Class of August 2014 Part 19
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Gosh, some good posts and good reflections
We, as a group, have really grown and matured
We have changed, we are different, we are new versions of ourselves
We are strong, we are committed, we are supportive and supported.
I am so grateful for team a, and it astounds me that a year is in sight, within reach, and it looks delicious, I totally want a piece of the 1 year pie!
Thank you for sharing your reflections, I am so proud of how you have changed, challenged, fought, succeeded and shared. We have decreased in size, but we are mighty together, thank you all for keeping me company and afloat for so long.
Quick share
This time last year i was off work with a slipped disc, bored, depressed, started drinking earlier and earlier, soon all day and nightly, along with my Diazepam, diclofenac and naproxen. Kept telling my partner it was the meds that were making me so sleepy and woozy, I was pretty much comatose for the whole of august. 27th august I missed a funeral. Damn I'm ashamed of that. I got dressed and ready to go, got in the car, and pulled right into the shop car park, bought 3 bottles of wine, went home and resumed. Then I ran out and went back to the shop in my pyjamas about 4pm. Mortifying. Hadn't eaten in days, was functioning only from drink to drink. Passed out, vomited, choked. Partner came in, 999, blue lights, resus, stomach pump, intensive care. 28th August was my first alcohol free day in about 7 months. I am lucky to be alive. I am lucky my partner is still by my side. I am lucky to have found Sr so quickly. I am lucky to be 11 months and 2 days sober.
Phew. So grateful to be where I am today xxx
We, as a group, have really grown and matured
We have changed, we are different, we are new versions of ourselves
We are strong, we are committed, we are supportive and supported.
I am so grateful for team a, and it astounds me that a year is in sight, within reach, and it looks delicious, I totally want a piece of the 1 year pie!
Thank you for sharing your reflections, I am so proud of how you have changed, challenged, fought, succeeded and shared. We have decreased in size, but we are mighty together, thank you all for keeping me company and afloat for so long.
Quick share
This time last year i was off work with a slipped disc, bored, depressed, started drinking earlier and earlier, soon all day and nightly, along with my Diazepam, diclofenac and naproxen. Kept telling my partner it was the meds that were making me so sleepy and woozy, I was pretty much comatose for the whole of august. 27th august I missed a funeral. Damn I'm ashamed of that. I got dressed and ready to go, got in the car, and pulled right into the shop car park, bought 3 bottles of wine, went home and resumed. Then I ran out and went back to the shop in my pyjamas about 4pm. Mortifying. Hadn't eaten in days, was functioning only from drink to drink. Passed out, vomited, choked. Partner came in, 999, blue lights, resus, stomach pump, intensive care. 28th August was my first alcohol free day in about 7 months. I am lucky to be alive. I am lucky my partner is still by my side. I am lucky to have found Sr so quickly. I am lucky to be 11 months and 2 days sober.
Phew. So grateful to be where I am today xxx
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Holy moly pink! That had to be truly terrifying. Here's to your rebirth into peace, happiness and life!
What a difference a year makes, I think we are all doing some healthy reelection. Charging up for year two!
Loved your post scooter, awesome. You too ultra.
Grateful, 1step, Choobie, rah, London and the rest of the gang. Love and sweet dreams.
What a difference a year makes, I think we are all doing some healthy reelection. Charging up for year two!
Loved your post scooter, awesome. You too ultra.
Grateful, 1step, Choobie, rah, London and the rest of the gang. Love and sweet dreams.
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Morning guys!
Wow, powerful and reflective posts.
Pink, thanks so much for sharing a little bit of your story. Very proud of you xx
Rah, I think the counsellor is a great idea. Don't worry, just take a deep breath and talk - go for it. It will feel uncomfortable but I almost guarantee you will feel better.
I am very happy it's Friday today! Tonight I am going to go to an AA meeting as I haven't been on a Friday night for ages and I don't want to go out with work tonight. I feel fine and good in the pub now with no triggers - it's just I find them quite boring! Coffee and eating places are my new hangouts to socialise.
Have a great Friday everyone :-)
Wow, powerful and reflective posts.
