Class of February 2013 part 2
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Originally Posted by bunny44 
Drinking is fun. Drinking makes us better people. It is all lies. "The Beast" is an accurate name for the voice as it is the Satan side of us sitting happily aside watching us poison ourselves to death.
I know there is NOTHING alcohol can do to better my life. Not one thing can it offer me but pain. I no longer will allow it to hurt me. I will no longer forgive it for beating me up. I choose to leave this horrible relationship on my terms, now.
You can too!
xxoo
I know there is NOTHING alcohol can do to better my life. Not one thing can it offer me but pain. I no longer will allow it to hurt me. I will no longer forgive it for beating me up. I choose to leave this horrible relationship on my terms, now.
You can too!
xxoo
Thank you for your insightful words....thank you for sharing this with us.....I too choose to leave this horrible destructive relationship!!!!
Life is filled with challenges, why oh why would you want to add heartbreak and desperation and despair into the mix by continuing to torture yourself? Why did I continue to poison myself and my life for so very long?
Because this is a progressive destructive devastating illness....but we have a chance to beat it if we can just manage to not pick up a drink, one day at a time.
Hope your new job is going well!!!
Day 18 today...job interview for some house cleaning work....I need to keep it simple....still a massive amount of physical healing to do. As for the emotional struggles I'm going through; last night I was very upset, lots of problems (not surprising), and I ended up in bed with the BB and read the third step prayer over and over...it helped.
Hope all of our class has a good day/night
Love Venus xx
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Originally Posted by TypicalPisces
My story isn’t one that’s unique. It’s not even one that’s dramatic. It’s filled with booze, hangovers, self-hatred, depression and anxiety. And worst of all, isolation. Throw in a bad divorce, being the only parent involved with the children (the biological father walked out on us and choose partying & loose women over family) and no outside help.
It’s a sad swirly I’ve gotten myself into, but only I can change it. I have to start somewhere.
Today is my Day 1. 2-19-13 was my last drink. Thank you for having me.
It’s a sad swirly I’ve gotten myself into, but only I can change it. I have to start somewhere.
Today is my Day 1. 2-19-13 was my last drink. Thank you for having me.
Congratulations on Day 1 !!!! Tons of strength , love and support here; this place has kind of saved my life....thinking of you today...
Venus xx
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Originally Posted by venuscat
Day 18 today...job interview for some house cleaning work....I need to keep it simple....still a massive amount of physical healing to do. As for the emotional struggles I'm going through; last night I was very upset, lots of problems (not surprising), and I ended up in bed with the BB and read the third step prayer over and over...it helped.
Hope all of our class has a good day/night
Love Venus xx
Hope all of our class has a good day/night
Love Venus xx
Much Love!
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Originally Posted by Jimuk
Hi TP, it's great that you are here among friends that want to help each other. It's only my day 2 so let's walk this together day by day.
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Originally Posted by venuscat
So glad to have you in our February group,
Congratulations on Day 1 !!!! Tons of strength , love and support here; this place has kind of saved my life....thinking of you today...
Venus xx
Congratulations on Day 1 !!!! Tons of strength , love and support here; this place has kind of saved my life....thinking of you today...
Venus xx
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Originally Posted by Easyrider
End of day. Day 4 tomorrow. Getting closer to the weekend. First sober weekend for some time. Will be fun. Good night sober mates!
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Day 5 and going strong. I just had a couple of 10 hr days at work with hours of meetings and lots of face time with others. It was good not to be hung over or thinking about getting home for a few drinks. I have gotten better at recognizing the AV for what it is and just dealing with it. The idea that there is a beast in my brain wanting to drink is a lot easier to deal with than all the years I have just thought I was a weak and bad person.
Sure I still think about drinking but now can look at this as my AV tyring to get its needs met even if they are not what is best for me and my life.
