Class of February 2013 part 2
 

we continue from here:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...2013-a-21.html

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Thanks boonie I think this is awesome. Another tactic to add to my arsenal

TomJ and others, thank you. Sadly, I don't think I've gone 30 days without alcohol since I was 15. Sure, I've had stints where I kept it under 3 a day, but the nature of this beast is that it does not last. I have been aware of my problem for quite some time and have read dozens of books on the subject. Being aware of triggers is always critical, and unfortunately severe stress at work is my last remaining hurdle. Oh and surrounded by heavy drinking folks in my industry. I know all the excuses and I've been through various support orgs before, so I'm an old timer when it comes to recovery tricks, concepts, etc.

So far so good
 

Checking in. First full day nearly over. Feeling good and a lot better than I was this morning! Staying positive, drinking plenty water and watching Skyfall. So grateful for this place and all you kind people.

i took a drink :(

went to a wedding & didnt drink at that, but then had a family 'do' the next day. was tired & it was kinda stressfull, some family members annoyed me with some comments. no excuses i know. but end result was i went home & straight to a bottle store & consumed over half a bottle of gin.

pretty gutted, as i now feel guilty, a bit sick, shame, disapointment etc etc.

i do want to get sober, was tempted to just leave the forum. but as i have no one to hold me accountable out here & no AA meetings nearby (live in a small town) it's pretty hard. my resolve was so strong for 2 weeks, & crumbled just like that!

well im back....day 1....i really want this

i hope everyone else is having a better day then me.

Congrats easyrider on your day 1. I'm at day 8 stay strong and don't give up

Good morning everyone,
There are so many of us here now....all the best to everyone in their first couple of days.
Day 16.
Exhausted.
Slept well in the first week, and then it all went south; now I am sleeping again, but my body is so desperately trying to recover form the years of abuse that it just wants to rest.
Got a busy day ahead....just need to take it one hour at a time, and keep it as simple as possible.
Love Venus xx :)

I really think we get out of our recovery what we put in ND :)

I don't doubt you really want it - if you let your actions reflect that, I don't think you'll go far wrong :)

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Nouble, so glad you didn't leave us. When I joined here on day 1 you shared a story about a birthday party with me and was the first person to make me feel better. I laid in my bed and cried because I was like "ok someone else gets me". You are very important to this group.

Now it's my turn to try and make you feel better- I was 2.5 months sober when I relapsed- couldn't believe it because I had been so strong and resolved, "how did I get back here?" I wondered. I analyzed my mistakes and realized how much power this thing really has over me.

Every time I've relapsed in my life I've gotten a little bit better at this sobriety thing and so will you. Day 1. So what? You got this.

V- I've been sluggish as well. Started a little to do notebook. On each page I wrote a day of the week and a list of to dos. I've been gentle with myself, if I can't get something done because my body is tired I cross it off and reschedule it for another day. Glad your keeping it simple- we don't have to be super women just sober women =)

Well done easyrider , the first days the worst. ND - I think every slip we make we do learn from, good that you came back. Day three nearly over for me, just got back from my local aa meeting and it was good, could relate to a lot that was said, cant believe how stressed out i got about going back now! Gonna take things VERY slowly though, still deciding whats the best way for me to stop altogether, this forums helping me a lot.

My brain seems to overcomplicate things and over worry future situations- dont know if thats a common trait in us all? Speaking of future worries, Interiew tommorrow! :a108:

thanks Melissa :) that does make me feel a little better.

thankyou for caring.

don't worry im not going anywhere...i will stay with the feb 2013 group.

just had some good news today...(in my hungover state) a girl im interested in wants to go on a date next week & i just scored a part time job at a computer repair/maintanance place, the 2 weeks I had sober already paying off.

was just so silly of me to drink the other night...

i can do this!

anyone thinking of relapsing...don't...its just not worth it!
the buzz i got from the booze was kinda nice, but was quickly followed by a barrage of negative emotions.

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Encouragement to all of you. This is one of the hardest things I have ever done but one of the most important. The boo Rational Recovery and also Alan Carrs book helped set the stage for me. I am a person of faith so I mixed my faith beliefs with their more secular approach. It seems to be helping.

day 16 cont.
 

having a good day at work. Really feel good about not drinking. I am confident that beer is not the boss of me.

Thank you so much Melissa!!!!

What an awesome thing to say....I am going to make it my new catch phrase....I am so hard on myself....gonna remember that i don't have to keep trying to be that super woman....gonna be proud of being a sober woman.

love to you,

V xx :) :You_Rock_

I have an interview for a job tomorrow too! I wish you the best! I ran 3 miles this evening and it all felt great. My last drink was Saturday night and I really needed this run to finally get over the hangover. I spilled beer when I was drunk on Saturday night somewhere on my hardwood floor and cleaned up with a towel. I finally put the towel in the wash after it stank up my whole room. I'm so happy that I won't have to deal with spilled drinks anymore. I am such a terrible drunk.

So I quit for 6 months from about November 2011 to June 2012 and every since June 2012, I have been back and forth, back and forth, back and forth about my decision to quit. From June 2012 until yesterday I thought I could drink moderately. It was like a constant battle I was having with myself. "Yes, you can handle it, now that you are older." "What will you do when you are with people who are drinking? Do you want to be the awkward one left out?" Today, now, I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders because I have come to the realization that I can't drink moderately. The addictive voice inside my head has toned down and I am hoping for it to continue to get lower and less powerful. I know there will be times when it comes alive. I just want to be prepared for it. I don't care about not fitting in with the drinkers (I never did anyway, I took it to the max level almost every time).

It is such a relief to recognize this battle that has been happening in my head and to now realize which side of the fight is right (the sober side). Am I making any sense? I'm wondering if anyone has similar feelings.

best of luck Mainza :)

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Mainza - a wise person once said to me, you don't go looking for help online after one hangover. The fact you took the effort to look for "how to quit alcohol(or any drug)" means you are one of the club. We aren't moderators. I've been down that road. You may moderate for short periods of time, but the riverbed alcohol has carved out in your body will want to be filled with more and more booze as time goes on.

gosh in the last 6 days I really have noticed drinking is in ever darn show I watch! crazy