Class of September 2015 Part 2
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Sleepydots, welcome! I'm coming back too after a hiatus. Congrats on day 17: that is fantastic!!
Countrygirl, I'm sorry that you relapsed and that you are feeling better. Do you have a sense of what happened? It doesn't always work, but sometimes retracing my steps and my thinking can be useful the next time the old AV comes a'callin.
Carebear, I have terrible vision, so I'm not sure if my is improving--could be too early. But I know not seeing double is a definite improvement.
Today wasn't the greatest day. Had to get up super early to get some work done, and slept hardly a wink last night, for some reason. Just a lot of tossing and turning. Partner is a bit grouchy right now too...he is grumpy and overworked as well. But, I muddle through, and I'm sure better than if I had a hangover. Going to pick up the house a bit and then snuggle into bed with a movie after dinner, so I'll say goodnight now. Hope all of you have a great day and good job. All of you inspire me!
Countrygirl, I'm sorry that you relapsed and that you are feeling better. Do you have a sense of what happened? It doesn't always work, but sometimes retracing my steps and my thinking can be useful the next time the old AV comes a'callin.
Carebear, I have terrible vision, so I'm not sure if my is improving--could be too early. But I know not seeing double is a definite improvement.
Today wasn't the greatest day. Had to get up super early to get some work done, and slept hardly a wink last night, for some reason. Just a lot of tossing and turning. Partner is a bit grouchy right now too...he is grumpy and overworked as well. But, I muddle through, and I'm sure better than if I had a hangover. Going to pick up the house a bit and then snuggle into bed with a movie after dinner, so I'll say goodnight now. Hope all of you have a great day and good job. All of you inspire me!
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Originally Posted by Rar 
Glad you've set another Day 1 Country Girl. Perhaps examine the feelings or events that led up to the first drink? Dust yourself off and begin again. We know it's hard and probably all of here know the anguish and disappointment you must be feeling now. ((Countrygirl)) You don't have to feel this way ever again.
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Hi All.......I'm so relieved this day is coming to an end. I woke up feeling sorry for myself, ultimately resulting in horrible afternoon cravings. It seemed nothing I did helped them. I posted in the Newcomers Forum and received several helpful responses. I did try to actively get rid of my cravings by doing physical things - vacuuming, laundry, walking dog. What I didn't do was examine my feelings. Next time I have a craving, I'm going to try examining my feelings along with the physical activities to distract me. I am ending Day 11 sober (Thanks to God and the folks in SR).
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Don't give up on you Rar! You're worth happiness and peace. You deserve to be the best version of you you can be. Give yourself the chance. All of you here..give yourself a chance. There's no destination and no time limit. One day at a time! I hug a lot around SR. ((Hug))!! To you all!
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Join Date: May 2014
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[QUOTE=Kelly- it's amazing how the simple things in life provide pleasure when sober isn't it? During my 6 months of sobriety last year, looking up at the stars or the foliage or being present for a question from my children all gave me so much pleasure that it was eerie. I can only imagine what I've missed over the years but all we have is the present.[/QUOTE]
I know the feeling (minus the children part) and absolutely agree!!!!
I know the feeling (minus the children part) and absolutely agree!!!!
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Originally Posted by CountryGal123
So back to day one after a five day bender. Can't really remember most of it. But possibly drunk dialed a coworker. I know I called, but not much of what was said.
Feeling embarrassed and like a piece of crud now - physically and emotionally.
I have gotten really good at beating myself up...
Very thankful I found this website online
Feeling embarrassed and like a piece of crud now - physically and emotionally.
I have gotten really good at beating myself up...
Very thankful I found this website online
Hang in there, girl. These are good "memories" to reflect on when having a craving, I find.
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Originally Posted by zenchaser
Yes. Although it doesn't matter if he brings them home. The responsibility of whether or not I drink has nothing to do with anyone but me.
Welcome salthillgirl! Good to have you with us
Welcome salthillgirl! Good to have you with us
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Originally Posted by carebearlost
Day 19 is coming to close, I am feeling good. Strangely enough, it seems like my vision is improving, has anyone ever experienced this?
my favorite part about not drinking, by far!!!
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Originally Posted by SleepyDots
Hi guys, can I join you all here? I'm on Day 17 in my sober journey. I recognize a couple of you from old classes, though you may not recognize me as I wasn't all that active. I made 2 serious attempts at sobriety last year, both lasted 2 months pretty much to the day. I am back again but feeling a bit precarious in my sobriety right now. I have been battling major cravings the past 4-5 days and it sucks. And the thing is, I feel SO good, my house is clean, my anxiety lessens every day, I have so much patience with my kids, I look better, etc. etc. But yet, from about 3-6pm all I can think about is wanting a glass of wine. No amount of reasoning/playing the tape/ignoring seems to be helping... Yesterday and today I tried urge surfing instead (thank you, Dee, for posting about it). Yesterday I was *this* close to going to buy a bottle and feel like I escaped by the skin of my teeth. Today I feel a little calmer and more in control. Just trying to keep chugging along, putting one foot in front of the other, and thought maybe posting here in this class might help as well.
3-6 is really hard for me too. I'm going to start planning something everyday to keep me busy during that time. When my daughter is with me it's not hard. But when she's at her dads I don't know what to do with myself.
17 days is awesome!
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Originally Posted by carebearlost
Day 19 is coming to close, I am feeling good. Strangely enough, it seems like my vision is improving, has anyone ever experienced this?
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Originally Posted by Secretdrinker
Fricka, netflix!! I'm just about to start watching Orphan Black and/or 100.
I should have gone to my Buddhist recovery meeting but I got lazy. I'm in my sweats, hair in very strange, beehive type knots to make it curly tomorrow. Just couldn't fathom going out into the world
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Night 9 here, this is my hardest night so far this time around. My sudden cravings are compounded by something stupid I did a short while ago. That and everything on my mind feels like King Kong right now. But drinking is not an option, life on life's terms. Figure Id post.
Congrats everyone on staying sober today
Congrats everyone on staying sober today
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Originally Posted by Secretdrinker
Rio, you are strong. I know this because I am on day 5 and I know the strength it has taken me to get here! You CAN do this. Do you want to talk about the stupid thing?
I'm sitting here watching football letting these thoughts bounce around my head. I think I'll get out for a walk and relieve some stress.
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Originally Posted by Secretdrinker
'okay, I have gone a week without it, so I'll just have 1 bottle tonight and then do another week sober'....all the while knowing I was lying to myself, because once I have that first sip, it's all over for me, I'll drink for weeks after,none stop because I'll keep telling myself that I'm just getting it all out of my system, enjoying binge drinking, so then I can
fully be ready to start day 1 again.
fully be ready to start day 1 again.
A great quote -
If your tired of starting over, stop giving up.
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Just wanted to say hey, everyone! Tomorrow is Friday! Yay!!! I told myself as a reward for being a good girl for another week I would let myself have a guilt free donut tomorrow morning. I'm pretty excited. 
One donut is far healthier than the 20/30 shots of vodka I would be consuming tonight and tomorrow.
I hope everyone is doing ok tonight. Give yourself a big hug for being awesome and strong! We made it another day.
One donut is far healthier than the 20/30 shots of vodka I would be consuming tonight and tomorrow.
I hope everyone is doing ok tonight. Give yourself a big hug for being awesome and strong! We made it another day.
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