Both my adult sons have alcohol issues and every time I am with them we party like there is no tomorrow. I have not told them I have stopped drinking but want my sobriety to be an encouragement to them. I have had too many people preach to me about drinking to think that will work with others. I just want to set an example that I can be around, have fun and be the real me without booze.
Every chance I get I am either reading or on this forum. Especially in the evenings which were my time to drink and watch tv. I am currently reading DRY by Augusten Burroughs and really enjoying it. What a great writer. I have laughed out loud of his descriptions of rehab and felt such empathy as he deals with his drinking life. I would highly recommend this book for the lessons learned as well as the entertainment factor.
Good luck and God bless all of you.
Sure I still think about drinking but now can look at this as my AV tyring to get its needs met even if they are not what is best for me and my life.
Both my adult sons have alcohol issues and every time I am with them we party like there is no tomorrow. I have not told them I have stopped drinking but want my sobriety to be an encouragement to them. I have had too many people preach to me about drinking to think that will work with others. I just want to set an example that I can be around, have fun and be the real me without booze.
Every chance I get I am either reading or on this forum. Especially in the evenings which were my time to drink and watch tv. I am currently reading DRY by Augusten Burroughs and really enjoying it. What a great writer. I have laughed out loud of his descriptions of rehab and felt such empathy as he deals with his drinking life. I would highly recommend this book for the lessons learned as well as the entertainment factor.
Good luck and God bless all of you.
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Originally Posted by venuscat
Day 18 today...job interview for some house cleaning work....I need to keep it simple....still a massive amount of physical healing to do. As for the emotional struggles I'm going through; last night I was very upset, lots of problems (not surprising
If you need someone to talk to about your emotional struggles I'm here for you whether it be in the forum or in a PM.
Day 18- you're doing great. Almost to 3 weeks! Sending good vibes your way
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Booniecat,
My boys are addicts too. It took me a long time to admit I was an addict/alcohoic because I felt like a terrible mother. Now I know god gave me this to help my kids through their disease.
It was so hard to admit it at the time but now that I have admitted it, it helps to know I HAVE to be the example. Sometimes I regret it (when I want to drink) but overall it has helped me tremendously to stay sober.
My son has been court ordered, but It has been pretty cool going to aa meetings with him.
My boys are addicts too. It took me a long time to admit I was an addict/alcohoic because I felt like a terrible mother. Now I know god gave me this to help my kids through their disease.
It was so hard to admit it at the time but now that I have admitted it, it helps to know I HAVE to be the example. Sometimes I regret it (when I want to drink) but overall it has helped me tremendously to stay sober.
My son has been court ordered, but It has been pretty cool going to aa meetings with him.
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almost 24 hours. my hands have stopped trembling. Have to stay at work for a couple more hours, then go home let the dogs out and sleep. I get so anxious to even think about sleeping, but since I worked almost 14 hours, hopefully I will just crash. I am just trying to take it one minute at a time. I dont like this day 1 feeling. Thank you everyone for your support. I want to and need to do this. I keep syaing to myself if I drink (even to feel better) i am slowly killing myself. I will not let this disease take over anymore of my life. I need to find a therapist. How do I know if they are good? What do I say when I call. Feels uncomfortable, i guess that is why I havent done it yet. Any suggestions.
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I always found the best approach was telling the truth wino - however hard it might be at the time, it really is best to just be very honest about how bad things get.
No one will judge you or move to lock you away
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No one will judge you or move to lock you away
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Originally Posted by Booniecat
The idea that there is a beast in my brain wanting to drink is a lot easier to deal with than all the years I have just thought I was a weak and bad person.
I suppose the positive spin would be that I shifted from being only half empowered to having half of me be empowered. That empowered half is doing fine, gaining ground, and has everything it needs to keep my Beast in line for the 24th straight day today.
I am no longer the prey, cowering in the corner from the voice in my head. I am the predator.
Let's hit this weekend at full strength Sobrinators! We can do this!
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