TonyR1981

You used this weekend. You will feel confident again and I'll be waiting. My addiction also said it was cool to buy adderall and then snag 3 sleeping pills. Addiction - "you will be in bed and sleeping by 11. No one will know. Go have fun!". Truth - all pills taken, no sleep for 2 days. I'm an idiot.

karilynn27

You can handle this, you don't need all these people

Yeah right..... you're trying to get me alone so you can kill me

REWIRING

Today my addiction told me that because my sponsor, who I loved, gave me the boot... I have to pick up a drink.

EternalQ

"Things have changed. Your stress is down. You've changed. I've changed. I promise it will all be different this time. We can take it as slow as you like.."

You know what, AV? You sound just like an abusive partner who is trying to get me back. So they can beat me up all over again... I am NOT biting. I refuse to believe you. You are.just saying what I WISH was true, not what IS true. I cannot go back to you. I am moving on.

JayceeL

Yes exactly! or be able to make a bottle that contains something like smelling salts and everytime I hear that voice... think about giving in I open that bottle of smelling salts and it brings me back to the reality of the truth.. Remembering the defeat and pain Alcohol brings to me.

JayceeL

"You are just looking for an answer to your other troubles by calling yourself an alcoholic I can help you deal with them, I am the only really dependable thing you know."

"You won't even make it though one weekend"

"Beer is so delicious, you should have one."

"You haven't really tried to be a moderate drinker yet, you can stop, just stay away from hard liquor."

"You really think you can make it the rest of your life without me?"

I am just starting to learn to hear my addiction talking, its scary because I thought it was me for so long...
One day at a time.

broodle

"Just one more thread ... just one more post ... " ;-)

On the internet longer than I meant to be. Time to put the towels in the dryer, see if the cat will come in, and go to bed.

Good night and thank you, SR community!

broodle

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Windancer

"Its friday...on weekends its ok to drink."
"Today is day 4...see, you dont really have a problem."
"Maybe someone will drop by with booze then I cant say no.. it will be rude not to."
"If I just drink beer its fine".

MegTheRunner

Addiction: "You don't have to tell anyone, nobody will find out...."
Me: "Pffff yea just like I NEVER call or text anyone when drunk..."

EternalQ

"Those people don't like you. Can't you see they're making fun of you? You don't need them. You have me."

Me: "Maybe I need them and maybe I don't. But I sure as hell don't need you."

ChangingforGood

Addiction "Its not abusing it when you are really in pain, so just get some medicine and take it once."
Me" I am in pain, but not so much that I will give up my 7 day mark. Go away"

karilynn27

You've been sober 10 months now, you don't really have a problem, it was just the circumstances.

Stfu.....you're trying to kill me

EternalQ

AV: "The storm is coming and you are off work, so you need to go out and get food etc and you should have alcohol in the house. It is ridiculous that you don't!! This is the perfect weather to snuggle inside sipping a drink to warm you up inside!!"

Me: "That is ridiculous, AV !! Because, I wouldn't sip, I would drink the next two days and not get anything done. And that is because, AV, what you are really saying is: EQ you need to numb out, undo the good you've done, ignore problems till they are insurmountable, and hide from life. Because that is what I did when I drank. AV, I did NOT take two days off to do THAT! Drinking alcohol in a snowstorm is NOT worth losing everything else for that supposed short term pleasure. Now, beat it AV. I have work to do."

BabyJane

Today my addiction told me :

"Just make it through your physical / drug test tomorrow and then you can go get high and relax because you don't have that much sober time, you have a little money, it will be fun, you deserve it after a week sober, blah, blah, blah...."

I hate that voice and it is very convincing. I'll need extra help tomorrow I'm
Sure. I'm a bit frightened.

WhisperStr3ngth

You're not as much of an alcoholic as so and so, you only drink 3 that gets you drunk. The election is huge anxiety for you maybe grab a bottle of wine.."

Not going to listen..

SoberForMySon

A six pack of alco pops, which you never drink, would just be a fun tasty treat after a week sober


NOT

EternalQ

AV: "Its such a beautiful night, you could be sitting on the deck having a drink as a transition into the evening. You wouldn't be lonely any longer."

ME: "No, I would drink through the night, and have to have alcohol at the house at all times, and alcohol would run my life, once again. I'd have no money, all I've worked on improving would crumble, I would hide, and the little socializing I've managed to do would die. Alcohol will always come with strings for me, and I must never, ever forget that."

MycoolFitz

The most simple, I deserve a break today.

ForMeForThem

"Maybe your problem isn't drinking, it's just drinking wine...try a different cocktail and then maybe you'll be able to be a "normal" drinker"...then that voice proceeded to name all the different cocktails I could take on as my new drink of choice and be ok...NOT!