Going to try again- hope I make it
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Day 6
Hi everyone, I can't believe that this is my first weekend not drinking. I don't remember the last time that I didn't drink on a weekend. It's been a very long time.
My sleeping is finally getting a little better. It still takes me a good hour before i finally doze off. It's better then a few days ago were. That was terrible. I'd have insomnia real bad then dose off, then wake up, then doze off, then wake up. Not a very good sleep at all.
Today I'm checking out the different recovery radio stations on the computer. All kinds of neat things on here. I also got a recovery journal off the computer. Well, I'll write more latter tonight.
Barb
My sleeping is finally getting a little better. It still takes me a good hour before i finally doze off. It's better then a few days ago were. That was terrible. I'd have insomnia real bad then dose off, then wake up, then doze off, then wake up. Not a very good sleep at all.
Today I'm checking out the different recovery radio stations on the computer. All kinds of neat things on here. I also got a recovery journal off the computer. Well, I'll write more latter tonight.
Barb
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Trying again
Hi Everyone, I'm finally on here. I need you guys so much. Maybe i needed that last drunk last night to show me how powerless I'm am.
Last night really SUCKED!! I didn't even enjoy it last night. I cried a lot and went to bed crying. Today I feel like s**t , so bad. This is the worst hangover I ever had. I was on here checking my messages earlier and couldn't log on. I had to lay down some more.
I don't know why I drank last night. I went to my meeting last night because i wasn't in a good frame of mind thinking I would feel better. I did for a little. I even saw another old girlfriend that i was close to years ago. She picked up her 13 year medallion last night. I just started freaking last night and knew the liquor store was closing soon. It closes at 9:30PM here. So I was drinking by that time again.
I am disappointed in myself. I was doing so good. I haven't had 6 days in years. I dumped out the rest of my rum and I'm starting again. I don't want to live that way any more. Being sober is a lot easier. Definitely. Thanks for being here everyone. This forum is a god send.
Barb
Last night really SUCKED!! I didn't even enjoy it last night. I cried a lot and went to bed crying. Today I feel like s**t , so bad. This is the worst hangover I ever had. I was on here checking my messages earlier and couldn't log on. I had to lay down some more.
I don't know why I drank last night. I went to my meeting last night because i wasn't in a good frame of mind thinking I would feel better. I did for a little. I even saw another old girlfriend that i was close to years ago. She picked up her 13 year medallion last night. I just started freaking last night and knew the liquor store was closing soon. It closes at 9:30PM here. So I was drinking by that time again.
I am disappointed in myself. I was doing so good. I haven't had 6 days in years. I dumped out the rest of my rum and I'm starting again. I don't want to live that way any more. Being sober is a lot easier. Definitely. Thanks for being here everyone. This forum is a god send.
Barb
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Setting a date...
Did you set a date yet? My date was yesterday and the day before and the day before that and yes the day before that one and so on. Let me know what date you are thinking and if it is soon maybe we can give it a go on the same date. I have no idea who in the world you are but maybe if we try together we can do, God knos I have to .
I HAVE TO SOONER THAN LATER.
Let me Know
Christine
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I HAVE TO SOONER THAN LATER.
Let me Know
Christine
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Hi Christine, actually today is Day 1 for me again. I can't do this anymore. I dumped out the rest of my rum today and decided I'm not going to drink today. I go to AA because that has worked for me in the past. I had almost 2 years of sobriety in 1993. So I know it works. I don't remember why I left all those years ago. But it does work and I'm trying again and going to meetings everyday.
I don't have any words of wisdom for you. But if you really want to stop. Just do it. Today. If you don't like AA there are other programs they have links to on this forum. Also keep reading and posting on this forum. These people helped me to want to stop again. You can write me anytime or PM me. Take care.
Barb
I don't have any words of wisdom for you. But if you really want to stop. Just do it. Today. If you don't like AA there are other programs they have links to on this forum. Also keep reading and posting on this forum. These people helped me to want to stop again. You can write me anytime or PM me. Take care.
Barb
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Day 2
Hi Everybody. Hi Stone.
Well I'm on day 2 again. I'm not going to beat myself up about it. Luckily it was only on Sat that I drank. Today is another day to work on myself. I actually got up this morning. First time in a long time. I slept good too, and woke up feeling rested.
I started working on step 1 today. I probably should of last week. But you live and learn. I'm going to my meeting tonight even though its raining today because I want to and need to. I'm going to bring my pillow today because of the weather. I don't really want too because I feel embarrassed. But I have to and need too. I think sometimes I write this stuff on here for myself to see and learn too.
Barb
Well I'm on day 2 again. I'm not going to beat myself up about it. Luckily it was only on Sat that I drank. Today is another day to work on myself. I actually got up this morning. First time in a long time. I slept good too, and woke up feeling rested.
I started working on step 1 today. I probably should of last week. But you live and learn. I'm going to my meeting tonight even though its raining today because I want to and need to. I'm going to bring my pillow today because of the weather. I don't really want too because I feel embarrassed. But I have to and need too. I think sometimes I write this stuff on here for myself to see and learn too.
Barb
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