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Hello Maytes,
Well, I'm checking in with day 8 here...I still feel pretty good. I've been keeping myself busy with craft projects and riding my Scooter on the nice days...I love to ride my Scoot, it's therapy on 2 wheels.
Allport, Good for you at making it through the weekend...I know that had to be tough. Stay strong (I know, easier than said...lol), I know you can do it.
Eclipse, Oh my dear friend...I am so sorry that you are going through such difficulty. My hubby doesn't really drink anymore, so anytime that I relapse now, it's all on me. But a few years ago...he used to drink quite a bit and anytime that I wanted to "try" to stop, it was so hard on me to do so. It was like I was waiting for him to do it with me.
I wish there was something I could do for you, it breaks my heart to see you hurting. I'm also sorry about the Mother's Day that you had...I hope things get better for you. If you need to talk, you know you can write me. Love ya girl!
Sax, It doesn't make me feel better to know that your having a crappy day
I hope tomorrow is a better one for you. How are you doing by the way? Are things at least a little better since a few days ago....I hope so. Hang in there!
HideOrSeek, 5/18 seems like such a long time away....Wahhhhh! I'm going to miss hearing from you. You seem like such a caring person and I love reading your posts...very uplifting. Well, have a safe journey where ever you are going. We will be thinking about you and sending positive thoughts your way as well. Also, thanks for letting us know that you wouldn't be around for a few days...because you know that we would worry about you Hey, here are some hugs to hold you over :ghug3
I hope all of the May Members are doing OK, I'm thinking about you all.
I feel so lucky to be a part of such a wonderful group of people...Love ya guys!!!
I'm getting ready to head to the store...so I guess that I will talk to you all later.
God Bless and lots of hugs!!!
XOXO
"May we make it through another day together."
Well, I'm checking in with day 8 here...I still feel pretty good. I've been keeping myself busy with craft projects and riding my Scooter on the nice days...I love to ride my Scoot, it's therapy on 2 wheels.
Allport, Good for you at making it through the weekend...I know that had to be tough. Stay strong (I know, easier than said...lol), I know you can do it.
Eclipse, Oh my dear friend...I am so sorry that you are going through such difficulty. My hubby doesn't really drink anymore, so anytime that I relapse now, it's all on me. But a few years ago...he used to drink quite a bit and anytime that I wanted to "try" to stop, it was so hard on me to do so. It was like I was waiting for him to do it with me.
I wish there was something I could do for you, it breaks my heart to see you hurting. I'm also sorry about the Mother's Day that you had...I hope things get better for you. If you need to talk, you know you can write me. Love ya girl!
Sax, It doesn't make me feel better to know that your having a crappy day
I hope tomorrow is a better one for you. How are you doing by the way? Are things at least a little better since a few days ago....I hope so. Hang in there!
HideOrSeek, 5/18 seems like such a long time away....Wahhhhh! I'm going to miss hearing from you. You seem like such a caring person and I love reading your posts...very uplifting. Well, have a safe journey where ever you are going. We will be thinking about you and sending positive thoughts your way as well. Also, thanks for letting us know that you wouldn't be around for a few days...because you know that we would worry about you
Hey, here are some hugs to hold you over :ghug3I hope all of the May Members are doing OK, I'm thinking about you all.
I feel so lucky to be a part of such a wonderful group of people...Love ya guys!!!
I'm getting ready to head to the store...so I guess that I will talk to you all later.
God Bless and lots of hugs!!!
XOXO
"May we make it through another day together."
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Day 4 and isn't amazing how quickly you start to feel better once you stop drinking.
I'm not at the point where I have forgotten how bad the last binge was but I'm sure it won't be long.
I'm not letting those memories go though so I will be taking time everyday to remind myself how bad things can get, I don't want to dwell on the bad times forever but for me it's important to remind myself of the results.
Hope everyone is doing well and special thoughts for Eclipse. x
I'm not at the point where I have forgotten how bad the last binge was but I'm sure it won't be long.
I'm not letting those memories go though so I will be taking time everyday to remind myself how bad things can get, I don't want to dwell on the bad times forever but for me it's important to remind myself of the results.
