Class Of February 2014 Part 2
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Join Date: Apr 2013
Location: Pennsylvania
Posts: 3,313
Originally Posted by Neverthought 
What really brought me back here is that my son is very talented and I don't think I've been catering to him as best as I could. And I know the years will fly and I would hate to look back and realized he missed opportunities because of me.
I completely understand, NT, this is what keeps bringing me back, too (except insert daughter in there). I finally realized I had real problem with alcohol a few months after she turned 2. I tried AA and then got pregnant with our second, lost the baby, etc and before I knew it I was right back at it. Then I found SR last April (a few months after she turned 3). She just turned 4 and here I am still struggling and fighting this thing. Time flies and they are only this little once. I don't want anymore regrets. So, here's to getting it right this time!
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Join Date: Feb 2014
Location: Grass Valley, CA
Posts: 358
Originally Posted by LonelyShadow
Got back to the gym today and it felt amazing, as soon as I started lifting those dumbells I remembered that this is who I'm suppose to be, not a drunk. I find that strength training has been my best defence against alcohol, during my dry January I took it incredibly seriously and it was great to find my muscles were still there. For anyone thinking of things to fill their time when going sober, I'd recomend hitting the gym!
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Join Date: Feb 2013
Location: US
Posts: 205
My apologies in advance for this repost. I posted in a different thread by mistake. So Im starting over again. Working on day 2. I was an alcoholic for over 20 yrs, I had over 6yrs sober, then I went back to drinking for 3yrs, sober 8 months, drinking again for 5 months. I have tried several times to stop in Janurary. Now I start again in Feb. Dealing with depression, grief and ptsd is hard enough on thier own but mixed with drinking and it only sends me deeper into a dark place that I am desperately trying to climb out of. I made commitment to myself to come here everyday. I need to hold myself accountable somehow. Only I change me. No amount of treatment is going to help if I can not help myself. I write this to that I can see it in writing that I want to be sober.
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Join Date: Feb 2014
Location: CA
Posts: 648
Day 17 for me and feeling great. Have today and tomorrow off of work. Just having some coffee and listening to music. Yesterday, to change it up, I bought some Mandarin orange seltzer, and with the cranberry juice it tastes awesome! Can't wait to have it later.
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Join Date: Feb 2013
Location: US
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My mom was very ill (cancer then stroke) for 7yrs before she passed away. It was torture seeing her so sick. I felt very helpless. And i still do. I tried to escape all the pain and helplessness by drinking. I felt I wanted to die. Now im am trying to put myself back together. It seems alot harder this time. Alot more emotional baggage.
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Join Date: Feb 2014
Location: CA
Posts: 648
Originally Posted by alm7777
My mom was very ill (cancer then stroke) for 7yrs before she passed away. It was torture seeing her so sick. I felt very helpless. And i still do. I tried to escape all the pain and helplessness by drinking. I felt I wanted to die. Now im am trying to put myself back together. It seems alot harder this time. Alot more emotional baggage.
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Join Date: Sep 2009
Posts: 1,122
Want to say that I am all in and think this time I got it. Afraid saying that will jinx me somehow. But, I think this last stumble has changed me somehow and changed the way I feel about alcohol.. if that makes any sense. Had awful insomnia last night but no panic attacks which is good.
Still no desire to drink.
Still no desire to drink.
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Join Date: Feb 2014
Location: East Coast USA
Posts: 120,881
Originally Posted by alm7777
My apologies in advance for this repost. I posted in a different thread by mistake. So Im starting over again. Working on day 2. I was an alcoholic for over 20 yrs, I had over 6yrs sober, then I went back to drinking for 3yrs, sober 8 months, drinking again for 5 months. I have tried several times to stop in Janurary. Now I start again in Feb. Dealing with depression, grief and ptsd is hard enough on thier own but mixed with drinking and it only sends me deeper into a dark place that I am desperately trying to climb out of. I made commitment to myself to come here everyday. I need to hold myself accountable somehow. Only I change me. No amount of treatment is going to help if I can not help myself. I write this to that I can see it in writing that I want to be sober.
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Join Date: Feb 2014
Location: Midwest USA
Posts: 316
Originally Posted by alm7777
My mom was very ill (cancer then stroke) for 7yrs before she passed away. It was torture seeing her so sick. I felt very helpless. And i still do. I tried to escape all the pain and helplessness by drinking. I felt I wanted to die. Now im am trying to put myself back together. It seems alot harder this time. Alot more emotional baggage.
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Join Date: Feb 2014
Location: East Coast USA
Posts: 120,881
Originally Posted by alm7777
My mom was very ill (cancer then stroke) for 7yrs before she passed away. It was torture seeing her so sick. I felt very helpless. And i still do. I tried to escape all the pain and helplessness by drinking. I felt I wanted to die. Now im am trying to put myself back together. It seems alot harder this time. Alot more emotional baggage.
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Join Date: Sep 2009
Posts: 1,122
Just been feeling empty and am losing interest in hobbies again.. Had these problems before the drinking and not surprising they're still here. Kitty's kidney's are failing and I'm just feeling so hollow..
Im not going to let these issues become excuses to resume drinking and am going to force myself to go for a run soon.
Guess I am wallowing in self-pity. Hope everyone's day is going well.
Im not going to let these issues become excuses to resume drinking and am going to force myself to go for a run soon.
Guess I am wallowing in self-pity. Hope everyone's day is going well.
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Join Date: May 2011
Location: Pennsylvania
Posts: 1,131
Originally Posted by Ladybug2
I completely understand, NT, this is what keeps bringing me back, too (except insert daughter in there). I finally realized I had real problem with alcohol a few months after she turned 2. I tried AA and then got pregnant with our second, lost the baby, etc and before I knew it I was right back at it. Then I found SR last April (a few months after she turned 3). She just turned 4 and here I am still struggling and fighting this thing. Time flies and they are only this little once. I don't want anymore regrets. So, here's to getting it right this time!
I did remember you have a young girl around 3. How is she doing?
I'll certainly need help doing this again as well. So, yes, get it right this time LB and everyone.
So, let's all help each other out February Class. I'm glad to back already and it's only day (1). I don't know why I thought I could attempt this on my own the past few months.
Have a great night all....
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