Don't know where to post
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Can't work this place out - where to post - and no way of knowing if someone has answered unless I keep my computer open here all the time.
And I am so tired and need to sleep but if I switch off the computer or even go somewhere else I can't find this again.
And I am so tired and need to sleep but if I switch off the computer or even go somewhere else I can't find this again.
you'll get used to it Complexiti - it's a bit bewildering at first, but it really is pretty simple once you get the hang of it
You can always click 'my posts' (near the middle of the big blue toolbar* that runs across the top of every page here)
then click on my threads that drops down as an option - that will take you to back to this thread
Welcome
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*This is the same as least's 'big blue bar' LOL
You can always click 'my posts' (near the middle of the big blue toolbar* that runs across the top of every page here)
then click on my threads that drops down as an option - that will take you to back to this thread
Welcome
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*This is the same as least's 'big blue bar' LOL
Last edited by Dee74; 01-21-2012 at 01:32 PM.
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Welcome complexiti. It's completely anonymous. No one is going to know who you are unless you want them to.
Can you at least tell us what you are struggling with. I promise you are not alone with it.
God bless.
Can you at least tell us what you are struggling with. I promise you are not alone with it.
God bless.
I hope you're okay and not in a dangerous situation. There are forums here for alcoholism and addiction, and if you are living with an alcoholic/addict, there are forums for that, too.
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Don't have much left and know I will feel even worse when it has gone and the alcohol tries to leave my system.
I hate it. I suppose I am drunk but I am a functioning alcoholic and can hide it but I know I am probably drunk. And I know how bad I will feel when this wears off and I have no more alcohol in the house.
I hate myself
Welcome, Complexiti -
I'm so sorry you're in a bad place - we all understand what that feels like. It's hard to stop after a week of drinking and could even be dangerous..... Can you get to a doctor or ER? I know it's the last thing you probably want to do right now (especially when you're feeling sick), but sometimes we just have to be willing to accept help.
Drinking took me to a dark place and made me hate myself, too. You don't have to live like this. We're here to support you, so keep posting/reading.:ghug3
I'm so sorry you're in a bad place - we all understand what that feels like. It's hard to stop after a week of drinking and could even be dangerous..... Can you get to a doctor or ER? I know it's the last thing you probably want to do right now (especially when you're feeling sick), but sometimes we just have to be willing to accept help.
Drinking took me to a dark place and made me hate myself, too. You don't have to live like this. We're here to support you, so keep posting/reading.:ghug3
Complexiti, you are on a forum where people understand exactly how you feel. There is life beyond the bottle my friend. We are here to support you. Keep reading other threads and please keep posting how you are feeling and thinking.
I promise you are not alone in this.
God bless.
I promise you are not alone in this.
God bless.
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I am drinking and I feel so ill. Can go weeks no drink then start again and that is where I am now. Been drinking for maybe a week now.
Don't have much left and know I will feel even worse when it has gone and the alcohol tries to leave my system.
I hate it. I suppose I am drunk but I am a functioning alcoholic and can hide it but I know I am probably drunk. And I know how bad I will feel when this wears off and I have no more alcohol in the house.
I hate myself
Don't have much left and know I will feel even worse when it has gone and the alcohol tries to leave my system.
I hate it. I suppose I am drunk but I am a functioning alcoholic and can hide it but I know I am probably drunk. And I know how bad I will feel when this wears off and I have no more alcohol in the house.
I hate myself
Wishing you the best.
Bob R.
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Getting to a doctor or ER is out of the question - sorry but I cannot go into details as to why.
I have just one drink left in the bottle [vodka] and have the choice of drinking it now, saving it so that the morning wake-up desperation feeling will go, or chucking it down the sink.
I know what I should do but knowing what I should do is not an easy option for me.
Must explain - I think this is a US site? I am not in the US so sorry if I should not be here.
I am also very wary about saying much and no, it is not the alcohol that is making me paranoid, but I do not want to say much about me or where I am.
It is enough to know that I am an alcoholic. I accept that fact. Have known for many years that I am an alcoholic. And know that I have to stop drinking.
But it is hard. Because alcohol blanks out all the bad things, blanks out physical pain - and just does its best to destroy my health.
I suppose I am drunk but think I am actually capable of talking logically?
I have just one drink left in the bottle [vodka] and have the choice of drinking it now, saving it so that the morning wake-up desperation feeling will go, or chucking it down the sink.
I know what I should do but knowing what I should do is not an easy option for me.
Must explain - I think this is a US site? I am not in the US so sorry if I should not be here.
I am also very wary about saying much and no, it is not the alcohol that is making me paranoid, but I do not want to say much about me or where I am.
It is enough to know that I am an alcoholic. I accept that fact. Have known for many years that I am an alcoholic. And know that I have to stop drinking.
But it is hard. Because alcohol blanks out all the bad things, blanks out physical pain - and just does its best to destroy my health.
I suppose I am drunk but think I am actually capable of talking logically?
It is enough to know that I am an alcoholic. I accept that fact. Have known for many years that I am an alcoholic. And know that I have to stop drinking.
But it is hard. Because alcohol blanks out all the bad things, blanks out physical pain - and just does its best to destroy my health.
But it is hard. Because alcohol blanks out all the bad things, blanks out physical pain - and just does its best to destroy my health.
Yes, as you say, "it is hard." But, nothing is going to improve unless you seek help and stop drinking once and for all. All of the bad things, blanks, physical pain are going to persist until you figure out away to stop putting poison in your body. It appears to me you are having a really hard time doing this on your own. I would really encourage you to seek help to deal with this.
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I am safe, I know that. I also know how suddenly stopping drinking can affect me. I have been there before and know I will have at least 24 hours of the shakes, feeling terrible - have diabolical diarrhoea - and then I get over it and say never again, I will never drink again.
And I can be alcohol-free for a week, a month - even longer, but then I find that I have bought another bottle and so it starts again.
The vodka has gone. Down the sink. So I have none in the house.
Whether I will have the courage and strength not to buy another bottle tomorrow is something I do not know.
I am an alcoholic. I know that. I also know that I really do want to stop drinking but at the moment it is something I need help with, and where I live I cannot get that help.
I hope I will be able to find it here, if you will please accept me and my hope.
And I can be alcohol-free for a week, a month - even longer, but then I find that I have bought another bottle and so it starts again.
The vodka has gone. Down the sink. So I have none in the house.
Whether I will have the courage and strength not to buy another bottle tomorrow is something I do not know.
I am an alcoholic. I know that. I also know that I really do want to stop drinking but at the moment it is something I need help with, and where I live I cannot get that help.
I hope I will be able to find it here, if you will please accept me and my hope.
Must explain - I think this is a US site? I am not in the US so sorry if I should not be here.
Getting to a doctor or ER is out of the question - sorry but I cannot go into details as to why.
I detoxed by myself a lot, with no apparent last effects - but the last time - with no change in my drinking behaviour - I had some ministrokes.
Not everyone nearly dies of course - but noone here can predict the course of your withdrawal or what other problem you may have.
I will forever carry the legacy of my last detox - nothing is more important than your health and well being, Complexiti
whatever your reasons are for not seeing a Dr, I hope you'll reconsider them
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