Welcome, Complexiti -
I'm so sorry you're in a bad place - we all understand what that feels like. It's hard to stop after a week of drinking and could even be dangerous..... Can you get to a doctor or ER? I know it's the last thing you probably want to do right now (especially when you're feeling sick), but sometimes we just have to be willing to accept help.
Drinking took me to a dark place and made me hate myself, too. You don't have to live like this. We're here to support you, so keep posting/reading.:ghug3