Fantabulous Secular Connections Check-in Part IV
Knucklehead
Join Date: Mar 2005
Location: Davenport, WA
Posts: 4,005
Yo yo...
I can honestly say that alcohol really doesn't make me feel good anymore. And even small amounts make me feel like crap after it wears off and revs up my anxiety up for dayz.
Originally Posted by gneiss 
Well crap. Seems like a cheery bunch on here. I have the urge to go get hammered tonight. Hopefully it'll pass before I leave work.
Never settle.
Join Date: Oct 2008
Location: Under immense pressure
Posts: 1,505
I'm back to just wanting that little escape. Not so worried about how I feel later. It's ok though. Won't drink. Won't. Won't. Won't. Sorry. For a second I channeled my 8-year-old self.
Thanks for the hugs and such.
Thanks for the hugs and such.
Member
Join Date: Nov 2007
Posts: 26,425
hoping that eating that enitre roll of cookie dough will change my mood...fk doing anything ... i'll check out chat, finsih eating this tons of surgar and head to bed ....
get tired of knowing that i'll get through it and be just fine....
get tired of knowing that i'll get through it and be just fine....
Member
Join Date: Nov 2008
Location: San Francisco, CA
Posts: 753
Ah.. cookie dough therapy, nans - works for me! :ghug2
Just checking in.. looks like some ups and some downs going on here but hey - we are here and we are together and that seems to be pretty big in being able to handle this roller coaster.. :ghug
Just checking in.. looks like some ups and some downs going on here but hey - we are here and we are together and that seems to be pretty big in being able to handle this roller coaster.. :ghug
Reach Out and Touch Faith
Thread Starter
Join Date: Jul 2005
Location: On a Sailboat
Posts: 3,871
Windy, my best friend walked by my computer last night and your avatar was visible. She told me to pass on to you that it spooked the hell out of her. I told her I would as you would appreciate the thought 
Never settle.
Join Date: Oct 2008
Location: Under immense pressure
Posts: 1,505
Never sure whether I liked that avatar or not. It's creepy but strangely alluring. I do, however, love the fact that he calls himself "big idiot man child."
Hopped in the car at 7-something this morning and drove to Texas. Messed with it for a while. He he...
Saw some friends I've known since right after high school, and it was cool. My hermit-like tendencies floated away a little bit. It's nice to be around normal people who don't do drugs and make decent choices and such. I even almost went over to a friend's house when I got home, but then it occurred to me I'm supposed to work tomorrow morning. Plus his pill-popper buddy is there and I'm just tired of being around it. And, though it's killing me and I miss him greatly, I have not even text messaged exBF. Kinda proud of myself. I wonder if my hermitism had anything to do with his sorry self? Now that I'm done with him all my friends are telling me they never liked him anyway. In a way I hope this is just friendly we-hate-him-cuz-he-hurt-you. I would hope that if they had such serious reservations about him more than 3 or 4 would have said something (not that I would have listened). But even so, I don't really participate in the evisceration but I've stopped defending him. And I like it.
Hopped in the car at 7-something this morning and drove to Texas. Messed with it for a while. He he...
Saw some friends I've known since right after high school, and it was cool. My hermit-like tendencies floated away a little bit. It's nice to be around normal people who don't do drugs and make decent choices and such. I even almost went over to a friend's house when I got home, but then it occurred to me I'm supposed to work tomorrow morning. Plus his pill-popper buddy is there and I'm just tired of being around it. And, though it's killing me and I miss him greatly, I have not even text messaged exBF. Kinda proud of myself. I wonder if my hermitism had anything to do with his sorry self?
Now that I'm done with him all my friends are telling me they never liked him anyway. In a way I hope this is just friendly we-hate-him-cuz-he-hurt-you. I would hope that if they had such serious reservations about him more than 3 or 4 would have said something (not that I would have listened). But even so, I don't really participate in the evisceration but I've stopped defending him. And I like it.
lunarlovelunar
Join Date: Jan 2009
Posts: 674
Gneiss..
sounds like progress :ghug3 I understand about the friends and the "I never like him anyway" I hope to that they are just being supportive.
Windys av has always been a bit creepy but .... who can be scary with a name like that?
lol
sounds like progress :ghug3 I understand about the friends and the "I never like him anyway" I hope to that they are just being supportive.
Windys av has always been a bit creepy but .... who can be scary with a name like that?
lol
Your attitude, not your aptitude, will determine your altitude
Join Date: Dec 2006
Location: Oxnard (The Nard), CA, USA.
Posts: 13,955
Well after getting dragged across the coal's by another SR member on Katie09 post I must say that sucks..mean people suck too. Thank goodness for the block feature. Still it leaves me shook up.
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Join Date: Nov 2007
Posts: 26,425
Zen cat (hug)
Sometimes i get afraid, I feel unsafe, and i loose my compasion and strike out at others or even at myself....
I'm sorry when I do it, I'm sorry when i see others do it, I am sorry for all the wounded and hurting people i see in the wake of those sorts of storms.
but we can come together and support each other as we try to walk through our recoveries in a compasionate and meaningful way.
Sorry you got knocked around, I suspect I didn't help much
Sometimes i get afraid, I feel unsafe, and i loose my compasion and strike out at others or even at myself....
I'm sorry when I do it, I'm sorry when i see others do it, I am sorry for all the wounded and hurting people i see in the wake of those sorts of storms.
but we can come together and support each other as we try to walk through our recoveries in a compasionate and meaningful way.
Sorry you got knocked around, I suspect I didn't help much
Your attitude, not your aptitude, will determine your altitude
Join Date: Dec 2006
Location: Oxnard (The Nard), CA, USA.
Posts: 13,955
I'm gracious for the learning opportunity that all the wonderful folks at SR provide me. Openly I am thankful for your compassionate insight Ananda. I am also thankful that I'm learning...abet...slowly...with hard learned lessons...
You all make a difference...It was suggested (by my first psych doc) that I try to interact online with others. It ant easy for me...but I
:ghug try.
You all make a difference...It was suggested (by my first psych doc) that I try to interact online with others. It ant easy for me...but I
:ghug try.
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