Getting to a doctor or ER is out of the question - sorry but I cannot go into details as to why.
I have just one drink left in the bottle [vodka] and have the choice of drinking it now, saving it so that the morning wake-up desperation feeling will go, or chucking it down the sink.
I know what I should do but knowing what I should do is not an easy option for me.
Must explain - I think this is a US site? I am not in the US so sorry if I should not be here.
I am also very wary about saying much and no, it is not the alcohol that is making me paranoid, but I do not want to say much about me or where I am.
It is enough to know that I am an alcoholic. I accept that fact. Have known for many years that I am an alcoholic. And know that I have to stop drinking.
But it is hard. Because alcohol blanks out all the bad things, blanks out physical pain - and just does its best to destroy my health.
I suppose I am drunk but think I am actually capable of talking logically?