling sick at school? I just dumped out all the booze and guess what I did which was a huge gigantic step for me? I told my husband that I'm done drinking and that it just keeps causing problems for me! I had kind of said it a couple days ago casually but this time I said it very concretely. DONE
Silicon Valley is loaded with Aspie's -- there are plenty of opportunities for them there. I'm quite sure Steve Jobs was, and wasn't his old logo "Think Different"? mm hmm.
JL, your wife makes a good point. I think it's ok for kids to see the occasional glass here and there, but not bottles being downed.
360, what are you going to do regarding this friend? And the mother?? I'd have strong words for her...
I think she's right too, we have both quit and removed it from the house. The change is amazing and it's barely coming up on a month now... It's really important to me to have them grow up right and in a good environment.
My other older son, step son who is now 21 put use through a nightmare with his alcohol and drug use in high school. And yep, one time he took alcohol from our house and one time he had a big party we allowed and supervised really well but figured out they were putting vodka in water bottles.
I don't think I'm strong enough to raise one more teen while dealing with my own issues. None of them have been easy and this last one is the worst. So great in so many ways. But has been a challenge since she was very little. I've had to homeschool her for several years because she couldn't go to school without my being asked to come get her because she was having issues...
I don't think I'm strong enough to raise one more teen while dealing with my own issues. None of them have been easy and this last one is the worst. So great in so many ways. But has been a challenge since she was very little. I've had to homeschool her for several years because she couldn't go to school without my being asked to come get her because she was having issues...
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