Originally Posted by
alm7777 
My mom was very ill (cancer then stroke) for 7yrs before she passed away. It was torture seeing her so sick. I felt very helpless. And i still do. I tried to escape all the pain and helplessness by drinking. I felt I wanted to die. Now im am trying to put myself back together. It seems alot harder this time. Alot more emotional baggage.
Preparing for the loss, the loss itself, and the ensuing overwhelming grief can take its toll on mind, body and soul. I, like you, tried to escape the pain by drinking. So glad that you are here.