Pink, thanks so much for sharing a little bit of your story. Very proud of you xx
Rah, I think the counsellor is a great idea. Don't worry, just take a deep breath and talk - go for it. It will feel uncomfortable but I almost guarantee you will feel better.
I am very happy it's Friday today! Tonight I am going to go to an AA meeting as I haven't been on a Friday night for ages and I don't want to go out with work tonight. I feel fine and good in the pub now with no triggers - it's just I find them quite boring! Coffee and eating places are my new hangouts to socialise.
Have a great Friday everyone :-)
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Thanks for all the support guys, obviously that last night was the finale after years of being a social drinker, then a casual drinker, then a bad day at work end of the day drinker, then one whilst I'm Cooking drinking, then anytime after 5 pm drinker, hammered at the weekend, the life and soul of the party, the championship shot chase winner ,then drinking everynight, as part of my,daily routine. Home, open bottle, relax, drinking til bedrtime, get up, go to work, rinse and repeat. I didn't even see it getting worse, thought I was in control, never entered my head i had,a problem. Not even when I hid empty bottles and couldn't get up for work. 15 years of gradual increase. I've not shared my story to that extent before, have always sugar coated it. Now is the time to say it out loud.
Thanks for letting me share, I needed to x
London, aa on a Friday night is the perfect middle finger to alcohol, love it!
It's Friday! I have a consultation meeting this morning, boooooo. Won't let it brings me down, I'm still skipping today! Tomorrow my god children are visiting, and I will wake up clear headed ready for hardcore playing!I have a 2 and 4 year old to entertain! Can't wait!
Rah, you can do this, one time, or will be your time, so never give up my love xx
Thanks for letting me share, I needed to x
London, aa on a Friday night is the perfect middle finger to alcohol, love it!
It's Friday! I have a consultation meeting this morning, boooooo. Won't let it brings me down, I'm still skipping today! Tomorrow my god children are visiting, and I will wake up clear headed ready for hardcore playing!I have a 2 and 4 year old to entertain! Can't wait!
Rah, you can do this, one time, or will be your time, so never give up my love xx
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Happy Friday!!
I get the progression pink. At the end, I thought drinking beer at 9am was okay, just a rock and roll cool thing. I thought I could sustain a cool buzz all day. Reality, I ended up doing a bunch of nothing. "Napping" in the afternoon and/or blacking out. And the repeating that on Sunday...
I like the finger up analogy. Alcohol deserves more grass roots consumer rebellion. It is a dangerous product, but it is shielded from consequences by money and also branding people damaged by its products as alcoholics. Gloves are off from now on, when I am asked my honest opinion of alcohol it is coming out baby!
"One ship drives east and the other drives west by the same winds that blow. It is the set of the sails and not the wind that determines your direction."
Listen, love and laugh. Life is good.
I get the progression pink. At the end, I thought drinking beer at 9am was okay, just a rock and roll cool thing. I thought I could sustain a cool buzz all day. Reality, I ended up doing a bunch of nothing. "Napping" in the afternoon and/or blacking out. And the repeating that on Sunday...
I like the finger up analogy. Alcohol deserves more grass roots consumer rebellion. It is a dangerous product, but it is shielded from consequences by money and also branding people damaged by its products as alcoholics. Gloves are off from now on, when I am asked my honest opinion of alcohol it is coming out baby!
"One ship drives east and the other drives west by the same winds that blow. It is the set of the sails and not the wind that determines your direction."
Listen, love and laugh. Life is good.
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Good morning friends! Start of day 6 
today should be a slam dunk. As I've mentioned in previous posts I've really been struggling this week physically, emotionally and mentally since I overdid Saturday night. It's been so bad I worked at home the last 2 days. For some reason I just couldn't make myself go into the office. Trying to push through today. I'm dressed, hair done, etc. Going in today. All I really want to do is stay here in my apartment with my husband, granddaughter and dogs. I have to get over this. On one hand I know I need to get out of the house on the other hand I just want to stay. Off the work! Have a great day!
today should be a slam dunk. As I've mentioned in previous posts I've really been struggling this week physically, emotionally and mentally since I overdid Saturday night. It's been so bad I worked at home the last 2 days. For some reason I just couldn't make myself go into the office. Trying to push through today. I'm dressed, hair done, etc. Going in today. All I really want to do is stay here in my apartment with my husband, granddaughter and dogs. I have to get over this. On one hand I know I need to get out of the house on the other hand I just want to stay. Off the work! Have a great day!
