sleepie

Slow painful trip fora turtle Trach.

I had a bunch of soup kind of heavy on the turmeric and it isn't sitting well...

SoberLeigh

I went too heavy on the turmeric once (and I 'heard' about it for about a week); I found that less is more.

Feel better, sleepie.

SnazzyDresser

Not yet, I'm still watching Luke Cage.

trachemys

Somewhere, on some SD card, I have a picture of a box turtle coming out of a lake. He had made his way down for a drink or a bath or whatever. He was very concerned about me as he knew he was completely vulnerable.

Most self preservation trips are slow and painful.

sleepie

I have had thoughts of using this week. But I was told by a mod that it's promoting drug use so... I've just been handling it alone. need to talk about it but can't I guess . Like so many things in my life.

trachemys

You can PM me.

Dee74

I understand you're upset and unhappy...and I'm not here to argue but...lets not make this a mods vs sleepie thing - that's just not true.

There was a problem with one post and the way you phrased it.

We applied the rules to you like we would anyone and everyone else - no big deal.

Noone's trying to stop you talking or finding support, sleepie

D

courage2

Hey sleepie -- I read up on trich a little and it does sound really hard. It's worse under stress, right? I obsessively pulled out my eyebrows when I was a teenager, and still sometimes do that or similar, but rarely. You're definitely not alone -- have you ever looked for a support group? I found an online support group....

sleepie

Yes it is very crushing to a person's esteem and self image and actual image. no real cure or meds help- a small success rate with the SSRI's I cannot take. Years ago I was on an online support group but there was not a lot of activity on it. I mean I just wish that I could stop is what I need to do... just stop.

But then if it was that easy...

And yes stress exacerbates it a lot and that is why I have suffered for over 20 years.

courage2

I sympathize. I have some other kinds of mildly obsessive behaviors -- nothing as bad as trich, but still. They're hard to break. Sometimes they're easier to transfer to something less destructive. Have you tried other things to do with your hands? I'm thinking baking (kneading, chopping), sculpting, or playing an instrument like piano?

sleepie

Well as much as I would like to be able to funnel these tendencies to other activities, it doesn't work that way. I have tried to do something else when I get the urge to try and change the behavior but it never works.

sleepie

I am positively ill with anxiety at these test results today, waiting for a phone call. No one to talk to. BF does not do support. Just sitting here terrified alone.

SoberLeigh

Do you have new results, sleepie, or are you still waiting for a return call from the initial testing?

sleepie

Waiting

sleepie

The initial tests were not good, this was the re test I had to do... I know it won't be good. I'm scared it will be horrible and they'll say I have to go to the ER or something. I don't really get good news in my life... Last year I was fine but I knew it wasn't true.... And I was right not to trust it because almost a year sober now and I am worse off

SoberLeigh

I have my fingers crossed that your news is good, dear one.

If it is not good news, we will be here for you to help you deal with whatever the news may be.

We care about you, sleepie. We are not IRL but we are real and the care is genuine.

sleepie

Thanks Soberleigh I just want a chance at some decent time in my life... I've been doing my best here not even an ibuprofen.

SoberLeigh

I/we want that same chance for you, dear sleepie - very much.

I know that you are doing your best and I am so proud of you.

sleepie

Still waiting

least