spark42

The weekend has landed! Checking in - glad to be here. Got a nice relaxed weekend ahead...

I've got the house to myself next week so i'm a bit worried about that, apprehensive i suppose... I know it'll be a tempting time for me cos i'll feel that maybe i could "get away with it"...

I just need to be mindful of that i think. I know i don't want all the rubbish that comes with it, and that the rubbish just isn't worth it.

Might be one day at a time stuff next week, or even one hour at a time...

It's almost like i'm starting to fight the urge / compulsion a couple of days early because i know it's there... It's a fight i'm quite used to though, it's just that the trickiest times are when i'm alone.

Ananda

Sparky...i think it is good you recognize it might be a problem, yet without dwelling too much on it....

helps me to just notice the thought, set it aside and move on to something else....well..or if that doesn't work...come hre and post like hll!!!!!

We'll all be around to support you (hug)

Fubarcdn

Good morning all.
Good luck next week Spark. That would be a tough one for me too.
My wife was away the first week of my sobriety and I was tempted with the I can get away with it thing. Fortunately my son was around to spy on me and I convinced myself that he would rat me out and then I would end up on a park bench.
Be strong you can do it. Try to make some plans that don't involve drinking.

Today is Fudge day and that is the highlight of my weekend. I need to get a life soon.

californiapoppy

I know how you feel Spark every time I'm alone I keep think gee, I could have a swallow. But I don't, I come here and post or read. I've made a list of all the things I want to get done around the house, I try to do a least one thing a day. Then I'm proud of myself and it makes it easier to want to stay that way ! Have a great week, try to do things that will please everyone when they get back home. Cleaning out the garage (that dragon must make a mess in there!) or fixing up the garden...

gneiss

Last year for this same banquet I was worried about getting drunk around my professors, industry execs, donors, etc. There's one drink I have never been desperate enough to consume: Gin and Tonic. Disgusting. So I ordered one and carried it around all night. That worked out because I knew it would only be a couple hours until I could go home and have alcohol. I hope carrying a coke or tonic or something like that will help, and like last year, reminding myself it's only a couple of hours.

Was planning on leaving my money at home!!

doorknob

LOL, I'm not sure I've ever met that drink. I guess this is as good a time and place as any. I gave in and smoked pot around two weeks ago. The next day, I had a DK alcohol binge (six-pack, Coor's Light, 8 oz cans). I haven't drank again, but I've been self-medicating with tha weed. You can kick me, but please not in the rips and not with steel-toe boots. Thank you.

gneiss

Aw, DK. :ghug3 No worries, buddy. Just get yourself better.

gneiss

I occasionally find myself wishing I could actually hug people here. :ghug is cool and all, but I'm a big fan of hugs. And not just sort of lazily draping your arms around someone, either. I hug with gusto.

Ananda

DK (hug) you know what to do...so do it ok hon....sobriety is here for you

spark42

I'm a bit stereotypically british and blokey with regards to hugs in real life... But i dish virtual ones out no problem!

no-ones gonna kick you doorknob mate- just don't beat yourself up about it buddy!

I think the main thing with any mistake is to use it and learn from it.

Anyway it's one of the americanisms i'm fond of - they're not mistakes / regrets, they're life lessons...

Bit cheesy and very doctor phil (guess that's why we call them "americanisms") but i agree with the sentiment...

I'm concerned that i'll be misunderstood, that it all comes across as patronising and having a pop at the states now... I'm gonna hit "submit reply" and just hope it comes across in the spirit that it's meant!

Ananda

you are so brit sparky lol

ok so what does chuff mean...someone called me a chuff and i don't know if i've been insutled or not

allport

No kicking from me DK, just support !

:ghug3

Fubarcdn

Support from me too DK. Let's keep this in the secular forum though.

Bamboozle

DK, I won't rip ya.

spark42

well, chuffed means pleased... chuff i'm not sure about though...

Perhaps it's a northern thing? *shrugs*

Dee74

Sorry to hear that DK.

I feel very much outa step these days on SR with relapse - I just can't be all fluffy and huggy when I see people, especially those I care about, hurting themselves.

I support you of course, but only if you lay off with the booze...and kick the weed, man. Been there on that maintenance programme. It's not a step up.

Life's too short to go backwards Paul.
D

lunarise

DK I hope you are taking good care of yourself...just pick up and carry on like you were before.... hug Thanks for sharing your struggle...

Zencat

LOL.

At the risk of being accused of loving you to death there will be no
kicking in the ribs from me DK.

bugsworth

DK...I just saw this post...not sure what to say other than you know a better way.
Don't let it become a habit again...I will always be here to support you.

doorknob

I can thing of quite a few things that may or may not have had something to do with it, but when it comes down to it, I chose it. It wasn't even a fly of the handle, **** it reaction. For that reason, it was calculated and contained, at least as far as the booze. Even that small amount was a clear reminder of what alcohol does to my nervous system these days.