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Powerful story Pink- thanks for sharing!
Our lives truley are different and its important to remember that any time we think about giving moderation a try. Instead of asking "What if I Can?" The question should be "What if I Can't?"
Anyone want to go back to the time before we finally quit?
Our lives truley are different and its important to remember that any time we think about giving moderation a try. Instead of asking "What if I Can?" The question should be "What if I Can't?"
Anyone want to go back to the time before we finally quit?
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I cannot believe tomorrow is August 1 ! ! !
Pink, thank you for sharing. I think you should be proud that you stopped at that point; most would have waited a few days, decided it hadn't been as bad as imagined, then gone back to drinking. You are an inspiration to us all.
Rah, you should march right into work. Only your husband and our team know you overdid it last Saturday night; your colleagues have no idea. You might find the work routine helpful.
Greetings and bug hugs to everyone else. The posts the past few days as we end our first year of sobriety have been inspiring and insightful.
Pink, thank you for sharing. I think you should be proud that you stopped at that point; most would have waited a few days, decided it hadn't been as bad as imagined, then gone back to drinking. You are an inspiration to us all.
Rah, you should march right into work. Only your husband and our team know you overdid it last Saturday night; your colleagues have no idea. You might find the work routine helpful.
Greetings and bug hugs to everyone else. The posts the past few days as we end our first year of sobriety have been inspiring and insightful.
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Made it through my day of work. Went out to dinner with my husband and my granddaughter. Sat in the restaurant (not the bar area), ordered my drink first and ordered flavored iced tea. I started taking my anti-depressant again. Talked to my husband about joining the YMCA. He wasn't really supportive, he frowned and said "we won't go anyway". I really wish he'd be more encouraging, I'm not going to let that stop me. Feeling a bit better but not great. I either really really drank too much Saturday or I have a bug or something. Can I still be feeling the impact of a Saturday night binge? Day 6!!
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(((Pink))) thanks for sharing your story, very powerful. I am so grateful that you are part of TeamAugust.
Rah, hope you feel better soon - you are doing great!
Determined - love that quote, I just had a fortune cookie that said "You are the mast in every situation." I love the sailing metaphors for dealing with any tough situation in life.
Scooter, London, 1StepUp, Ultra, Choobie - bug hugs to all!
Cute, CaliChris, other original TeamAugust15 members- how are you doing?
Thank you TeamA for the inspiring posts and for the consistent presence here throughout the last year. It is amazing to me how strong our team has become. Even though I sadly will not have 1 year in August anymore, I am okay with it as long as I stay sober and continue to move forward. I am not giving up.
#relentlessforwardprogress #eyeontheprize #nosausages #love
Rah, hope you feel better soon - you are doing great!
Determined - love that quote, I just had a fortune cookie that said "You are the mast in every situation." I love the sailing metaphors for dealing with any tough situation in life.
Scooter, London, 1StepUp, Ultra, Choobie - bug hugs to all!
Cute, CaliChris, other original TeamAugust15 members- how are you doing?
Thank you TeamA for the inspiring posts and for the consistent presence here throughout the last year. It is amazing to me how strong our team has become. Even though I sadly will not have 1 year in August anymore, I am okay with it as long as I stay sober and continue to move forward. I am not giving up.
#relentlessforwardprogress #eyeontheprize #nosausages #love
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Hey all
The August 2014 thread is officially one year old, wow.
Hope everyone is doing good. I am heading off to Saturday morning AA then I will plan my weekend. Feels good to be up and about in a sunny London today. Lots to look forward to for the rest of this year too!
I will check in again later, coffee calls
Thank you all for the thoughts, reflections and stories. Some wonderful shares the last couple of days. Love my Team A!
The August 2014 thread is officially one year old, wow.
Hope everyone is doing good. I am heading off to Saturday morning AA then I will plan my weekend. Feels good to be up and about in a sunny London today. Lots to look forward to for the rest of this year too!
I will check in again later, coffee calls
Thank you all for the thoughts, reflections and stories. Some wonderful shares the last couple of days. Love my Team A!