Hope everyone is doing well and special thoughts for Eclipse. x
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This is basically Day 1 for me (again), so I decided to join you guys here. Hope things will work out this time around. I am determined to make it happen and get help through one on one counseling and group meetings.
Have an appointment with a counseler tomorrow, we will see how this turns out. It feels like the right thing... If I let me thoughts wander and think about the future, well I am scared... a lot of stuff to do and sort through... nothing undoable though.
Talk to you all soon!
Have an appointment with a counseler tomorrow, we will see how this turns out. It feels like the right thing... If I let me thoughts wander and think about the future, well I am scared... a lot of stuff to do and sort through... nothing undoable though.
Talk to you all soon!
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Allport, You got that right....How quickly you start to feel better once you stop drinking...LOL!!! Just a few days after I haven't had a drink, I become like this ball of energy...my house never looked so good!
If I make it through today, this will be the longest I haven't had a drink in a couple of years. I usually break on day 9 and have one of my usual relapses, thinking oh I totally deserve this for going this long without a drink.
I can't wait to make it to 2 weeks, that will be an accomplishment for me.
XOXO
If I make it through today, this will be the longest I haven't had a drink in a couple of years. I usually break on day 9 and have one of my usual relapses, thinking oh I totally deserve this for going this long without a drink.
I can't wait to make it to 2 weeks, that will be an accomplishment for me.
XOXO
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Eclipse at some point you are going to have to make time, i know that your's is a difficult position especially with 4 kids! Mine was always can't stop working, need to make more money...got me nowhere, just wasted time! After all the 100's of 1000's i've made, i end up with a ******* porsche, maxed out credit cards and about 7k in the bank...what a moby (dick) for not making it the most important thing years ago.
The super funny thing is i now realise how useless i was to everyone around me whilst drinking (apart from money, nop-one ever went without), i thought as i was bringing in the bucks and always had cash on the hip, no big deal! Yeah i was, and am, an alchie but i'm hardly on a park bench?! What a joke!
Another thing i realise now is how booze slowly steals all the joy out of everything, making love, going on holidays, friends, jobs, houses, cars etc!
IMO i would not underestimate how much of an effect this will have on your children, even if you think they are too young to pick up on it. I hope you find a way to help yourself asap.
Going to rehab on Sunday, put it off a week as i wasn't sure whether i would have everything sorted by then, another great drunk brain choice! Rehab...can't believe it...guess i'd better start taking it more seriously!
You know the thing that frightens me the most is that i know that they will get me to change a huge part of my lifestyle, and in effect me! Drinking, smoking, casinos, fast cars, dodgy women...all i know at 37! Anyway let's see, good luck:-)
The super funny thing is i now realise how useless i was to everyone around me whilst drinking (apart from money, nop-one ever went without), i thought as i was bringing in the bucks and always had cash on the hip, no big deal! Yeah i was, and am, an alchie but i'm hardly on a park bench?! What a joke!
Another thing i realise now is how booze slowly steals all the joy out of everything, making love, going on holidays, friends, jobs, houses, cars etc!
IMO i would not underestimate how much of an effect this will have on your children, even if you think they are too young to pick up on it. I hope you find a way to help yourself asap.
Going to rehab on Sunday, put it off a week as i wasn't sure whether i would have everything sorted by then, another great drunk brain choice! Rehab...can't believe it...guess i'd better start taking it more seriously!
You know the thing that frightens me the most is that i know that they will get me to change a huge part of my lifestyle, and in effect me! Drinking, smoking, casinos, fast cars, dodgy women...all i know at 37! Anyway let's see, good luck:-)
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LoveToday, Welcome to our May Club....We have some very nice and supportive people in our group.
Don't worry about it being Day 1 again, I have had "many" of them...at least your here and trying
XOXO
"May we make it through another day together"
Don't worry about it being Day 1 again, I have had "many" of them...at least your here and trying
XOXO
"May we make it through another day together"
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Thanks ADayAtATime. When I got out of detox (couple of weeks ago) and started to drink again after three weeks or so, I felt really down and thought that it's pointless to try if I end up drinking again... It really took me some time to find the motivation again to say to myself "Yeah, I have to stop... it has to be today". I hope it will be my last "Day 1", but I am going to take it day by day (as your name suggests) and see what I can achieve. Definitely going to get me help, too... So I am not going through all this alone. Reading and posting is a good thing as well. Definitely helps to keep the mind busy...
