AV: "Its such a beautiful night, you could be sitting on the deck having a drink as a transition into the evening. You wouldn't be lonely any longer."
ME: "No, I would drink through the night, and have to have alcohol at the house at all times, and alcohol would run my life, once again. I'd have no money, all I've worked on improving would crumble, I would hide, and the little socializing I've managed to do would die. Alcohol will always come with strings for me, and I must never, ever forget that."