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Happy sober Saturday!
Wow, great day yesterday. Hiked in the woods all day yesterday basically with my son. Saw snakes, deer, crawfish, beautiful flowing creeks and life affirming fragment flowers. He said it was the best day ever. I can't think of anything that could beat that either.
One year upon us, I feel the distance from the darkness for sure, and also a Complete revaluation of life. I think alcohol helps our society mask and deal with so many issues that may be caused by things that are fundamentally wrong. Two big assumptions we are asked to accept at face value are that material success equates to personal satisfaction, and that technical advances are the keys to social progress.
These false beliefs make us feel inadequate and we walk around feeling anxious and depressed but can't put our finger on why. The things we buy are never enough to live up to the images of success on television and the relationships through texting and Facebook leave us wanting a simple hug and eye contact more that a hostage wants a meal. Alcohol is the great elixir as it can make those uncomfortable feelings go away, and make us drunk enough to accept a thumbs up on a computer screen as a form of love.
I tend to ramble sometimes, But I guess the year mark has opened up a bit of reflective wisdom. My point is, I think sobriety gives us another chance to get it right. To make our own choices from the heart. To see the truth and have the bright eyed courage to do and say why is right. Kindness and love are not weakness, they are its exact opposite.
Now get out there and make someone's day a little better than it would have been had they not crossed your path.
Love.
Wow, great day yesterday. Hiked in the woods all day yesterday basically with my son. Saw snakes, deer, crawfish, beautiful flowing creeks and life affirming fragment flowers. He said it was the best day ever. I can't think of anything that could beat that either.
One year upon us, I feel the distance from the darkness for sure, and also a Complete revaluation of life. I think alcohol helps our society mask and deal with so many issues that may be caused by things that are fundamentally wrong. Two big assumptions we are asked to accept at face value are that material success equates to personal satisfaction, and that technical advances are the keys to social progress.
These false beliefs make us feel inadequate and we walk around feeling anxious and depressed but can't put our finger on why. The things we buy are never enough to live up to the images of success on television and the relationships through texting and Facebook leave us wanting a simple hug and eye contact more that a hostage wants a meal. Alcohol is the great elixir as it can make those uncomfortable feelings go away, and make us drunk enough to accept a thumbs up on a computer screen as a form of love.
I tend to ramble sometimes, But I guess the year mark has opened up a bit of reflective wisdom. My point is, I think sobriety gives us another chance to get it right. To make our own choices from the heart. To see the truth and have the bright eyed courage to do and say why is right. Kindness and love are not weakness, they are its exact opposite.
Now get out there and make someone's day a little better than it would have been had they not crossed your path.
Love.
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Congrats to you all on one year! Some have successfully slayed the dragon so to speak. Even though I cannot claim the prize I have learned so much from all of you. Today is day 7! Looking forward to a sober day! My goal, celebrate my year anniversary next year!!
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Hi guys
just heading out on family vaca to the mts, should be good.
I hope everyone is well, and happy Aug 1, I am so proud of everyone who is celebrating 1 yr this month!
I read the AV posts, and I hear yas... I've been having it say that
"ya sure you are doing good, but with booze you had more fun"
This is a tough spot as I feel like I am still having fun, and trying hard at this, but I think it was at times more fun..for me only, not others. I still think I am only 80% there at accepting that this is a fact of all of this. The other part I know is how dysfunctional it was, most others don't carry on drunk, and just b/c I liked it, doesn't mean most others did.
love the beer and ash story hhahaha
peace and hugs without drugs
just heading out on family vaca to the mts, should be good.
I hope everyone is well, and happy Aug 1, I am so proud of everyone who is celebrating 1 yr this month!
I read the AV posts, and I hear yas... I've been having it say that
"ya sure you are doing good, but with booze you had more fun"
This is a tough spot as I feel like I am still having fun, and trying hard at this, but I think it was at times more fun..for me only, not others. I still think I am only 80% there at accepting that this is a fact of all of this. The other part I know is how dysfunctional it was, most others don't carry on drunk, and just b/c I liked it, doesn't mean most others did.
love the beer and ash story hhahaha
peace and hugs without drugs
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