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Hey there
I am so glad to see you doing so well!!!!!!!!!
Keep it up:-)
I'm not doing so hot, but am sure come Sunday i will not be drinking, they search your luggage apparently! Doesn't that sound crazy right there hehe Anyways i feel like this is the end, not the right attitude i am sure, they have said like i should look at it as a new beginning...but if i did i don't think i would be an alcoholic!
It's a great thread to see people doing so well and really helps for me to share about how i am doing too:-)
You said it LoveToday it is doable! Very doable actually, it's almost like having some sort of demon (whatever) inside of you that is just refusing to shut up!
I am so glad to see you doing so well!!!!!!!!!
Keep it up:-)
I'm not doing so hot, but am sure come Sunday i will not be drinking, they search your luggage apparently! Doesn't that sound crazy right there hehe Anyways i feel like this is the end, not the right attitude i am sure, they have said like i should look at it as a new beginning...but if i did i don't think i would be an alcoholic!
It's a great thread to see people doing so well and really helps for me to share about how i am doing too:-)
You said it LoveToday it is doable! Very doable actually, it's almost like having some sort of demon (whatever) inside of you that is just refusing to shut up!
It's time to change!
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It's been a LOOONG time since I've posted on this forum, any forum for that matter! It's sooo good to see my long time "friends" and so many new faces!!
I've been locked up in my private alcoholic hell for the past 2 1/2 mo's. I've isolated and allowed the answering machine to screen all my calls.... pretty soon the cell and landline quit ringing for the most part. I decided that I'll either drink and die, or I'll get sober and live. I'm going to do the latter.... am doing the latter. My kids are beautiful and full of life -- 22 and 20 yrs old. They are living life and feel they owe everything to me (their alcoholic mother) for their strength, zest for life and being the great people that they are. I have a lump in my throat as I write this cuz I see myself sooo very different. My mother's day cards were unbelievably touching -- full of love and respect. That's the 1st day of sobriety (at least not getting drunk). I had 2 beers last night, thinking I'd help me sleep.... wrong! I was up and down and all around all night. I won't drink today. I got out my mtn bike, made cornbread muffins for my roommate who is housesitting nearby (he just lost his best friend over the weekend
) and I'll show up for those who need me and get out of the 4 - wall syndrome. I know it'll get better not drinking!!! I've been down this road so many times before. I know what I have to do for me. I'm taking those steps to do it today!
So.... I'm believing that May 12, 2009 is my sobriety date and will move forward with all ya all here! It's a great feeling when I surrender.... Just need to do it EVERY SINGLE DAY! Hugs to all my "friends" - you know who you are! And hugs to new friends that I look forward to mtg!
I've been locked up in my private alcoholic hell for the past 2 1/2 mo's. I've isolated and allowed the answering machine to screen all my calls.... pretty soon the cell and landline quit ringing for the most part. I decided that I'll either drink and die, or I'll get sober and live. I'm going to do the latter.... am doing the latter. My kids are beautiful and full of life -- 22 and 20 yrs old. They are living life and feel they owe everything to me (their alcoholic mother) for their strength, zest for life and being the great people that they are. I have a lump in my throat as I write this cuz I see myself sooo very different. My mother's day cards were unbelievably touching -- full of love and respect. That's the 1st day of sobriety (at least not getting drunk). I had 2 beers last night, thinking I'd help me sleep.... wrong! I was up and down and all around all night. I won't drink today. I got out my mtn bike, made cornbread muffins for my roommate who is housesitting nearby (he just lost his best friend over the weekend
) and I'll show up for those who need me and get out of the 4 - wall syndrome. I know it'll get better not drinking!!! I've been down this road so many times before. I know what I have to do for me. I'm taking those steps to do it today!So.... I'm believing that May 12, 2009 is my sobriety date and will move forward with all ya all here! It's a great feeling when I surrender.... Just need to do it EVERY SINGLE DAY! Hugs to all my "friends" - you know who you are! And hugs to new friends that I look forward to mtg!
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(((((Nicki))))) my love....
I'm so happy to see you here in SR and thrilled that you have joined our May group (and such a wonderful group it is...I will say).
I've been wondering how you were doing...I kept thinking where is my little ray of Sunshine
Well, you know we're here if you ever need to talk...There have been many times that you were there for me.
I also wanted to let you guys know that I made it through Day 9....Whooo Hoooo, this is my record since about 3 years. It's going to be weird to start having double digits....LOL!
Day 10 tomorrow, we'll see how that goes...A Day At A Time.
I hope everyone is doing fine and you all have a wonderful evening!
I feel a little wiped out, my hubby and I rode our Scooter's over a hundred miles today....just going here and there, it was fun.
I guess that I will talk to you all later,
Lots of Hugs my friends
XOXO
"May we make it through another day together"
I'm so happy to see you here in SR and thrilled that you have joined our May group (and such a wonderful group it is...I will say).
I've been wondering how you were doing...I kept thinking where is my little ray of Sunshine
Well, you know we're here if you ever need to talk...There have been many times that you were there for me.
I also wanted to let you guys know that I made it through Day 9....Whooo Hoooo, this is my record since about 3 years. It's going to be weird to start having double digits....LOL!
Day 10 tomorrow, we'll see how that goes...A Day At A Time.
I hope everyone is doing fine and you all have a wonderful evening!
I feel a little wiped out, my hubby and I rode our Scooter's over a hundred miles today....just going here and there, it was fun.
I guess that I will talk to you all later,
Lots of Hugs my friends
XOXO
"May we make it through another day together"
It's time to change!
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ADayAtATime..... Yeah :rotfxko... I don't know all these new "smiley/sad/wtf faces" are on here today.... but I liked this one for YOU! It made me smile! I'm glad to be back... really! I missed you, and all you all out there!
I, my friend, really like the Class of May thread and am gonna strive to be "a part of".... Life is short.... shorter than we know! One of my great friends, best friend - died this weekend. No forewarning - not a glance as to what caused her death. Not alcoholisim, nor abuse..... just died. He's devastated -- obviously (no doubt). Reminds me of when my baby boy died, Noah.... No forewarning... No illness.... Life is a gift and we need eachother to be reminded of it consistantly!!! WE are ILL..... just in a cunning & baffling way. We got to "pull eachother's covers" and only one alkie to another can really do that successfully -- what'dya think??
Hey -- How about we start a pact? When/If you agree.... we'll come up with something good for us and others to come. What'dya think? Hugs and Love-----xoxoxoxo Nicki
I'm glad to be back... really! I missed you, and all you all out there!I, my friend, really like the Class of May thread and am gonna strive to be "a part of".... Life is short.... shorter than we know! One of my great friends, best friend - died this weekend. No forewarning - not a glance as to what caused her death. Not alcoholisim, nor abuse..... just died. He's devastated -- obviously (no doubt). Reminds me of when my baby boy died, Noah.... No forewarning... No illness.... Life is a gift and we need eachother to be reminded of it consistantly!!! WE are ILL..... just in a cunning & baffling way. We got to "pull eachother's covers" and only one alkie to another can really do that successfully -- what'dya think??
Hey -- How about we start a pact? When/If you agree.... we'll come up with something good for us and others to come. What'dya think? Hugs and Love-----xoxoxoxo Nicki
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Day 5 and feeling pretty good.
Well done on the double digits ADAAT.
Check in Eclipse and Nikki keep posting
And everyone else get posting and let us know how its going, good or bad everything helps :ghug
Well done on the double digits ADAAT.
Check in Eclipse and Nikki keep posting
And everyone else get posting and let us know how its going, good or bad everything helps :ghug
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Howdy folks,
Day 10 (double digit day....I can't believe it).
Even though I made it this far, it doesn't mean I'm not wanting to feel different. That little voice in the back of my mind is saying..."Come on, you deserve it...drink, DRINK"...lol.
So far I haven't touched any today...no cold ones in the fridge, but I do have some in the basement and I could easily slap them in the freezer and chill them real fast. But I'm not going to do it...Hanging in there and taking it in stride. In fact, I'm getting ready to grab a bite to eat...once I do that, the temptation will be all gone. Food and beer do not mix with me...Yuck!!! I usually Drink til I get my fill, then grub.
Nicki, Thank you for your post...it put a great big smile on my face. Now about the little dude (frightening/crying), I personally thought that he was laughing himself to tears....LOL!!! I could be wrong
I am truly happy that you are here...like I said before, I missed you so much!!!
Allport, Good Job on Day 5...I know your feeling pretty good right about now.
Keep up the good work
Eclipse, I hope your doing ok...thinking about you girl...we're here if you need us.
I hope everyone else is doing just peachy keen...
After I grab a bite to eat, I might sit down and do some more crafty projects...I want to make a couple of cards for some people I know.
I guess that I will talk to you later and I will "try" to ignore that little voice. Wish me luck, because I am wanting one or two...in reality I can handle Wwwwwwaaaayyyyy more than just a couple. It's sucks when the craving hits and you want to alter your mood, I don't need a reason...I just like the feeling I get when I drink...that is, until morning comes and remorse w/a hangover sets in.
Hugs everyone,
XOXO
Day 10 (double digit day....I can't believe it).
Even though I made it this far, it doesn't mean I'm not wanting to feel different. That little voice in the back of my mind is saying..."Come on, you deserve it...drink, DRINK"...lol.
So far I haven't touched any today...no cold ones in the fridge, but I do have some in the basement and I could easily slap them in the freezer and chill them real fast. But I'm not going to do it...Hanging in there and taking it in stride. In fact, I'm getting ready to grab a bite to eat...once I do that, the temptation will be all gone. Food and beer do not mix with me...Yuck!!! I usually Drink til I get my fill, then grub.
Nicki, Thank you for your post...it put a great big smile on my face. Now about the little dude (frightening/crying), I personally thought that he was laughing himself to tears....LOL!!! I could be wrong
I am truly happy that you are here...like I said before, I missed you so much!!!
Allport, Good Job on Day 5...I know your feeling pretty good right about now.
Keep up the good work
Eclipse, I hope your doing ok...thinking about you girl...we're here if you need us.
I hope everyone else is doing just peachy keen...
After I grab a bite to eat, I might sit down and do some more crafty projects...I want to make a couple of cards for some people I know.
I guess that I will talk to you later and I will "try" to ignore that little voice. Wish me luck, because I am wanting one or two...in reality I can handle Wwwwwwaaaayyyyy more than just a couple. It's sucks when the craving hits and you want to alter your mood, I don't need a reason...I just like the feeling I get when I drink...that is, until morning comes and remorse w/a hangover sets in.
Hugs everyone,
XOXO
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Why have you still got alcohol in the house ADAAT?
Is it for someone else?
I don't think I could cope with having it around lol my self control is not very good at the best of times.
Is it for someone else?
I don't think I could cope with having it around lol my self control is not very good at the best of times.
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Thanks for asking Port....The beer is mine
It's still almost a whole 12 pack and I couldn't see throwing it away.
I know it sounds crazy to still have it around.
I'm not the kind of person that drinks everyday, it's how much I drink.
I would be happy to do it "every" now and then, instead of every few days like I was doing.
I never promised myself that I was going to officially quit...I just want to stretch it out. Besides I don't like the thought of "never" doing it again...that is when I would panic then drink for the heck of it.
But you never know what the future holds...I could keep on adding up the days, then before long I just might be in the triple digits...I'm just taking it a day at a time.
Hey...maybe my beer will go stale before I have a chance to touch it again...LOLOL!!!
Wouldn't that be funny?
Hugs,
XOXO
It's still almost a whole 12 pack and I couldn't see throwing it away.
I know it sounds crazy to still have it around.
I'm not the kind of person that drinks everyday, it's how much I drink.
I would be happy to do it "every" now and then, instead of every few days like I was doing.
I never promised myself that I was going to officially quit...I just want to stretch it out. Besides I don't like the thought of "never" doing it again...that is when I would panic then drink for the heck of it.
But you never know what the future holds...I could keep on adding up the days, then before long I just might be in the triple digits...I'm just taking it a day at a time.
Hey...maybe my beer will go stale before I have a chance to touch it again...LOLOL!!!
Wouldn't that be funny?
Hugs,
XOXO
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